Text/Zhang Xiaonuan
Zhou Xiaobai is the first woman in Zhong Yuemin's life, their relationship stops at "kissing", of course, Zhou Xiaobai still wants to have further development with Zhong Yuemin, but Zhong Yuemin, who will never be idle, has long been in love.
Soon after Zhong Yuemin arrived in northern Shaanxi to join the team, he met Qin Ling, who made his soul haunted, and for this reason, Jiang Biyun looked down on Zhong Yuemin and scolded him for "eating from the bowl and worrying about the pot."
Zhong Yuemin smiled and said: "You haven't heard such a story?" When the wanderer returned to his hometown, the first thing he saw was that his lover had become someone else's wife.
At this point, Zhong Yuemin really underestimated Zhou Xiaobai, after all, Zhou Xiaobai is a person who is quite persistent about feelings.
Zhong Yuemin continued to point to the yellow land in front of him and said to Jiang Biyun: Can we plant roses on this slope under our feet? I can't, I can only grow sorghum and corn. This environment is too harsh, beautiful flowers need to have the right temperature and moisture, and so do feelings, you need to have a good environment. Others don't forget their old feelings, that is when people have enlightenment, we can't take it too seriously.
In Zhou Yuemin's eyes, Zhou Xiaobai is beautiful like a flower that needs to be cared for, and can't stand this cold life. If two people are destined to part ways, draw a full stop in the best part of the story and end it.
In Zhong Yuemin's heart, the most romantic memory with Zhou Xiaobai should start from the first "kiss".
<h1 class = "pgc-h-arrow-right" > first kiss</h1>
In the original work, it is written that Zhong Yuemin is very picky about the appearance of women, and his mother is very beautiful, no wonder his father has not remarried after his mother's death. Zhong Yuemin believes that his father cannot find a suitable candidate, and his mother's youthful style has raised his father's taste. Of course, Zhou Xiaobai is also very beautiful, if it were not for her beauty, Zhong Yuemin would not have bothered to offer her courtesy on the ice rink.
Zhong Yuemin and Zhou Xiaobai are each other's first love, Zhong Yuemin looks at Zhou Xiaobai's beauty, and Zhou Xiaobai is infatuated with all of Zhong Yuemin.
First love, always full of throbbing, is also full of exploration spirit for each other.
Once the two were playing and fighting, hugging each other, zhou Xiaobai gently pressed his face to Zhou Yuemin's chest.
Although Zhou Yuemin always calls himself a "veteran of the love scene", when the girl is delivered to the door, he is really overwhelmed. In fact, the so-called "love field veteran" title is just to tease the poor with girls, and there is no purpose.
In the original work, it is written that in that era of abstinence, Zhong Yuemin seemed to want others to be more avant-garde, and he stroked Zhou Xiaobai's hair to stop talking. Finally, he had the courage to ask tentatively: Xiao Bai, let's... What's next?
Zhou Xiaobai, a well-behaved girl who grew up under the protection of her parents and was both excellent in character and learning, was still very reserved in the face of "men and women's affairs". It is estimated that in Zhou Xiaobai's heart, he will think that Zhou Yuemin's cynical personality, coupled with his just skillful "touching his head to kill", the next step should not be to "cook mature rice with raw rice".
Zhou Xiaobai really worried about it this time, after all, Zhong Yuemin is not a "love field veteran".
Zhong Yuemin cheekily suggested: I think... Next..... It's time to kiss, and I don't know what it's like to kiss, Xiaobai, let's try?
Zhou Xiaobai always wants to lengthen every minute and every second of being with Zhou Yuemin, the slower the better, and enjoy every link well.
When Zhou Yuemin was still considering whether to proceed to the next step, Zhou Xiaobai still buried his face in Zhong Yuemin's chest and enjoyed his own warmth.
At this moment, Zhou Yuemin suddenly retreated and said: If you don't dare, forget it, to tell the truth, my heart is also a little hairy.
How could Zhou Xiaobai miss this heart-warming experience? After all, she liked Zhong Yuemin so much.
