Wen/Understand Sister
More than 20 years ago, Guo Guo, who was less than 30 years old, was on fire for a while.
He occasionally dreams back in the middle of the night, and he can still think of the memories of his being sought after in bars, barbecue parties and even keynote speeches.
In the mid-to-late 1990s, Beijing was full of entrepreneurs, musicians, writers, and many people suddenly became famous, suddenly published books, suddenly had money, and even suddenly had new girlfriends.
When Guo Guo was in college, he organized a band to run a literary club, and also published a lot of poetry and short films, although he studied the teacher training major assigned by Bao, he chose to stay in Beijing after graduation under the guidance of the wonderful outside world.
Although Guo Guo rented a house in Beijing with no toilet in the hutongs of the Second Ring Road, he could ride the 28 bars for 20 minutes to Sanlitun, where he often met some writers and musicians in the bar, who talked happily and drank too much and vomited on each other.
During that time, Guo Guo published several well-known novels in the circle, and also wrote a semi-"reflecting the ideological dilemma and social trend of contemporary people".
Therefore, at the dinner table in the bar, many people called him a writer, friends took him out, and he also had face because of the writer's accompaniment, so he also ate many restaurants in Beijing.
Several times, Guo Guo encountered good things - that is, before the manuscript was written, someone advanced tens of thousands of yuan in the cost of the manuscript - you know, at that time, the house price in Beijing was only two or three thousand yuan a square meter.
The new century has come, the flood of the Internet era has generally arrived, and a new species called "network literature" has emerged. At the age of nearly 30, he made a decision that made him regret his intestines now that he remembered: in order to maintain the purity of literature and because he enjoyed the respected life in a small circle, he stayed in the Internet company for less than three days, chose to leave his job, and made a conclusion: the Internet is the graveyard of literature.
He was even discussing with his friends in the bar, encountering different opinions, and almost beating up with the strength of the wine.
Although the other party was the editor-in-chief of the website, he lost; although he won the battle that night, he lost for many years.
The rise of the Internet has put many literary lovers on the road of literature, but in the eyes of the old-school writer Guo Guo, these little brothers can't even use punctuation, and what they write has no literary style and no depth of thought, much like a group of demons dancing. At the same time, he is facing the end of the traditional serious literary magazines, and many websites have built their own websites and submitted articles on BBS, creating an extremely contradictory psychological state for him.
As a proud writer, articles always have to be published. In the early years, he could take hundreds of pieces of poetry published in college, the Internet world worked hard to write thousands of words, often no one read or say, and often scolded, seeing that even the living expenses had to be lost, bars and restaurants were gradually moving away from life, Guo Guo quickly joined an advertising agency when he was 30 years old. Do not have to entangle with customers, do not care about the literary world right and wrong, he transformed into a copywriter, and because he did a good job, he was promoted to copywriting guidance within 5 years, in the early 00s, a month can have an income of 20,000, in the era of house prices of 6,000 square meters is also leisurely. His monthly salary can buy a three-square-meter house, and in 3 years, he can buy almost 100 square meters of two-bedroom houses in Beijing at that time.
Full of warmth to think about life, not to mention that for several years did not pay too much attention to the father had a disease anxious to continue the incense, so Guo Guo quickly married the front desk sister who often worshipped him, married to consider the problem of adults, immediately to buy a house, take care of children to go to school. Fortunately, the salary level is OK, relatives and friends borrowed a little, made a down payment, and then the monthly payment of 8,000 yuan is acceptable.
Life is far more serious than the novel, because there is no hukou, coupled with the fourth year of marriage, the age of the child in kindergarten, the company he works in is not well run, 38-year-old Guo Guo feels that the tree moves the dead and the people move, and quickly changes to another company. After less than a month, it was found that the pass rate of the young man in his early 20s was higher than his copywriting, and the corresponding salary was not much lower than his. Teenagers are ambitious, young people are in a hurry, people are so humiliated in middle age, and when they come home, they are full of diapers, milk powder, and the nagging of fat daughters-in-law about school choice and living expenses... Guo Guo, who was attacked by the enemy on his back, chose divorce after a family conflict. And very righteously gave the house to his wife, at that time the price of the house near the East Fourth Ring Road was only about 13,000.
He didn't expect that the house had almost doubled tenfold when it was at its highest——— if he had known, even if he had borrowed money that year, he should have bought another suite.
After the divorce, Guo Guo re-chose a free life, first riding to Tibet and publishing a book related to Tibet; then lying dormant in Yunnan for more than a year, and then writing a book about Yunnan, which is also highly prolific among writers, but the problem is that the writing fees of the two books together are less than 30,000 yuan, which means that he is busy for two years and not as busy as he was before for two months. As a writer, he could not support himself, so at the age of 40, he chose to apply for a job as an editor at a publishing house.
Because the writing skills are OK, and have published books, although the income in the publishing house is not high, the work is also comfortable, so he stayed for eight years, and in order to be stable, he took the intermediate title, and it was rare to talk about the old guys who thought that he was also a prodigal son.
However, in the past two years, his career has encountered a big bottleneck: literature books are becoming more and more unreadable, the business department is becoming more and more unable to make ends meet, and the 50-year-old or ordinary editor is more and more embarrassed whether he adjusts his position or re-employment.
In the past few days, he has seen advertisements in the subway, ordered several recruitment software, and when he saw the requirements of others, he felt that he had no chance. Because the professional experience on the resume is OK, there are hr online chats, it is difficult to make an appointment, the interviewer opposite is a post-90s, which makes him suddenly think of himself more than 20 years ago.
The young man admitted him, but after three days of employment, he felt like an old scalper mixed in with a herd of antelopes... Every morning I struggle, do I really want to go out? Or remarry with an ex-wife, at least without having to pay rent?