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Beauty is the pursuit of human nature and instinct, especially for women, beauty is a blessing, a luck, and a weapon. But for some women, beauty is a disaster that belongs to life.
Bai Wei is a beautiful woman, her eyebrows are exquisite and flexible, her temperament is dusty and ethereal, and she has been praised by Lu Xun as a fairy. But Bai Wei's beauty is arsenic for her, the original sin of a lifetime of suffering.
Bai Wei
Bai Wei was originally named Huang Zhang, a Hunan Zixing person, whose family is not rich, but he has also been a scholar for generations. Bai Wei has shown the wind and bone of beauty since she was a child, and neighbors and relatives can't help but praise a few words lovingly when they see it, saying that this little girl must be a family with a hundred women when she grows up. But before Bai Wei could grow up, she was coveted by someone who had a son.
When she was 9 years old, Bai Wei went to see a play with her mother, and she was very eye-catching in the crowd, and she was immediately favored by a woman present.
After the drama team left, the woman invited Bai Wei's mother and daughter to eat noodles, hoping to beg this beautiful little girl to be a daughter-in-law for her son. Under the soft grinding and hard bubble, Bai Wei's mother hastily agreed to this family affair.
Bai Wei's tragic life was started by this absurd marriage, who could have imagined that the marriage of a daughter of a scholarly family was actually finalized because of a bowl of gravy noodles.
What is even more absurd is that not long after the marriage was decided, Bai Wei's mother-in-law was anxious to marry the little girl who had not yet grown up, on the grounds that she liked this daughter-in-law too much.
Bai Wei's parents were overjoyed to hear this, thinking that their daughter's in-laws liked their faces with light, and they did not think that Bai Wei was a child bride for others.
Human nature is difficult to speculate, we all think that Bai Wei, who is so liked by her mother-in-law, is a young grandmother who enters the door to be pampered, but the mother-in-law whose mouth is smeared with honey, when Bai Wei enters the door, she is treated worse than a beast.
Bai Wei's mother-in-law was a widow, and she lost her husband at a young age, and only one of her sons, Li Denggao, was held like an eyeball.
When choosing a daughter-in-law for his son, he strives for the best, so he must also look beautiful and come from a bookish family. After her daughter-in-law became her own, she longed for Bai Wei to be low to the dust in front of her son and work as a cow and a horse for the Li family.
Bai Wei was born in a family of readers, luckier than most peasant girls, and got the opportunity to read, according to the trajectory of life, her future should be bright.
Marriage is a woman's second life, and this time it changed Bai Wei's original fate and fortune, pushing her into the fiery pit.
Marrying into the Li family, Bai Wei not only interrupted her studies, but also changed from a small family jasper with ten fingers that did not touch the spring water of the yang to a tired lady with three or four lows.
Every day, the mother-in-law tortured her, not only entrusting her with all the housework such as cooking, laundry, farming, and carrying water, but also scolding and insulting her at every turn.
Not only did her mother-in-law not treat her as a person, but even her husband abused her, often beating her so badly that she could not get out of bed, and even once provoked by her mother-in-law, he would chase her with an axe and cut her.
Once, Bai Wei inadvertently broke through the ugly thing of her mother-in-law stealing people, and the mother-in-law not only did not have a weak heart, but also resented Bai Wei, and used the shrew's set to bite off her heel tendons.
Bai Wei, who lives in the Li family, is tortured to the point of not being human, and her mother-in-law and husband are vulgar and unreasonable, and she can no longer bear it and flees back to her mother's house to seek protection.
Bai Wei's mother was very distressed to see her daughter being tortured to a large circle of weight, but Bai Wei's father did not have the slightest compassion when she listened to her daughter's cries. Perhaps this reader also felt sorry for his daughter, but before becoming a father, he first chose to be a loyal defender of feudal etiquette.
The married daughter spilled water, and Bai Wei's father chose to send Bai Wei, who had escaped from the magic cave, back to make meat on the cutting board.
Later, Lee Teng-go died unexpectedly, and 16-year-old Bai Wei became a widow at the age when she was still a child.
