"Do you remember what 'The Red and the Black' was about?" In the middle of the conversation, we had left the house, descended the stairs, and walked down the street. Although girls wearing Hanfu are often seen on the streets of the imperial capital today, this outfit of the two of us still brings a high-frequency return rate.
Yu Lian lost his mother at an early age and was brought up by a peasant father who worked part-time as a carpenter, with two older brothers on top. Because she looked thin and like a girl, she did not work well, and was often beaten by her father and brother. But he took Napoleon as an idol, had great ambitions, studied hard, and memorized a Bible, dreaming that one day he would be able to soar and get ahead. Later, heaven favored him, got the opportunity to enter the mayor's house as a governess, and was in love with the hostess, Mrs. Reinal, and loved to die and live. The matter was revealed, the two were tragically beaten by the mandarin duck, Lao Yan flew twice, and Yu Lian entered the marquis's house as a secretary with his own personal struggle, and painstakingly won the love of the marquis's daughter Mathilde. Who knew that not long after getting married, a letter of denunciation from the mayor's wife ruined a great future. Yu returned to his hometown day and night to shoot and wound his old lover, Madame Renal, and then begged for death and was sentenced to death..."
The March sun is warm and sunny, the sky is like a wash, and there are a few wisps of white clouds. The breeze is fine, blowing the dress fluttering. Along the way, Su Zexue told us that we had come to the front of a row of restaurants.
This row of restaurants next to Haitang Park is affordable, but the taste is not good, Zexue always goes in with high interest, orders a dish, eats a few bites, and it is difficult to get off the chopsticks. The only thing she was used to eating was a fast food restaurant called Mactaki, a cup of milk tea, a burger, and her lunch. And I have never had an appetite for this junk food, just sit with her, occasionally taste a little of her leftovers, and I don't think it's so delicious, I don't know why the children after 90 and 00 now like to eat this. Because I want to lose weight, I have always controlled the amount of food, and occasionally I can get by without eating.
In Su Zexue's dinner room, I continued: "Yu Lian is a very peculiar person, he has the shadow of the author Stendhal, in addition to being more handsome, it should be poured into all of Stendhal's personal experience, perception, and personality traits." Stendhal, a Frenchman two hundred years ago, looked unassuming, had followed Napoleon on the battlefield for many years, and later became a writer, and when he was young, he was mixed in the circle of the noble ladies of the upper class, and had an unforgettable love experience. But it may be because it is really not very good-looking, the portrait looks like a short fat man, although there is a heart of love, helplessness in the end can not get the favor of the sweetheart, did not hug the beauty. On the last night, while walking on the street, he suddenly fell ill and passed away. There are only six words on his epitaph: lived, written, loved. It can be seen that he is a very transparent and intelligent person. ”
Su Zexue said: "After the nu family read "The Red and the Black", the only place where they were puzzled was that after Yu Lian saw Madame Renal's informant letter, he did not account for her psychological activities during this period until he rode back to his hometown to shoot her. Isn't it strange that the book "The Red and the Black" is precisely a book known for psychological activity? ”
"It's actually simple. The role of Jullien should be a true portrayal of Stendhal's personal character. Stendhal, who also lost his mother when he was young, did not want to see him, he grew up with his grandfather. There is a saying that says well, happy people use childhood to heal a lifetime, and unfortunate people use a lifetime to heal childhood. The unfortunate encounter of childhood had an important impact on Stendhal or Jullien, and according to current psychological research, Jullien should have bipolar disorder like Napoleon and Van Gogh. When such people are emotionally high, they are often scrappy, have amazing memories, never forget, are ambitious, and burst with creativity. Once in the period of low decline, they will inferior themselves and blame themselves, anger others, and their heads will be in a state of ignorance for several days. I think that after Seeing Madame Renal betray her love, Jullien felt that the future was completely ruined, and no matter what she did, it would be useless and could no longer be recovered. So a road went to the black, and the broken jar was broken. Jullien's last desire to die is also because of this. Bipolar people are mostly suicidal. ”
"No, how can it be said that the bipolar phase has gone up." Officials used to say every day that the slave family had biphasic, and also said that they also had bipolar phases, could it be that this Stendhal and Yulian also had bipolar phases? ”
"Of course, this is all my own speculation, bipolar disorder has only been named in recent years, and many big figures in history, such as Lincoln, Napoleon, Churchill, are thought to have this problem, and your favorite Hemingway. In addition to Van Gogh, there are Beethoven, Picasso, Pushkin, Shelley, Byron, Gu Cheng, Sanmao and so on. ”
While we were talking, we had finished our lunch and walked out to the front of Begonia Park. It's home to our fondest memories.
