Under the pressure, it is even more rebellious
My story has to start with my mother's good friend Aunt Chen.
Aunt Chen used to be a colleague of her mother's, and after she was laid off, she opened a small song hall. In her spare time, she often went to my mother to make a home. Sometimes when she goes, I'm arguing with my mom. If my mother can't win me, she will pick up the stick and hit me, and I hate my mother in front of others.
Last summer, my mother beat me again. She received a call from her teacher and knew that I hadn't been to school for days. She was so angry that she grabbed the wooden stick and hit me, and beat me to the ground, crying and scolding me while hitting: "Tell you to play greedily, tell you to take my money to fight the water!" Kill you as an incomplete thing..."
I was very badly injured that day, and my sister hugged me and cried, and she said sister, why don't you study well? Why are you making your mother angry?
Yes, if I study hard, I can be a treasure in the palm of my parents' hands. My sister is obedient and studies well. Dad is honest and obedient to Mom. The only thing in the family that worries my mother is me.
But I really can't learn it. In my mother's eyes, I was a bad boy. I didn't get into high school, I had to go to a technical school. Originally scattered, I couldn't learn it once I went to that environment.
Where does Mom know that the more she hits me, the less I want to learn; the more she scolds me, the more I want to disappoint her. Subconsciously, I was using my own depravity to punish my mother for being mean to me.
This beating made me completely disappointed in my mother, the family could not stay, I quarreled to go out to work, my mother did not agree. But I couldn't manage that much, and the more she didn't let me do it, the more I did it.
I went to Aunt Chen behind my mother's back and asked her to help me find a summer odd job. Aunt Chen's eyes lit up when she heard it, and she said that it was great, I was short of people there, and the girl who put the saucer for me two days ago just left, you come and put the saucer for me. 400 yuan a month.
I was full of joy, it turned out that money was so good to earn.
Drunk and lost his body, he fell into the clutches of the devil
Working in Aunt Chen's place is really easy, there are several private rooms in the song hall, when the guests come to sing songs, I will go to change their plates and occasionally hand over tea. The business was very light, for the sake of worrying about the business, during that time Aunt Chen was anxious to foam at the corners of her mouth.
One night Aunt Chen took me to spend the night. At the night stall, Aunt Chen greeted a man, "Brother Zhang, do you look down on our shop Sha?" Take care of our business! I looked at the "Brother Zhang" and felt very familiar. He often came to our area to play and sing songs to spend the night.
That day Aunt Chen took me to buy a saucer, on the road met Brother Zhang who was driving, Aunt Chen quickly greeted him, Brother Zhang asked us to get on the car, by the way to take us a foot. On the car, Aunt Chen once again invited Brother Zhang to play with us, Brother Zhang looked at me and asked Aunt Chen" "What is she doing", Aunt Chen said that I put the dish, Brother Zhang smiled and said, "I can go, can she accompany me?" Aunt Chen said yes. She smiled and said to me, "The bells know what to do!" My business is not good, and her salary cannot be paid! ”
I didn't speak along the way, and I vaguely knew what Brother Zhang meant when he said "accompanying". Aunt Chen seemed to see my thoughts and persuaded me, "You only drink tea with Brother Zhang and sit down, I will not ask you to do anything else!" You help me greet them well. "I know!" I half-heartedly agreed.
Brother Zhang was really still a rule, and for most of the month, he came almost every day. As soon as they came, they called me, and Aunt Chen's shop gradually singed and danced, and the business improved.
Once Brother Zhang asked me to accompany him out to dinner, I refused to leave the store. I said that we said that we would only sit with you in the shop, and Brother Zhang said angrily, "I gave money, why can't you accompany me to dinner?" "I was surprised and asked him what money he gave, and Brother Zhang said that every time I accompanied him to tea, he would tip Aunt Chen 100 yuan.
I was so angry that I plucked up the courage to ask Aunt Chen several times, but each time I timidly flinched.
That night, Aunt Chen suddenly said that she had something to go out and asked me to be responsible for greeting the business in the shop. She walked on the front foot, and brother Zhang on the back foot came, and he asked me to go to the night. When I saw that there was no business, I locked the door and went with him.
The place where the night is not far from the store, and I went to know that there was also a table of friends of Brother Zhang who ate and spent the night together. They took turns toasting me, but I couldn't push it off, so I had to drink it one by one. I vaguely remember that I seemed to have drunk a dozen bottles of beer that day.
I was drunk. Brother Zhang wanted to send me back to the store, and I remember pushing him away.
Sleeping until midnight, I felt like someone was moving me, but I didn't have the strength to struggle and refuse. I was so drunk that everything was like reality and like a dream. The next day, near noon, I was woken up by Aunt Chen. She asked me what was wrong, and I vaguely said I had a headache. After she went out, I suddenly woke up. I found blood on the sheets, my panties were rolled up and thrown on the ground, and my lower body was full of dried blood...