Losing her only son, Bai Wei's mother-in-law was even more perverted, the old widow dealt with the little widow, and the Li family completely became a purgatory.
Bai Wei escaped several times again, but her father sent her back to her husband's house. Bai Wei, who was also desperate for her mother's family, chose to go quietly to her uncle's house when she escaped from her husband's house for the last time.
Fortunately, the uncle was distressed about his niece, did not reveal a trace of wind, and secretly sent Bai Wei to the Hengyang Provincial Third Girls' Normal School to study.
Bai Wei, who was devastated by feudal etiquette, was a representative of the new trend of thought in the school, and when the principal was replaced by a Qing Dynasty widow, the two forces were bound to confront each other.
The principal rejected all Western imports, did not allow students to read foreign periodicals, and directly stopped English classes. The student group represented by Bai Wei could not bear it, and contacted several open-minded teachers to sue the principal to the government.
Bai Wei when she was a student
But Bai Wei they obviously ignored an important issue, the principal is the principal sent by the government, and the people and the officials are fighting, which is tantamount to an egg touching a stone.
In the end, Bai Wei and several other students who emerged were expelled from the school and entered the Changsha Provincial First Girls' Normal School.
Bai Wei thought that by struggling to resist the injustice of fate, she would be able to remove the nail rake of fate, but she did not know that it was precisely because of the storm she set off that she led her father to Changsha.
The old-school father surrounded the school with a group of relatives, and was bound to arrest Bai Wei, an unfilial daughter, back to her husband's family. The father and daughter who thought contrary to each other could not explain each other, and Bai Wei was desperate, but she was still unwilling to give in, and she resisted to this step, and could not give up her previous achievements.
Fortunately, Bai Wei is well-known, and her classmates admire her and sympathize with her, helping her to stop the menacing "family and friends group" and give Bai Wei a chance to escape from the toilet out of the fecal hole.
If it were not for the threat of life, if it were not for the last resort, no one should be willing to seek a life with a body full of filth. It is conceivable that Bai Wei, who was persecuted by her biological father, was so desperate at that time.
To be a feudal woman who is controlled by the patriarchy and is bound by female virtue, if she does not resist, she will be meek in three or four virtues, and the greatest achievement is to obtain a chastity arch that is evaluated by men.
Bai Wei's sense of resistance has matured, and she is doomed to be unable to be a vine that "follows her father at home and marries from her husband", not to mention that the cost of climbing a big tree is too expensive.
Covered in filth, Bai Wei fled to Japan, and only then did she feel completely safe across the ocean. But a single woman, unfamiliar with Japanese life, was dazed and after a brief period of fear, she decided to survive in this place with her hands.
In order to earn living expenses, Bai Wei worked as a maid, carried sacks on her thin shoulders on the docks, and served plates at restaurants, using the money she earned to learn Japanese.
Bai Wei understood that only by learning Japanese could she fully survive in Japan and the country could completely accept her.
Immersed in the bitter water of life, Bai Wei still has not forgotten to learn, in her view, life security and spiritual pursuit are not in conflict, she is not willing to be caught by the minions of life beyond recognition.
The gift of fate has always been borne by only the indomitable, with a tenacious spirit, Bai Wei was admitted to Tokyo Higher Women's Normal University, and was eagerly immersed in the knowledge ocean of biology, history, education and psychology, aesthetics, Buddhism, philosophy and other disciplines.
She is like a newborn baby, eager to feed knowledge to give nourishment, and everything in the unknown wants to explore and pursue.
In the end, Bai Wei chose to specialize in literature, she realized the power of words in newspapers and books, and she wanted to transform these words into sharp weapons, attack this dark society, and break all injustices.
In 1923, Bai Wei was 30 years old, and when she was a teenager, she began to write and created the three-act play "Su Fei". It was also from this year that Huang Zhang disappeared, and the world only remembered "Bai Wei".
Bai Wei is a Chinese herbal medicine, bitter and cold, aromatic attack, even coincided with Bai Wei's life fate, I don't know if she thought of the bitterness and cold of her life when she gave herself this pen name.
