#初夏 #
In the night after dinner, I was alone in my room. Not in the mood to go to the gym, no plans to study. In this way, listening to the ticking of the second hand made me feel a kind of night silence, feel a kind of loneliness of my own. All kinds of emotions come to my heart; all kinds of past events make me reminisce...
I don't know when I started, I got used to this lonely life, and at the same time I was afraid of this lonely situation. Looking at the children downstairs, playing in the square, bursts of cheerful laughter reached my ears from time to time.
This scene reminds me of my childhood self, which is also so innocent and carefree. I always like to play in the alley mouth of the village, play until the sun goes down, and when it is time to have dinner, I will reluctantly return home.
At this time, parents have already prepared delicious meals. It is also a kind of happiness for a family to gather together, eat dinner, chat about homely meals, and watch TV for a while! When it's time to go to bed, as soon as you lie down, it won't take long for you to fall asleep. I really envy myself at that time, and I really miss the environment at that time...
After the children who played were called home by their parents, the whole square suddenly became empty, and the whole environment became more silent. A couple who returned late, holding the meal they had just bought from the market, walked arm in arm and walked into the unit door.
In this way, a very simple scene triggered my incomparable envy and infinite emotion. The age at which he should have started a family, he was still as single as ever. Watching, the classmates and friends around me, one by one, said goodbye to singles and became pairs. I was so afraid that I wouldn't have that kind of love myself; I was even more afraid that I would lose more over time.
Whenever I think about it, my mood can't help but fall down. I believe that there are lovers who will eventually become dependents, but I am worried that such a thing will not happen to me...
At this time, looking at the lights of the ten thousand homes outside, I am more eager for warmth and longing for love. Nostalgic for the innocence of childhood, envy the beautiful love of others. I admit that tonight I was a little depressed and a little sentimental.
The good thing is that I can self-regulate quickly. Because I understand that blind depression and depression will not solve the problem. The days go on, and life always has to move forward. Cheer up, work hard, what should belong to you, will always come. As the saying goes, "Whatever the world does to you, please work as hard, be brave, and hopeful." ”
Essay on an early summer night, there is a feeling! In the silent night, I don't know when my loneliness will end, but I still look forward to the day when I will no longer be alone!
Silent nights, lonely people...
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