On the first day of gao's presidency, Gao Li unleashed a great deal of obscenity and forced away 800,000 forbidden army sect leaders Wang Jin.
That Wang Jin is a person with high martial arts, and everyone who reads "Water Margin" knows that Lin Chong is very powerful, but Lin Chong is only the head of the gun stick of the 800,000 forbidden army, that is to say, he can only teach the gun stick; and Wang Jin is the godhead of the eighteen weapons in the 800,000 forbidden army, so Wang Jin's martial arts should be above Lin Chong.
The Song Dynasty was already empty in its weapons, and the pressure of foreign enemies in the north was enormous. A godhead like Wang Jin is really a rare and urgently needed talent for the country, and he should take good care of it, but he was forced away by the minister of defense.
If Wang Jin does not leave, the end will be even worse.
From Wang Jin's personal rationality, his exodus is the best choice.
From the national rational point of view, the king's entry and exit is the worst result.
As defense minister, Gao Li did so tantamount to self-destructing the Great Wall of the country.
One
Wang Jin fled and went to yan'an province to join the old man Jing Xianggong. He said: "It is a place for people to go, enough to live and die." This is the first time that the term "settle down" appears in "Water Margin", and later Lu Da, Lin Chong, and Yang Zhi all said this word. One says one is sad, one is sad. A person with a sense of justice, or just a person who does not want to go along with the flow and live without doing evil, in a world without justice, how to settle down, this is the theme of "Water Margin", and it is also the proposition of life.
Everyone in the world is nothing more than to feed one's own mouth with one's own talents, to establish one's own body, and to establish one's own destiny. The sky is high and the earth is thick, and it is impossible to find a place to settle down, so many people have to take risks and steal for thieves.
Is it not only about having a house to live in, having food to eat, having clothes to wear, having a car to drive, and having food, clothing, housing, and transportation? No. Settle down, settle down, settle down easily and hard.
It is okay to settle down, have food, clothing, shelter and transportation, but the life is different. What is destiny? It is very difficult to establish our moral destiny, our human destiny, and our soul destiny. To settle down, there must be the following three conditions:
First, be safe. Food, clothing, shelter and travel are basically worry-free, if you eat the last meal without the next meal, the clothes are ragged, there is no tile on the top, and there is no place to stand on the cone, how can you settle down?
Second, peace of mind. Food, clothing, shelter and transportation are solved, but are you at ease here?
Third, it's reasonable. There is a word called peace of mind, what is it? It is reasonable, that is, your life is moral and ethical, so that you can live frankly and frankly, look up to the sky, bow down to others, and have no shame.
Many people in "Water Margin" are actually unable to achieve physical safety at the beginning, such as the three Ruan brothers, who live very hard and can't fight fish, so Wu uses them to seduce them and let them participate in the robbery of the birthday class. They agreed at once, what did they ask for? The first thing they asked for was to eat large pieces of meat, drink wine in large bowls, dress in sets, and weigh gold and silver.
But there are more people, in fact, there is no worry about food and clothing, such as Shi Jin, such as Chao Gai, Wu Yong, Song Jiang, Chai Jin, etc. in the back, not only have food and clothing, and even live quite moistly, but their hearts are not here, in the words of "University", called "absent-mindedness", so they "turn a blind eye, listen without hearing, eat without knowing its taste", or can not settle down.
Wang Jin is more special, somewhat similar to the later Lin Chong. He originally had a very comfortable life and a high social status, and was the leader of the 800,000 forbidden army in Tokyo, so he was very at ease, so he had a very safe feeling. However, he was coerced by Gao Qi, his status was not guaranteed, and he was even worried about his life, so he did not even have peace of mind, so he had to go all the way to the west and go to Yan'an Province to join the old man Jing Xianggong.
On the way, passing through Shijia Village, I met Shi Jin, who was retained by Shi Jin's father, Shi Taigong, and taught Shi Jin martial arts, and half a year later, Shi Jin's eighteen martial arts were all mastered, and every piece was mysterious, and Wang Jin was about to bid farewell and continue on the road to Yan'an Province to find the old seed jing xiang gong. Shi Jin wanted to keep Master Wang Jin in his home and give him a pension. Wang Jin said: Of course, it is very good to retire here, but I am only afraid that Lieutenant Gao will hunt you down and tire you out, so I am still bent on going to Yan'an Province to defect to the old man Jing Xiang gong. There, the town guards the border court, and when it comes to employing people, it is enough to settle down.
Shi Jin's family was rich, and it was not a problem to feed Wang Jin's mother and son. Why wouldn't Wang Jin want to? Because of the lack of a second condition for settling down: peace of mind.
Wang Jin let Shi Jin give himself a pension, is he at ease? Certainly uneasy. He clearly said that he was afraid that Gao Li would come after him, and he would tire Shi Jin. In fact, the main reason is: how can a person, especially a big husband, a hero with a skill, just like this, pack up his ambitions and retire with peace of mind? Is a tiger willing to lurk in the zoo and be raised?
Therefore, in this passage with Shi Jin, he once again mentioned the word "settling down and establishing a life". The great husband is settled in his own hands, and this body is resting on his own turf, and he cannot obey others.
