Memories of a student day (I) – a long day

On the morning of September 29, 2014, in Wuhan, torrential rain poured down.

The mood was the same as the weather, it was terrible. In the morning, I had to get up early to catch the train back to Chongqing at seven o'clock, did not bring an umbrella, hurriedly bought an umbrella near the hotel, braved the heavy rain, and moved forward in a gray expanse. The first two days were in the campus of Wuhan University to help find a hotel to live, and before leaving the campus of Wuhan University, I took a taxi. "Today is Monday, last Friday people went back early, left things today, all rushed back, so in the morning it was blocked," the master said. I was depressed, worried that I wouldn't be able to get to the train, and I didn't say much in my memory. Fortunately, I caught the train later, went up to find a seat and sat down, and then Emptied my head.

Yesterday's postgraduate re-examination I can already predict the results. It was so bad that the professors gathered around, they asked two questions, they didn't answer, maybe a few minutes of effort to let me go back and wait for the result; the English interview session was not ready, and it could be seen that a teacher who had expected something from me had later become disappointed and confused about me. Along the way I didn't think about anything, I just wanted to sleep and let myself temporarily out of consciousness. The train drove all day, without appetite, without eating anything, except to answer the phone, that is, to try to put yourself to sleep.

Finally the call from the tutor came.

"Ah, little w, this ranking is indeed very low, do you want to go to graduate school",

"Ah, I'm sorry, Teacher L caused you trouble, I'm really sorry that I did so badly yesterday..."

"Why don't you take the exam?"

"But yesterday's online registration system for the graduate school has been closed, and this year it will not work."

"So what are you going to do?"

"I don't know, maybe I'll go find a job."

"Then you will take the exam next year, you should think about it first, think clearly and call me."

Unexpectedly, there is something to say at this moment, and sure enough, it is not admitted. That year, I already knew that my conditions were enough to guarantee it, and I contacted my mentor in March. L's father and my grandfather's generation are old acquaintances, their generation has a good relationship, I heard the family say that before their family lent 100 yuan to grandpa's family did not say to let it be returned; l mentor came to grandpa's house to play when he was a child, and the relationship with his uncle was very good. During the Spring Festival of 13 years, L returned to his hometown, and one night his uncle invited him to dinner, and also invited my family and my aunt's family. During this period, l said that their research institute is very good, recruiting graduate students from all over the country, after coming can let you go to Harvard; he himself is particularly busy, most of the year in Europe, there are only two enrollment places per year, one for guaranteed students and one for graduate students; the graduate school entrance score of the institute is very high, higher than that of Tsinghua Peking University; his research topic is a new topic, which has just developed in the past thirty years. I remembered that he talked about a lot of very unclear topics that day, and the relatives who ate together were also envious, and wanted me to report to him as a mentor next year.

Back to Baoyan. I was still very competitive that year. On the grade point, the first class, the grade seems to be ranked 18 (that year's college 400+ people); on the comprehensive grade (gpa + quality plus), the class is the first, the grade is fifth. In the first twenty years of that year, the students basically reported for t-university, and some students ranked 30 to 40 also reported t-university, and the results were all admitted;

In that year, the guaranteed quota was no longer guaranteed outside the district branch and guaranteed on campus, as long as there was an institution to admit it. Why didn't I know that I had multiple volunteers to put undergraduate schools last? At the beginning of that year, I went to check L's research direction, and I felt that it was indeed promising; after contacting L, he said that since it was, I would no longer consider others. The majors are not exactly the same, I specially sent my own courses and transcripts to l, he said no problem. After the family knew that I wanted to report l, they were also very happy, thinking that I had found a good mentor, and l would definitely help.

So I really only applied for this one volunteer. In fact, I know that if I only report that I fail to accept the admission, I will be very passive, but I did not think too much, although some classmates have reminded me. Moreover, from the perspective of being related to relatives, I cannot contact other teachers privately.

In August, after the internship, he went to L's side, and his research group organized a mock interview every year for students who were interested in protecting research. Although I thought I answered the mock interview fairly, he said I did a good job. That night l invited me to a meal, during which I talked about a lot of topics, such as what is doing scientific research, they where undergraduates will be admitted to The score will be directly approached by Peking University Tsinghua, before the age of 30 to exercise well, why some people write so many patents are useless, looking for a mentor must find a good tutor, I went back after the graduation application to do the graduation thesis, I came to the research group to do what to do. At that time, I had a feeling that he was very influential in the unit, and he felt that I had entered the research group.

One thing to note is that the re-examination of the L side does not prepare for professional courses, according to L, the focus is on mathematics and mechanics. I know that since I chose l's research group, I have no other way out.

The re-examination will not wait until the end of September, during which time I review the basic courses of advanced mathematics, linear algebra, probability and statistics, theoretical mechanics, and mechanics of materials. Seeing the students reviewing the professional courses, I had a strange feeling in my heart, and I felt that I did not belong to the group of the Academy of Sciences, and I panicked inexplicably. At the end of September, the re-examination, some schools are definitely not a chance, such as D University.

In the long anxiety and expectation, the re-examination was finally ushered in. On the day of the re-examination, the professor sat at a full table, and l was also present. The professors asked me two questions, the first of which was inexplicable, and I asked a number of people over the years afterwards, including some brothers who had graduated with a lot of SCI, many of whom said they didn't know and were surprised by my situation at the time; the second question was about an experimental class, asking me the name of the experimental instrument, I really forgot, I wanted to talk about the relevant topic but was interrupted by the professors. In fact, when I couldn't answer the first question, the professors were already laughing and trying to drive me away, and I felt very strange for a while. L was present and did not speak.

I was very disappointed when I was not admitted, and although my parents and uncle sent messages to encourage me along the way, I really felt empty. With 61 people taking the re-examination, I came in fourth from the bottom. When I handed over my materials to the academic teacher, I probably scanned the list and found that many of them were ordinary students, and the performance was not very bright, at most it was the National Inspirational Scholarship. I'm probably the best at undergraduate school, and even if I have two classmates of the same grade at the same school, my grade points and the like are better than theirs. At that time, the teachers themselves commented that they had a good source of students here, and I thought that there were still too few 985 and 211 students who had signed up.

Let me spend a year studying for his research group? Are you kidding? Am I going to spend a year catching up with someone who is now much behind me? And even if I pass the first test next year, what if the retest brushes me off?

That day, the soul was lost, very long.

In the evening, my friend K met me and invited me to dinner. K is the best peer I have ever met, the college entrance examination did not play well and was the last volunteer to come to C University. K Zhibo went to T University and has now done postdoctoral work at T University. I burst into tears while eating, really, I felt sorry for my parents.

I will disclose in advance that later, when I was participating in the re-examination at our school, I was also asked two questions, but those two questions I felt were quite basic, I answered very clearly at that time, my tutor was present at the time, he said that I answered very well, no need to ask again. I finished first in my re-examination at the school.

Later, I never contacted l again, and my uncle said that l's father had called him many times and said that it was a pity that I was not admitted, but what was the use of this? And what it meant to call my uncle, inexplicably.

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I wrote more than two thousand words, and I still have some sense of accomplishment. Yes, I hate l, I hate almost every day, I will never contact again in this life. Other places baoyan non-relatives are still paying attention to first come, first come, first come, I contacted him in March why didn't he admit me? If he wants to recruit someone else in the middle, why can't he just give me a reason to push me away and give me time to find another way? The consequences of his failure to be admitted made me passive, and I did not expect to be admitted to this school.

To be continued. Usually, I have to go to work, but when I have time, I am more so. Thank you!