I knew I was finished. It was last August.
The human face and the beast's heart tricked me into entering the game
I was terrified and hated. I didn't dare to ask Aunt Chen what was going on, because she was "not in the shop that day", and I didn't dare to tell my mother that she would only beat me to death.
I didn't go to work in Aunt Chen's shop, went to the Internet café during the day, and went to sleep at the home of a female classmate at night. A week later, Aunt Chen came to my house and asked my mother where I was. My mom asked her, "Didn't The Bell work at your place?" Aunt Chen knew that I had never returned home, and vaguely covered up the past. Later, she found me in the Internet café and took me back to her song hall.
I plucked up the courage and told Aunt Chen about it. Until then, I still regarded her as a kind elder, and I thought that she would at least feel surprised and angry, but Aunt Chen seemed to know it for a long time, and she advised me to forget it, "Things have happened, and they have passed, you have to face reality." ”
Her expression and words made me suddenly think of that night, she said "I can't come back the next day", and Brother Zhang's group of friends who advised me to drink that day... It turned out that all this was a trap that they had premeditated long ago!
The sudden clarity in my heart made me full of fear for Aunt Chen in front of me. Seeing me silently weeping, she comforted me and said, "Brother Zhang is older, but he is a good person, and you and he will not suffer losses." Someone enlightened me and said, "Girls of your age, save some money first, your mother is so fierce to you, you don't want to count on your parents in the future..." I really wanted to shout and ask her to stop, but I couldn't say anything.
Self-abandonment, regret is too late
When Brother Zhang contacted me again, it was exactly the day I started school.
And I was horrified to find out that I was actually pregnant! My mother took me to school to register, saw the figure of my mother running before and after running for me on a hot day, for the first time, I repented in my heart, Mom, I am sorry for you!
Brother Zhang came to me, I scolded him shamelessly, he did not refute. I knew my scolding was weak and I had to rely on him to take me to the surgery.
After the operation, Brother Zhang rented me a small house near the school. I went to school every morning to hang out and then went back to my rental area to rest. Brother Zhang sometimes came to see me and gave me some money to buy what I needed. A few times, he drove to pick me up at school, and my classmates saw me and looked at me with strange eyes. A teacher asked me, "Who's the guy who picked you up," and I said he was my uncle. The teacher looked at me with a suspicious look like a knife...
I knew I shouldn't continue to deal with the person who had harmed me, but I couldn't get rid of him. I was still just an 18-year-old student and I couldn't live without him. Brother Zhang, I was exactly 22 years old, and we were
Cohabitation. He sometimes goes to my place and spends more time outside doing business.
This kind of day has been going on for a long time, I don't want to waste my mother's money like this anymore, I took the initiative to propose to my mother, I don't want to study.
Mom didn't hit me this time, she sighed deeply. I knew that from that moment on, my mother had completely abandoned me from the bottom of her heart.
In that sigh from my mother, I also gave up on myself.
My mother asked me what I would do if I didn't go to school, "You're so young," and I saw in my mother's eyes the pity I had always longed for. My heart is in tears, and I say to myself in my heart, Bell, in fact, my mother has always loved you, but you only found out today that she cares about you. Too late.
I lied to my mom that I worked in a building materials market. A classmate of mine was in that building materials market. Mom wasn't reassured and wanted to see my work environment. I was busy calling my classmates and asking her to help me lie to my mother. I also rushed to the building materials market where my classmates were, standing there bargaining with customers... Mom went, saw that I was "really" at work, and went home with confidence.
Sometimes when my mother went to the street, she occasionally went to the building materials market, and when she didn't see me, she beat me
PHS asked me why I didn't go to work, and I lied that I just had a break today...
I'm so uncomfortable, I don't know how life got to be like this. I don't know when this kind of day will come to an end.
Brother Zhang is not a good person, he likes women, gambles, and likes to beat people. He forbade me to have friends for fear that I would tell someone about me and him.
After that operation, I didn't take care of myself and I was very weak. Once Brother Zhang started to beat me again, and I didn't have the strength to resist at all.
I can only cry. Crying in despair. While crying, I dialed the phone at home, and my mother asked me what was wrong over there, and I said nothing, "Nothing, how can I cry so fiercely?" "I still say nothing, I can only say this, knowing that my mother knows what I have before crying." Brother Zhang was still shouting and shouting, and his mother asked, "Who is scolding you next to you?" "I said no, it's TV, I'm on TV.
My mother didn't believe it, and the next day she went to the building materials market to see me, and I guessed that my mother would go and go there early to start "work".