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My cheating is a confessional (20) inner monologue of a 45-year-old woman

Many cheaters, like me, always think that they are very smart, do a good job of secrecy, can hide the sky and the sea, do not show their faces, and maintain an ambiguous relationship between the two people.

In fact, many people know that once the East Window incident occurs, it will be a devastating blow.

However, before being discovered, there were a few people who did not hold a fluke mentality and thought that they had achieved foolproof. The result is that people are not as good as heaven, and finally get things to the bottom, whether to continue to develop or end, this requires enough courage to face reality.

First, adults have adult confusion.

Because of the delay in my return to the team with the glasses man, the tourist location was originally planned to go to the Bali River Scenic Area, but because of the two of us, the location of the tour was changed to wulihu wetland park not far from Youjia Garden.

My cheating is a confessional (20) inner monologue of a 45-year-old woman

The team was quickly organized, and we didn't seem to have the mood to travel, after all, today's events just happened, me and the glasses man, has become the focus of everyone's attention, and must have added a lot of after-dinner talk to the tourists of this tour group.

Because the world is like this, many people are not good at paying attention to their own affairs, and always like to pay attention to other people's private affairs to satisfy their curiosity.

When I went to my son's room, the glasses man was comforting his son. It seems that the son asked the glasses man to give him a statement, which probably meant that the glasses man had to be responsible for me and marry me. And the glasses man said that he could not be the Lord and needed my consent.

As soon as I entered the door, my son asked me with tears in his eyes. Would you rather marry a man with glasses?

When it comes to marrying a glasses man, I really haven't seriously considered it, and my son's question really confused me.

My cheating is a confessional (20) inner monologue of a 45-year-old woman

Maybe in the world of children, two people of the opposite sex should become husband and wife, which seems to be a matter of course. However, in the adult world, often two men and women have feelings between them, not all in the form of marriage, which is a suitable ending.

Because adults have adult confusion, it is almost the norm that love can't go together.

Adults may not necessarily consider only feelings, they think more about the family, more about the child, more about the face of the child's father and mother, and even consider the two original families of both sides.

Therefore, many people will find that many families and couples do not have feelings between each other, and maintain a non-salty and unsalty husband and wife relationship, which may also be the status quo of many families.

Inseparable, inseparable, love, has long since lost that emotion. This word may be what we often say will be, so that it will be three years, five years, ten years and eight years, and finally the child is old, and the best time of life will be almost over, and it will come to an end.

2. Wulihu Wetland Park.

Originally prepared not to go out, the outside team is still waiting.

The leader shouted everyone's names in the courtyard with all his might. When my son heard my name called out, he resolutely said to me and the glasses man, you go out to play, I don't blame you, we are almost a family. What else am I afraid of, I really didn't expect my son to be able to say this. I was really angry that you wouldn't go out.

The man with glasses and I looked at each other and smiled, and this smile had a deep aftertaste, as if we had entered each other's psychology.

The understanding of our son has given great comfort to the depression in our hearts. I really want to say to my son, you are really a good son of your mother, and you understand your mother so well.

Wulihu Ecological Wetland Park is close to Youjia Garden, the northern end is closely connected to the S12 Chuxin Expressway, and the southern end is to the northwest section of the Balihe Scenic Area.

My cheating is a confessional (20) inner monologue of a 45-year-old woman

The scenic spot is divided into three parts, namely the northern section of the urban forest, the middle section of the impression water town, and the southern section of the wetland paradise.

The forest park in the northern section is full of trees, mostly planted with perennial green leaves, even in the hot June weather, walking in the park, refreshing, as if entering the natural oxygen bar.

The impression of the interruption of the water town, the crisscrossing of the river, the abundant vegetation, and the various well-known and unknown small flowers are competing for the beauty.

In particular, the lotus flowers in the river are scattered throughout the river, in a variety of ways, some with buds to be released, such as sixteen or seventeen-year-old girls; some pavilions, such as mature girls; some probes overlook, such as lovers waiting for a distant return; and some flowers and branches, such as beautiful and charming young women. Flowers are connected to leaves, leaves are connected to branches, branches are connected to water, the breeze is gentle, there are thousands of shapes, and the blue sea and the sky are seen in the distance.

My cheating is a confessional (20) inner monologue of a 45-year-old woman

In the wet paradise of the southern section, a few black-tented boats sway in the water, and the ferryman wears a bucket and holds a long pipe as if to bring you into ancient times. If you are in the snowy winter, you will definitely think of Liu Zongyuan's five words;

Thousands of mountain birds flew away, and thousands of people disappeared.

Lonely boat, fishing alone in the snow of the Cold River

Walking and stopping along the wooden boardwalk by the water's edge, my hand was still holding the hand of the glasses man. This may be a call from the heart, and there is no need for pretense.

Third, the inner monologue.

Seriously, when I started going to the wetland park, I always felt like there were hundreds of pairs of glasses watching me, and there was always someone pointing behind me, so that I didn't feel at all at the beginning of the tour.

Although there is a tour guide in front of the sound and color, people sound a little fascinated. But the glasses man and I never held each other's hands, feeling that the things the tour guide said were like endorsements, without feelings, it was to complete a prescribed task.

Later, after I held hands with the glasses man, it seemed to lighten the burden of thought, because I felt that this man could definitely take responsibility, give me dependence, and share the problems we faced with me.

My cheating is a confessional (20) inner monologue of a 45-year-old woman

Women like me sometimes really don't know, without the loving care of their husbands, how to stick to these ten years as a day, perhaps only people who have personally experienced it can feel the pain of a woman in such a situation. But I really don't want such a thing to happen in someone else's family, because it is a kind of torment for everyone.

And this kind of pain cannot be talked about with acquaintances on the outside, because others think that you are born in the blessing and do not know the blessing; the hui mother and parents say it, they say that the family is not like that, not all of them are noisy and noisy for a lifetime.

In fact, my parents didn't know that our husband and wife hadn't even quarreled over the years. I sometimes think that it is also a happy thing for husband and wife to quarrel, after all, there are still comings and goings, there are people who pay attention, and what I am at home is not as good as the existence of air, because I do not exist in the eyes of my husband. Of course, the husband did the same to his son, never fulfilling his duty as a father, perhaps only a father in honor, for it was only when he filled out the necessary documents that he had to write his name.

We went back to the house, and my son pestered his uncle to tell him about his playing experience because he had to write travel notes.

I brewed a cup of Biluo Spring Tea, and the fragrance filled this small room, warm and comfortable.

Watching the child listen with relish, the glasses man's face was filled with a happy smile, and I also reveled in temporary happiness. Because for me as a woman, even if my husband has great ability, I think it will never be as real as a warm home.

I really wanted to take this step and rewrite my destiny. But the imagination is so full, the reality is like... ~~

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