As the name suggests, the fate of Bai Wei will also be like the nature of the herb "Bai Wei", bitter cold for a lifetime.
Bai Wei, Yang Sao
In 1924, Bai Wei encountered a disaster that she could not escape in her life, and naturally she would not realize that this was the second beginning of a disaster in her life, because she was immersed in the beauty of love and could not extricate herself.
In the season of cherry blossoms, it is a beautiful moment when love sprouts, Bai Wei is beautiful and elegant, Yang Sao is regarded as a heavenly person; Yang Sao is clear and youthful, Bai Wei fell in love at first sight, and the two first met under the cherry blossom tree, and it has been ten thousand years.
Although Bai Wei is 6 years older than Yang Sao, but the love comes fiercely and hot, this sister-brother love is as brilliant as a summer flower, and after the flowers bloom, it will eventually usher in the loneliness of autumn and winter.
Bai Wei was alone in Japan for 6 years before she ushered in a close lover who knew cold and hot, and naturally she was eager to spend her whole life, and there was no doubt about love and affection.
But for yang Sao, a sentimental literary and artistic youth, Bai Wei is not the end of love, but only the spice of his life. At that time, he had just broken up with his girlfriend, and when his feelings were at his most lonely, Bai Wei broke in, and he just used her as a medicine.
Sure enough, after a year of love, Yang Sao resolutely broke up with Bai Wei and returned to China without quitting. Bai Wei was unwilling, she handed over a heart to Yang Sao intact, and Yang Sao also gave her the love and warmth she had never had before, and she did not believe that such feelings would be hypocritical.
In order to save Yang Sao, Bai Wei returned to her hometown after 7 years of absence, and traced the footsteps of her lover all the way. Yang Sao traveled from Japan to Hangzhou, then to Zhangzhou, and then to Singapore, just to avoid Bai Wei.
The cat-and-mouse chase game ended with Bai Wei exhausted, and after a roundabout, she still went to Japan again.
Perhaps Bai Wei thought that this life and Yang Sao had ended in such a hasty way, but just when she was about to despair, Yang Sao dragged her sick body to Shanghai, and Bai Wei, who was trapped in love and could not extricate herself, once again convinced herself to go to Shanghai to find Yang Sao.
What awaited Bai Wei was no longer the sunny teenager he had been, Yang Sao was not only ill, but also in debt.
Yang Sao
But Bai Wei has nothing else to ask for, Yang Sao can be with her is already her greatest luck, she chose to join him in the literary world, and jointly form a happy family.
The literati couple is very famous and famous in the Shanghai literary scene, and is known as "a pair of petrels at the beginning of left-wing drama".
At the wedding, Bai Wei failed to wait for the groom Yang Sao, he ran away from the marriage to pursue freedom, leaving her alone with the loneliness of the wedding and the ridicule of others.
Even so, Bai Wei still believed Yang Sao's blatant and deceitful lies: "I love you! Believe me, my favorite woman is you, you remember! But I'm going to experience a hundred women, and then I'm tired and crippled, haggard like a willow that has been moved out of a hospital room, and fall into your arms forever! You wait, I'll be looking for you in three years! ”
After Yang Suo experienced a hundred women, what was left for Bai Wei was a shameful unspeakable disease, and after repeated teasing, Bai Wei finally died of heart and published "Last Night" to commemorate her and Yang Sao's love, saying goodbye to the past.
When Yang Sao, after being tired and tired, returned to Bai Wei again, she finally knew the refusal, and chose to dedicate her body to the revolutionary cause, to the northwest, to the northern wilderness, to be a practicing ascetic monk with suffering as a company.
Sculpture of Bai Wei
When Yang Sao's son Yang Beibei found Bai Wei to write a biography of her father, she was still stupid, just as affectionate as before: "My former lover was also from Zhangzhou... I have only one lover. ”
Bai Wei once said: "In my life, I was born homeless, love was fruitless, and death had no tomb!" Until she died at the age of 94, she was still alone, childless and childless.
But the literature she wrote with suffering was enough to cast a monument of immortal legend and pay tribute to her life.