My five years of emotional experience with a girl

I met a girl for 5 years, at the end of 2012 we were WeChat shake a shake acquaintance, when she was only 19 years old I was 5 years older than him, at first I just thought her voice was very good to listen to attract me, we chatted for about a month, at that time I was an excavator driver, she and her classmates worked in Shenyang, she and her classmates got into a twist and couldn't live together, so she offered to go out to rent a house by herself, I knew that she only went to a strange city and the salary was not very difficult, She and I borrowed 2,000 yuan to rent a house, because she was younger than me, so I persuaded her to reconcile with her classmates, but she still insisted on going out to rent a house alone, because we had not seen each other once but chatted deeply, so I hesitated for a moment and finally agreed to give her the 2,000 yuan. After more than a month of vacation, she learned that I was very happy to take the holiday and asked me to go to her to find her. I thought about it for a long time for fear of being deceived. Finally, I went to see her, and we lived together that night and established a relationship. After living together for about half a month, I went back to work because of my work relationship, and the day I left her was my birthday, and she was disappointed. I also feel sorry for her. After about 1 month she told me she was pregnant, I was very overwhelmed, after all, this was the first time I had encountered this kind of thing, at that time I can say that I was very happy and very troubled. I discussed with her for a long time because it was a long-distance relationship, and she felt that I was playing with her and would be irresponsible. So I took a leave of absence with my boss to explain the matter, and I went to pick her up and go home to see my mother. I grew up in a single-parent family, my mother lived in my stepfather's house, and my relationship with my stepfather was not very good. But I took her anyway. I told my mom. My girlfriend decided she couldn't have this kid. I reluctantly and my mother took her to the hospital to do the abortion. I cried, and my heart ached. After returning home, dad burned the kang to a special warmth, and also specially made the most nutritious big bone soup and millet porridge, and my father's actions touched me at this moment. It also made my girlfriend integrate our fragmented family into one. I am particularly touched by this. But the good times were short-lived. She's been in my house for a month and it's almost New Year's Day. My family especially liked her. Treat her like her own biological daughter. She went back to her house after New Year's Day at my house. In the new year, I was transferred to work farther away because of my work relationship, and because we did not meet, there was a lot more quarrel. Because of my playfulness she said I was cold to her, and I spent less time with her. She slowly touched the boy next to her and cheated. I was very angry when I found out. So we broke up. And WeChat and contact information are gone. But I have always been in love with her and feel sorry for her for the child. So I was silently paying attention to her. We broke up for 2 years. She had been living with the boy who had cheated on her for the past two years. I often dream that she will come back to me, and I dream that she is crying at me. Suddenly one day she appeared on my WeChat again. And said she broke up. I'm going to work abroad. I felt very uncomfortable listening to it. After all, I've always felt that the child thing is the harm I caused her irresponsibly. We met before she went abroad, and she flew to me from afar. I looked at her very haggard, and my heart was very uncomfortable. She was holding a phone for Android that wasn't more than a thousand dollars. Tell me that I have not worked for 2 years and have invested all the extra money in the cost of going abroad. I bought her the latest Apple 7PLUS. I could tell she was very impressed. She came home after a week of staying with me. Soon after, he went to Japan to join the work force. When we went to Japan, we seemed to be back to the past, always quarreling. She was always suspicious of me and this girl and that girl. I have girls on the construction site. Our relationship will be gone before we go abroad in February. This transnational love affair I don't think we can go on. She is going abroad for 3 years. It was only two months of constant quarrels. So I didn't want to affect her job and I chose to give up again. People say I'm right to do this? I was very entangled in my heart and still couldn't let go of her. I was particularly pleased that she had made my two families a family and harmonious. So for the sake of the child and this matter especially feel that I can't forget her. ay. I don't know if it's right to give up like this and leave her alone in a foreign country without anyone to accompany her, I don't know if she will be alone-------

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