Javier Dolan, then 19, directed his own Virgo "I Killed My Mom", which swept the major film festival awards that year
Such a movie title may seem very contrary to traditional Chinese culture
He single-handedly directed and wrote the film, and he also played the film's male protagonist, Yu Bell, which was also adapted from some of his life experiences, and it is said that Dolan completed the script for the film at the age of 16
We love our mothers without knowing it
There is only the time of ultimate separation
Only then did I understand how deeply this love was rooted
- Maupassant
I don't know how to get it, when I was a child, I loved my mother, I loved her, I could look at her, talk to her, stay by her side, but I couldn't be her son, as anyone's son, just couldn't be her
She doesn't want me at all, I'm her burden, she's not born to be a mom, she'll get married and have kids because everybody expects her to do it, everybody expects women to do this, in short, almost everybody.
I really wish my mom was dead, and I did love her, but not my son's love for his mother, and it was super strange, and if someone hurt her, I would kill this guy. But at the same time, I can casually come up with a hundred more loved ones.
The story unfolds from the son's point of view, every time Yu Bell and his mother have a hysterical argument, he does not leave a little room for his mother to defend, and every sentence of the mother in the film is pushed back by the son with impeccable and incomparably correct logic. The reason for the quarrel is often the most daily small thing, friction, Yu Bell is not used to his mother's every move, the cream at the corner of the mouth in the opening of the film, the way he eats.
I can't get used to her saying the same thing over and over again, as if she has been preaching that she has paid a lot: "You go and ask your classmates, who else is driving their children to and from school now?"
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The ideal situation is to commit suicide, end life in the brain, and then be reborn, and then we can talk, look at each other, and get along, as if we have never seen each other, if I don't know my mother, we will like each other
The first time he killed his mother was when the school investigated the family salary and benefits, and Huber and the teacher said: "My mother is dead"
More than once in the film, Huber fantasizes about her mother lying in a coffin, quiet, without any quarrels
I'm sure most people think that hating their mothers is sinful, that they're so hypocritical, and that they must have hated their own mothers, maybe for a second, or a year. If it doesn't take longer, if they forget it. I don't care about this, after all, everyone has hated it.
The second time he killed his mother was an essay on the school exam paper, and his article title was "I Killed My Mom"
Hubbell's relationship with his mother, the hysterical endless quarrels, abound in reality.
For the son, how the mother who was gentle and spoiled herself when she was a child could become as incomprehensible as a shrew.
For the mother, when she was a child, she always shared everything with herself, and she didn't know when she became rebellious.
Perhaps for the mother, do not realize that the son has grown up, has his own independent personality, thinking mode, mother and son every time they say things are more like commands, in the film Yu Bell said more than once that his mother is not suitable for motherhood.
But which mother is not a first-time mother?
The whole film is full of contradictions and insoluble solutions, interspersed with several scenes of the warm picture of Yu Bell and his mother when he was a child, and the bad relationship between Yu Bell and his mother in adolescence
Huber: "What would you do if I died today?" ”
Mom: "Then I'll die tomorrow too." ”
I'm sure most moms will have the same answer when faced with questions like their son
Huber is also contradictory, he does not want to hate his mother, he loves his mother from the bottom of his heart.
He tried to express his love for his mother with action, which is the best part of the movie. Huber took the initiative to wash clothes, cook, clean the house, wash dishes, and take the initiative to take his mother's hand and say I love you.
One night, her sleeping mother was pulled out of bed by Hubert, who had suddenly returned home. Yu Bell, who had prostrated himself, sweated profusely and said in a confused manner:
"I'd love to talk to you, I've been missing you, and I've said to myself, if I don't tell you now, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, I love you, I love you."
Then because of some small things in life, they began to quarrel again, and the contradiction reached a climax in the quarrel. There are no big things, and small things and details are often more powerful, in these life-like quarrels, we see the actor's life-like performances, every scene, each quarrel seems to be like a mirror, reminiscent of the previous rebellious look, the protagonist has the shadow of each of us.
And Huber's teacher may have also sensibly expressed another kind of voice, saying, "Maybe the mother is also sad to have a child like you." ”