#My First Half of Life##Chen Junsheng##Ling##Luo Zijun##唐晶 #
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Author: Hua Yu Chi
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Note| the TV series is different from the original work
Revisiting "The First Half of My Life" again, I still feel extremely uncomfortable with the belated "affection" and kindness of Chen Junsheng's role.
In the later stage, when the protagonist's personality collapsed, everyone found that under the background of the immoral and bottomless male and female protagonists, the role of Chen Junsheng was so fresh and normal, how not out of touch with reality.
But the crux of the matter is, can he ignore the mistakes he has made because of his loyalty and affection in the later period?
In particular, his problem of cheating should not be underestimated.
In fact, if you can observe carefully, you will find that what chen Junsheng's mobile phone hides is actually the biggest mockery of Luo Zijun.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="13" > chat history that was never deleted</h1>
Chen Junsheng's derailment has always been unexpected by everyone.
Except for Tang Jing.
Long ago, Tang Jing had reminded Luo Zijun to be careful, but she didn't believe it, even in the face of reality, she even subconsciously chose to escape.
Watching this drama now, in fact, pay more attention to some details.
Just like the chat history on Chen Junsheng's mobile phone.
The chat records with Ling Ling on Chen Junsheng's mobile phone have never been deleted.
Whether it is the normal communication in daily work or the nuanced little things in life, the chat records of Chen Junsheng and Ling Ling have never been deleted.
What does this prove?
It is not that he has no guilt for Luo Zijun, and that he "cannot suppress his deep affection for Ling Ling," nor is it that he has complete trust in Luo Zijun, but that his "calculation" for Luo Zijun has reached a certain level, a degree that even he does not know.
How relieved should a husband who cheated and did not even delete the chat history of the affair be?
Or how blind is he to his wife?
In life, chen Junsheng can be said to be dedicated to Luo Zijun, but in the end, his husband still betrayed her.
At this point, no matter what, Chen Junsheng couldn't get by.
His chat records with Ling Ling are full of his own "warm pulse" with her, and although the dialogue is commonplace, it reflects his rare warmth everywhere, and these gentleness and relaxation are the places he has not shown to Luo Zijun.
What should he eat, whether it is time to add clothes, and even his own physical health is concerned by Ling Ling, not Luo Zijun's "wife," how ironic this really should be!
For this, even Ling Ling probably did not think that Chen Junsheng would be so bold.
Or let's take another guess:
Chen Junsheng was so relieved and bold, daring to keep the chat records between them, just so that Luo Zijun could discover his extramarital affair, and then divorce him naturally.
After all, everyone knows that things have developed to the extent that they can't get married and have to leave.
In fact, the crux of the matter lies in:
From the moment he kept the chat history, it meant that he had disrespect for his wife, resulting in the established fact that he had cheated on him.
Perhaps, Chen Junsheng did not expect that his wife would be so naïve.
Regarding the four words of "people's hearts are unpredictable", Luo Zijun really didn't know anything at all.
Just like Tang Jing said, Luo Zijun has been pointing his defenses at those young and beautiful little girls in the company for so many years, and he has not noticed Ling Ling, a woman who is "old and yellow".
It turns out that excessive naivety comes at a cost.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="90" > a secret</h1>
In fact, for Chen Junsheng, more often, Ling Ling is his secret that he can't see, and it is also a dark expression of his heart.
Everyone has a dark side to their hearts, but it is only the depth of the degree.
For the matter of falling in love with Ling Ling, Chen Junsheng himself was also unexpected.
Their feelings do not stem from "sex"; nor from what is called "seduction", but from "ordinary.". ”
Remember when someone once described love in marriage this way:
All love will be transformed into affection in the course of entering marriage.
In Chen Junsheng's personal opinion, the description of this sentence is very much in line with his current state.
For marriage, his vision is not so deep.
Only later, with the arrival of marriage, with the establishment of the family, with the birth of children, the fatigue of reality made him very big.