It was the spring of three years ago, and Su Zexue invited me to a meal at the Jinji Liangpi of the Shili River, which was considered to be a teacher. Then I came to this park near my house. At that time, she had long hair and shoulders, wore a beige trench coat, smiled smartly in the peach blossom bushes, and was gentle like a big girl. Later, she explained that this was a disguise in front of unfamiliar people, because soon she showed her delicate side, and actually insisted on taking my hand and rolling up the sleeves of both sides, making sure to be whiter than me. Because she has always been proud of her fair complexion, but she was unexpectedly compared to me. It is strange to say that she should be a relatively more European look, high nose and deep eyes, double eyelids and large eyes, I have always said that she was born in the Great Northwest, and her ancestors must have Hu ancestry. And although I look like a standard Oriental Han Chinese, my skin is obviously whiter than hers.
In the spring of Haitang Park, a hundred flowers bloom, purple and red, like clouds everywhere, full of fragrance. Su Zexue took my arm and exhaled in his ear: "Officials, don't pull too far." Back to the point, let's talk about Jullien. Why is it said that Jullien's love has reached the highest level? ”
"Well, let's start with Stendhal." As mentioned earlier, Stendhal spent half his life in the love field, and naturally he had a lot of insights. He also wrote a huge work of "On Love", which can be said to explain the matter of love incomparably thoroughly. He believed that love is hierarchical, and the lowest level is the love of the flesh, that is, the love of lust. Then there is the love of the mind, such as listing and comparing the conditions of yourself and the other party, feeling that the other party is worthy of himself, worthy of his own love, and then choose to fall in love, this is the love of the mind. The highest level is the love of the soul, also known as the love of the soul, and the love of this time has gone beyond the calculation of worldly evaluations such as interests, doorways, reputations, etc., and even beyond lust, but has reached a holy and supreme feeling. This kind of love is not something that ordinary people can experience. Once a person experiences this kind of love, when he loses it, he will feel that his soul is torn apart, he does not want to live, and it is better to live than to die. This kind of love, once lost, makes a person willing to die. Therefore, there is a saying that 'life is precious, love is more expensive'. Ask what the worldly situation is, and teach people to live and die. It's about this highest level of love. The reason why falling out of love can make people heartbroken is because of this. ”
"The officials are right. But are you really talking about what Stendhal meant? Or your own play? ”
"You asked a good question. Of course it's my own understanding. I only vaguely remember Stendhal dividing love into the love of the flesh, the love of the mind, and the love of the soul, and I have not read his "On Love." ”
"All right. As the official just said, who did Jullien's love with reach the highest level of soul love? ”
"With Madame Renal. Although Mrs. Reinal in the book is the mayor's wife, she is simply cute, and before Lian, she has never had a real love experience, so she will be deeply in love with Lian Yi and cannot extricate herself. If it weren't for the fact that she was a devout Christian and feared that her actions would be punished by heaven for her three children, she would not have been able to fail to love her in any case. Her later whistleblowing revelations were purely due to jealousy of Mathilde. Love blinds people, and it is precisely because of the depth of love that once lost, it is almost impossible to live alone. So in the end, although Yu Lian strongly demanded that she not commit suicide, she still died a few days after Lian was hanged, which was considered to be martyrdom. ”
"Then is the love between Jullien and Mathilde a level lower, the love of the mind?"
