Who am I? Where am I from? Where are you going? Calm down, recent life experience made me suddenly think of this "ultimate three questions", I don't know the answer, and no one can give a standard answer. Thirty and standing, for the current me, I have not been able to stand up, although I have a family, have a small job, but life is still embarrassing. I don't know who I am, I don't know where my future will go, the only thing I know is that I want to live well, live humbly and strongly, smile at the world, smile at my own family, the hardships and hardships behind me, and carry myself silently.
I used to naively think that with my still reasonable academic qualifications and abilities, I could find a similar job, marry a wife, have children, and live a quiet and happy life. After graduation, in the eyes of the local small county people, it can be regarded as finding a good job that many people think of as a "state-owned enterprise", but the truth is not like that, from work to leaving, the poor salary has never been paid on time, to the time I really can't stand it and leave, the company has owed me 9 months of wages. I once considered suing the company when I left, asking for compensation, but after thinking about it, I decided, forget it, the company is already very difficult, and here, I have learned a lot, accumulated a lot, and made a few good brothers, which is also my gain.
In that unit that can't be looked back, working for seven or eight years, in addition to that pitiful "harvest", the biggest lesson is to plant a time bomb for me in a dilemma. In the small county at that time, the salary was two or three thousand, five insurances and one gold, and various benefits were also OK. At that time, I didn't have much ambition, I just wanted to live quietly. However, the rapid development of society will not give ordinary young people the opportunity to be comfortable, and if they do not move forward quickly, they will definitely be marginalized or eliminated by society. When I was fine, I was well fed by myself, and the whole family was not hungry, but after I became a family, I gradually felt the pressure of life. The other half is a very dependent person, but also has the natural little vanity of the little girl, these are normal, and then the child, is the parents, is the school, is the rent, is the chai rice oil salt sauce vinegar tea. For a long time, I was the only one working, poor wages, angry arrears, helpless me, had to embark on the road of borrowing money and swiping cards, even if it could not be a big fish, nor could it make beloved women, cute children, elderly parents freeze and starve, at least let them achieve enough food and clothing. And these can only be known by themselves, and the pressure can only be carried by themselves.
At that time, I took the first credit card, then the second, then the third, ... At that time, Internet financial technology had just begun, but whenever I was short of money, There was Huabei, Borrowing, JD Gold Bar, JD White Bar, Micro Particle Loan, always in my most difficult time, there would be a corresponding Internet financial borrowing channel. Sometimes I wonder how they know when I'm short of money. In this way, step by step, I jumped into the abyss of debt, but at that time, I didn't know it!
Planting melons to get melons, planting beans to get beans, growing your own bitter fruits, of course, you have to taste themselves. As of October of this year, the turnaround, borrowing, and lending to the loan finally ushered in the tragic moment of overdue. Having long since left the original unit, along the way, all the way bumpy, in the middle of this year, another city, temporarily a new beginning. This beginning is the beginning of overdue debts and restarting life; this beginning is the beginning of forced landing and no longer jumping into the pit; this beginning, carefully, foresees the beginning of a new life!
My story, slowly told to you; my story, this is the beginning...