Two
The king went in and away, and there was no news of it. Wang Jin's back is a big blank space left for us by "Water Margin". This blank seems very strange: Shi Nai'an will never leave this blank because of negligence, you know, the careful Shi Nai'an, he will never be so desperate for the characters on the scene, he even Lin Chong Zhang's zhangjiao has a follow-up account, and even the scum of Dong Chao and Xue Ba have a fate, and the first good man in the opening chapter, the filial piety and loyal subjects, but he is so unclear and does not give up in vain? Shi Nai'an must have had other considerations.
In fact, this blank space has Shi Nai'an's helplessness, and there is also our sigh.
Master Wang Jin left, and soon his father Shi Taigong also died, and the village chief of Shijia Village was this eighteen- or nineteen-year-old Shi Jin, who was also "Lizheng", "Lizheng", and Zhengliye, responsible for the order, public order and taxation in the village.
There are three robbers in Shaohua Mountain near Shijia Village: Zhu Wu, the Divine Machine Army Division, Chen Da, the Jumping Tiger, and Yang Chun, the White Flower Snake. When you look at these three people, they are gods, tigers, and snakes, do you think this is a dragon and tiger mountain again? ——Dragon Tiger Mountain, the mountain that appears in the first time "Zhang Tianshi Prays for plague, Hong Taiwei mistakenly walks the demon" in the first time of the opening volume of "Water Margin", is the first mountain written in "Water Margin", and Shaohua Mountain is the second - there is a mysterious echo between the two. Think for yourself.
Shi Jin, who was in charge of the village's security, was said to be head-to-head with the bandits on the mountain, and at first they were indeed the opposites, but after coming and going, they became brothers, coming and going in secret, and were eventually discovered by the government. In order to escape, Shi Jin set fire to the manor and fled with the three of them to Mount Shaohua.
Shi Jin could have settled down in his own manor, not only could he settle down, but he also wanted to keep his master Wang Jin to settle down here. However, at this moment, the first condition for his life to settle down is gone: without the manor, food, clothing, shelter and transportation have become a problem, needless to say, there is no way to establish a life.
And, of course, there's Shaohua Mountain. Zhu Wu and the other three people on Mount Shaohua also wanted to ask him to be the owner of the village. According to Zhu Wu, without Shijia Village, Shaohuashan could still live happily. But the question is: Is this a place where life can be established?
Not all bandit mountains can be safe: Erlong Mountain, under Deng Long's hands, Lu Zhishen could not settle down; Liangshan, in Wang Lun's time, Lin Chong could not settle down.
Also, some mountains can be settled, but they may not be able to survive. Liangshan, in the era of Chao Gai, could settle down, but could not establish a life. Why? Because there is no reason, can not be at ease.
Only in the era of Song Jiang, under the banner of "loyalty and righteousness", one hundred and eight people could establish their lives.
This brings us back to the third condition of settling down and establishing one's life that we have just talked about, and this condition is "reasonableness", that is, do you feel at ease when you are a robber in the mountains, a robber in a house, a person who eats delicious and drinks spicy? Is there such a happy truth in the world? Is it reasonable to live a happy life by robbing homes, killing people and setting fires, robbing other people's property, killing other people's lives, and then enjoying themselves?
So Shi Jin was reluctant. Later, many people who were forced to go to Liangshan, such as those generals from the imperial court, were also unwilling.
Shi Jin said, I want to find my master, but also to go to the frontier to serve the country, to get a birth, and then half a life to be happy.
Shi Jin said to Zhu Wu, "You persuaded me to fall into the grass, and you will never mention it again." How serious these words are, how righteous and stern they are, what Shi Jin wants is a clean and innocent happiness, and only by being innocent and innocent can he truly settle down and live.
It's just that Shi Jin doesn't know that in the muddy world, it is very difficult for a person to live a clean and innocent life. One hundred and eight people went up to Liangshan precisely because they could not "be safe", and it was precisely because they could not "feel at ease" that they played the banner of "loyalty and righteousness" and went down the mountain to recruit security. Supposedly, "reasonable", but what about the ending? In the end, seven fell, seven dead and eight injured.
Three
At the beginning, Master Wang Jin had no way to go, and wanted to defect to Yan'an Province, but now Shi Jin had no way to go, and he wanted to defect to Wang Jin, a person who had no way to go himself. When Shi Jin wanted to keep Master in Zhuangshang and retire for him, Master felt that this was not a one and left. Now that Zhu Wu wanted to stay in Shi Jin on the mountain and rob the house together, Shi Jin still felt that this was not one, and he still left.
"Dream of the Red Chamber" "good song", good is, good is good. If it's not good, it's not good, and if it's not good, it's not good
Life is to live a life, life is a picture.
What is "gone"? Settle down, settle down, that's it. If you are restless and your life is not standing, you just can't.
However, it is often not possible to seek a safe life, so people often raise their feet and "go". Wang Jin went, Shi Jin went. Gone, gone, just walking for the sake of walking. But is it enough to go?
Who in life does not want to rest, and who is not on the road in life? A lot of people are walking, which we now call escape. It's not that we don't dare to face it, it's not that we're weak, it's that if we don't go, we won't be able to do it at this moment.