In the original work, the kiss between the two was described like this: the lips of the two finally touched together, Zhou Xiaobai was dizzy, a strong whirlwind swept in her heart, her brain appeared a blank, and her body suddenly softened...
Zhong Yuemin's brain was also dizzy, he did not expect that the woman's lips were so soft, a touch of hair and could not be received, that strange feeling, in an instant, filled the whole body, causing a shudder...
Writer Lao She said: First love is the first flower of youth, and it cannot be thrown away casually.
But for the "debauchery" Zhong Yuemin, it is simply a confinement, because from the day Zhou Xiaobai left as a soldier, Zhong Yuemin had realized that the two were two worlds after all.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" > parting letter</h1>
Soon after Zhong Yuemin arrived in northern Shaanxi, he and Qinling were "happy with each other", and both of them were people who did not ask about the results as long as the process was good, and said that the good point was called "sympathy for each other", and the ugly point was called "smelly and similar".
After all, just enjoying the process without pursuing the result is the greatest irresponsibility to the feelings.
For Zhou Yuemin, on the one hand, reason told him that "you and Zhou Xiaobai are destined to be people of two worlds", and on the other hand, sensibility beckoned to him, "Qin Ling is like you, as long as you enjoy the process.".
Therefore, Zhou Xiaobai soon received a parting letter from Zhong Yuemin, and that night, she cried silently, and even packed up her luggage and went to northern Shaanxi to find Zhong Yuemin and let him explain it clearly to his face.
In the end, he was stopped by Luo Yun.
Zhou Xiaobai's feelings for Zhong Yuemin are very much in line with the sentence "Love does not know what it is, it is always deep", she is really a dead-eyed woman, does she not know that "in the world of feelings, whoever is serious first loses"?
Zhou Xiaobai was serious, Zhong Yuemin was afraid, like to like, love to love, but he did not want any woman to tie himself.
Therefore, between Zhou Xiaobai and Qin Ling, Zhong Yuemin chose Qin Ling, who did not have results as long as the process was not fruitful.
This reminds me of Cangyang Gyatso's poem: Do happy things with a lover, regardless of whether it is a robbery or a fate. It is most appropriate to use this sentence to describe Zhou Yuemin's attitude towards feelings.
Many years later, Zhou Xiaobai learned that the real reason why Zhong Yuemin and himself broke up had nothing to do with Qin Ling, and Qin Ling's appearance only accelerated the speed of their breakup.
Zhong Yuemin said to Zhou Xiaobai: You are too "axis", and it is because of this "axis" method that I broke up with you. You scare me, I haven't promised you anything, you're already going to die, and if we go on, I dare say that sooner or later you will take your life for my sake.
Perhaps Zhou Xiaobai's treatment of emotional attachment is what many men dream of, but it is a kind of entanglement for Zhong Yuemin, because Zhong Yuemin is not a man who can be satisfied with his wife and children to live a small life, and he is always a person who will not keep to himself in his bones.
Just like When Zhong Yuemin joined the team in northern Shaanxi and encountered the years of famine, other Zhiqing went to the streets to beg for food, thinking that it was a loss of face and self-esteem, but Zhong Yuemin felt that this was a very good experience, and enjoyed it, because in his eyes, this is a new way of life, it is fresh, life should be like this, from time to time to experience a fresh experience, even if it is sitting on the high slope of the loess soil to catch lice, it is better than letting himself live a monotonous life day after day.
What Zhong Yuemin wants is a life of "on the road", and this kind of life, few women can endure.
Even If Zhou Xiaobai loves her very much, she can't, Zhou Xiaobai only wants to live a normal life, and Zhou Xiaobai is very convinced that the woman who can accompany Zhou Yuemin to live this kind of life has not yet been born.
Including Qin Ling, who does not have results in the process, she will not live this kind of "on the road" with Zhou Yuemin, she finally chose to live a comfortable and rich life with a large amount of money, Qin Ling's advertised "on the road", but the mind is on the road, and the body is always in the paper drunken gold fan. Compared with the "on the road" pursued by Zhong Yuemin, this is obviously not honest enough, which is probably the reason why Zhong Yuemin finally alienated her.