Sure enough, when people are in love with hormones, they always talk and do things without going through the brain.
In the early days of his love affair with Luo Zijun, he may have loved this wife very deeply, but later, he could only say that he had "loved".
For Ling Ling, his feelings for her can only be said to be unclear and unclear.
For Chen Junsheng, at the beginning, Ling Ling was a rare and appropriate and suitable working partner, and later with the deepening of the intersection, Ling Ling's carefulness, gentleness and wordless care became a hotbed for Chen Junsheng to breed greedy and degenerate thoughts.
In fact, at this point, if you explore who started first, there is no point.
It is better to say that this matter is that both sides are moved, and only then will such a troublesome thing happen, and it will be more vivid.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="91" > about unspeakable desires</h1>
In the face of the mistakes he committed, Chen Junsheng also secretly regretted it, but every time he regretted it, he would exchange it for more and more sinking.
Whether it is Ling Ling's gentleness to her own smallness, or her care and consideration for herself from time to time, or even for herself to "leave", it is a manifestation of her love for herself, on the contrary, he will subconsciously think of making up for it in the face of such a conscience and shame.
He understood that if you are human, you will have desires.
And in myself, I reflect this very well.
For Ling Ling, his desire is different from the sex of others, more different from the deliberate seduction of others, but lies in her understanding of herself.
What does a man who reaches middle age need the most?
Not the romance of the moon before the flower, nor the madness of youth, but a person who understands himself.
And Ling Ling became Chen Junsheng's confidant with a red face very well, and became the person who hid in the shadows.
Even Chen Junsheng himself understands this truth:
Men, always need to explain the flowers, or, is a confidant with a red face.
Who doesn't look forward to the red sleeves adding incense, flowers before the moon, waiting for the full floor of red sleeves?
Even He Han, whom he respected the most, had a confidant with a red face like Vivian come to him, and what was the problem with him having such a confidant as Ling Ling?
Just like his reminder to Tang Jing:
Don't you also talk to He Han...
For a man like Chen Junsheng, he always secretly tells himself that he is too ordinary, so it is normal to make such a mistake, although it should not be.
In this way, he secretly found excuses to comfort himself, making his behavior more and more comfortable.
It turns out that:
Stress does not mean that you can mess around, you can indulge yourself to make mistakes at will.
In doing so, Chen Junsheng is nothing more than making excuses for his love and justifying his own indulgence.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="93" > sober, but still willing to sink</h1>
Chen Junsheng's sobriety is always after making mistakes.
When he was brainwashed by Ling Ling and ignored it, whether it was even Tang Jing or Even Xue Zhenzhu, he dared to confront it, but after the successful divorce?
Chen Junsheng immediately chose to be a man with his tail between his legs and let himself return to reality and the environment.
As for the mess that developed into the end, Chen Junsheng never expected it.
Later, Chen Junsheng tried his best to remedy, not his conscience found, but he only wanted to make up for his inner loss, alleviate his guilt, and nothing more.
Even if Chen Junsheng later "had no choice" to report and expose He Han, it was also his choice, but it was just a coincidence.
He himself knew that at his age, if he did not seize the opportunity to climb up hard, then he would really only be left behind forever and be occupied by the latecomers.
Therefore, even if it is against one's own conscience, even if it is a last resort, it must be done.
If we return the matter to the previous incident of his derailment, we can also form such a "reasonable" logical theory:
Although he knows that it is wrong for him to cheat, and that this is contrary to his conscience and moral bottom line, but he has gained happiness in this, he can make himself happy, and it is in line with the development needs of his own interests, then all this is also reasonable.
Therefore, there is also his previous concept of "sober, but still want to sink".
Author: @ Hua Yu Chi, freelance writer, focusing on women's growth and emotional writing, a cheerful and food-loving woman.
Love the beauty of words, sell words for a living, and believe that one day you will achieve a better self.
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