Gao Li framed Wang Jin, but Wang Jin could not help it, so he had to leave.
Shi Jin wanted to keep Wang Jin, but Wang Jin felt that he still couldn't do it, or he left.
Now That Zhu Wu wanted to stay with Shi Jin, Shi Jin also felt that it was not one to go on like this, so he still left.
Go, just change a posture, put the moment away. As for what's next, don't think about it for now. But troubles are like shadows, and you can't get rid of them.
Wang Jin's own family is a person who cannot live and die, wandering in the rivers and lakes, and he does not know how to do it. Unexpectedly, he instead became Shi Jin's reliance, and became Shi Jin's sustenance for settling down, and Shi Jin thought that if he found Wang Jin, he would be able to do it. In fact, even if Wang Jin is found, what can he do?
Thinking about this, is it very sad and absurd?
Reading "Water Margin", reading that Shi Jin left Shaohua Mountain and wanted to find his master Wang Jin, I don't know why, I felt that my nose was sour. A young man of eighteen or nineteen years old, the master is gone, the father is dead, the manor is burning, only he has no one, his world is gone. What is "gone"? Gone is not a disappearance, but an endless one— the world has taken him everywhere, but he is not there, panicked, panicked. In the vast Song Dynasty, rolling red dust, his only hope in this world was master Wang Jin, who had gone far away and had no news in the rivers and lakes. We can see his feelings for this Master, which are now his only support, and this feeling is the last warmth of this world--this warmth, which is not given to him by the world, is the remnant of his own heart. We know that if a person falls into the cold sea, his first priority for self-help and survival is to curl up, clamp his armpits and thighs, and keep the temperature of his heart. At this moment, Shi Jin's feelings for Master in his heart were the last warmth of his heart.
Where is he looking for the Master, he is actually looking for his lost world, the warmth he has lost. Can he find it?
Four
The Irish modernist playwright Beckett premiered an absurdist play, Waiting for Godot, in 1953.
The plot of "Waiting for Godot" is that two tramps wait for a man named Godot, but Godot does not come and cannot wait. There is a famous line in it: Hope is delayed, and people who wait for the bitter death.
Beckett wrote Waiting for Godot, and Schneen wrote about finding the Master.
Beckett is not actually waiting for Godot, Shi Jin is not actually looking for the master; Beckett is waiting for hope, Shi Jin is looking for direction. But Godot couldn't wait, and Master couldn't find it.
Shi Jin's search for Master is a parable, a symbol of our lifelong purposeful and directionless search, which often ends up with nothing.
The greatest pain in life is not that we do not have a goal, but that we have a goal and do not know the direction. So we looked like we were always looking, but in fact we were always stumbling. The most painful thing is that we know we are just stumbling.
Godot couldn't wait, and Master couldn't find it.
Godot who can't wait is Godot, and the master who can't find it is master.
The meaning is not in "waiting" and "finding", but in "waiting" and "not finding".
Wait for Godot, in these four words, in fact, "Godot" is not a keyword, what is the keyword? is "waiting". Beckett tells us that when we can't do anything, we just have to wait, as long as we're waiting, still expecting, Godot is there, hope is there.
It wasn't because Godot was there that we waited. It's because we're waiting, Godot is there.
It is not because Godot will come that we wait, but because we are waiting, Godot can come.
Once we gave up, Godot dissipated into the distant air.
This seems ridiculous, but in fact, this is the real logic of life.
Similarly, Shi Nai'an wrote that Wang Jin was looking for a master, and the master was not the key, nor was it meaningful, what was the meaning? Is looking.
Shi Nai'an is telling us that when we are at a loss, we can only search, as long as we are still looking, still exploring, the master is there, the direction is there. In the narrative of "Water Margin", as long as Shi Jin is still looking, we feel that Wang Jin is there. Later, Shi Jin finally stopped looking for it, and lu Zhishen said that he was going back to Shaohua Mountain, and we completely put Wang Jin down -- after "Water Margin", there was no more Wang Jin. We don't have any more thoughts about him.
As soon as Shi Jin gave up in the present time and space, Wang Jin disappeared in another time and space.
When we stop thinking about a person, he disappears completely.
Therefore, illusory hope is also better than despair. What did Lu Xun say? "Despair is the same as hope."
Lu Xun also said that the most painful thing in life is that when you wake up from a dream, there is no way out. Waiting for Godot, looking for the Master, is just to make yourself feel that there is a way to go.
Shi Nai'an wrote about Shi Jin's search, which is very sad: "Shi Jin was hungry and thirsty along the way, stayed at night and walked alone for more than half a month, and came to Weizhou. "Hunger and thirst" and "night and dawn", how hard. Moreover, "walking alone for half a month", the word "alone" that falls softly, has indescribable sadness and unspeakable loneliness.
Life is a lonely journey.
Wang Jin had a whereabouts but no news, and Godot had news but no trace. Shi Jin's search for Wang Jin is actually the waiting for Godot hundreds of years ago; waiting for Godot, that is, looking for Wang Jin hundreds of years later.