The life that Zhong Yuemin wants is like what the writer Qi yannian said: To have the most distant dreams, even if the weather is cold and the road is far away.
And the life that Zhou Xiaobai wants is "someone asks me if the porridge is warm, and someone accompanies me to stand at dusk."
The misplaced life has put Zhou Xiaobai's love at the lowest point of the scale, perhaps feelings have never been fair, and Zhou Xiaobai is playing a gamble that must be lost, but he has lost a lifetime of emotion.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" > Zhou Xiaobai's showdown, and every sentence is hate</h1>
Love without being able to do so always makes people's hearts full of hatred, after all, the boundary between love and hate is already very blurred.
When the two said goodbye, it was already three or four years later when they returned to Beijing to visit their relatives, Zhou Xiaobai thought that time would dilute his feelings for Zhou Yuemin, and even make all the love he had once turned into hateful, but when Zhou Yuemin appeared in front of her again, Zhou Xiaobai could not hate him.
No hate, no hate, but anger is true.
Zhou Xiaobai scolded Zhong Yuemin: Zhong Yuemin, you are a bastard, you forgot how we met, you should not have come to provoke me with a hippie smile, and when I fell in love with you, you were carelessly grasping to get rid of it, do you know how I came over the years?
In Zhou Xiaobai's cognition, it was you who provoked me first, why did you dump me, this matter is what you Zhong Yuemin owes me.
Zhong Yuemin, this person, is very righteous as a buddy, but he really owes it to be a lover. After breaking up with Zhou Xiaobai, he tried his best to match Zhou Xiaobai and Zhang Haiyang together. Isn't this stabbing Zhou Xiaobai's heart with a knife?
Zhou Xiaobai and Zhang Haiyang married, to a large extent, it was a gamble with Zhou Yuemin, and it was also a kind of revenge, because in Zhou Yuemin's heart, he loved Zhou Xiaobai, but he couldn't give her the life she wanted.
Zhou Xiaobai and Zhang Haiyang have been married for a long time, and they have not fully accepted Zhang Haiyang (they have not had sex together), and Zhang Haiyang understands that Zhou Xiaobai does not accept himself because he still has Zhong Yuemin in his heart. Zhou Xiaobai's doing this undoubtedly put up a barrier between Zhong Yuemin and Zhang Haiyang, and Zhong Yuemin was very concerned about the brothers' righteousness, so why wasn't this a kind of revenge?
Time passed, and under the patient influence of Zhang Haiyang, Zhou Xiaobai finally accepted him.
When accepting Zhang Haiyang, Zhou Xiaobai said to Zhong Yuemin: Yuemin, I plan to fully accept Zhang Haiyang, move home and live with him. I tell you, it's responsible for me, it's responsible for my husband, and it's also responsible for you.
When Zhong Yuemin heard these words, his heart was anxious, on the one hand, he hoped that Zhou Xiaobai and Zhang Haiyang would live a good life, on the other hand, he was sad that his former "white moonlight" would really belong to his brothers completely.
That night, Zhong Yuemin was very drunk, and he called Gao Yue in tears and said: I don't know who can say these words, do you know? Xiaobai and Zhang Haiyang are married, TM is my own matchmaking, what can I do? Qinling, Qinling........ Oh don't mention it...
All this is Zhong Yuemin's own fault.
As Zhang Haiyang said: Yuemin, you love everyone, but you love yourself even more.
Zhong Yuemin loves Zhou Xiaobai and also loves Qin Ling, but he loves himself more and loves freedom more.
Finally, I would like to end the text with a sentence from Fu Seoul, dedicated to girls like Zhou Xiaobai: Nothing should belong to you, including love, so it is good to be a little sad when you lose, and regret is the norm.
Author: Zhang Xiaonuan, may you and I meet not too late in the warm and comfortable text, and grow together
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