"Exactly. Mathilde, the noble lady, was extremely well-behaved, and whoever whispered to her to please her looked down on anyone, whether you were born as a prince or the son of a peasant. In order to get him, Jullien can be said to have exhausted all kinds of means. ”
"Yeah. Speaking of this, the slave family is unclear about something, and they want to ask the officials for advice. ”
, please say.
Once, unable to bear the contempt and contempt, Jullien was enraged by Mathilde, and suddenly saw a sword hanging on the wall, so he drew his sword and stabbed her, almost killing her. Then Mathilde took a one-hundred-and-eighty-degree turn, fell to his knees at his feet, and regarded him as his master. Why? ”
Because Mathilde saw his courage from the action of Drawing His Sword to kill himself, he decided that Jullien was a great man with unlimited future. Mathilde, as a pampered aristocrat, despised the cowardly man who feared his head and tail the most. Her ancestor, a marquis, was hanged for rebellion, and then the marquise very ceremoniously held the marquis's head and buried it. Mathilde has always relished the matter and is proud of it. Later, in a different place for Yu Lian, Mathilde followed the example of his ancestors and did the same thing: he held Yu Lian's head and left. It can be seen that Mathilde, as a person, is really a person whose mind is controlled by the goddamn sense of ritual. Her love for Lian, of course, can only be the love of the mind. So later Yu Lian was so repulsive and disgusted with her in prison, because his intuition told him that although this woman was his married wife, pregnant with his child, and said that she loved him to death and lived, in fact, in essence, she only loved her own imagination, her own sense of ceremony. This kind of love cannot make people feel happy at all. ”
"Listening to the officials say this, the slave family really feels empathy."
"What? Do you have a similar experience? Let's hear it. ”
"This... Not so good. ”
"How? Afraid of officials being jealous? ”
"Mm-hmm."
"Mother, please rest assured, your family officials have a broad heart and will never eat aged vinegar." but it doesn't hurt! ”
"Okay then. The slave family just remembered the girl who had first fallen in love..."
"What? Is your first love a girl? Are you a lesbian? No, my wife is gay! How did this kind of thing make me encounter it. Sad! "I pretended to scream, but in fact my heart was overjoyed. I can imagine two girls playing at home, but it's actually quite cute.
"Neither is it! It is when the slave family was in junior high school, and I really had a special feeling for a girl, that is, that indescribable feeling, you know! ”
"Don't understand, don't understand! Tell me quickly, what the hell happened to you and her? ”
"Nothing actually happened. It's that I've always admired people, tried everything to see her, wanted to please her, but when we were really together, when we talked, I found that it wasn't that at all. The illusion is shattered..."
The two of us talked to each other as we walked along the park path, stepping on almost every stone. Finally both sides were tired and stopped among a peach tree. While recalling the past, Ze Xue pulled a peach blossom and put it in front of his lips to smell it, and couldn't help but say leisurely: "People don't know where to go, peach blossoms are still smiling in the spring wind." ”
I was also stunned by this beautiful picture of "peach blossoms in front of people" and thought how nice it would be if I could stop at this beautiful time forever.
"Then, at this point, the slave family wants to ask the officials, what kind of love is between you and the slave family?" Is there a soul love that has reached the highest level? Zexue threw away the peach blossom and pulled on my sleeve and asked.
"What does the lady think?" This question is very important, if the answer is not good, tang tantrumed her, I am afraid it will not end well, so I asked rhetorically.
"Officials should not perfunctory slave families. Now the slave family asks the official, not the official asks the slave family. Officials, please say. ”
"You and I have domesticated each other to such a field, and of course we have reached the highest level." There is no doubt that without each other, you and I can still live? ”
"What domestication? The slaves didn't understand. ”
"How come you forgot about domestication?" In "The Little Prince", the little prince's rose and the relationship between the fox and the little prince are the deepest emotional experiences in the world. ”
"The slave family remembers what the officials have said before, and the slave family does not dare to forget. However, the slave family still did not feel that they did not understand very well, and asked the officials not to hesitate to teach them. ”
This article is a chapter of the humble work "Floating Past", also known as "Husbands and Slaves" and "Officials and Women".