It turns out that people with strength can do a very good job of overcoming psychological obstacles a little. Three months of hard training were not in vain, I was the youngest of the eight models, and I didn't even get an ID card at that time, but my performance was the best.
For academics, I only wanted to get a diploma, and I didn't think about going to college, I just wanted to make money as soon as possible to leave this home and live the life I wanted, which was my full understanding of life at that time. So I used my spare time to perform while reading, and I received more and more commercial performances.
At that time, the total salary of the two parents was only more than five hundred, and after I officially entered the industry, although it was very hard, the income had exceeded 10,000 yuan. Every time I got my income, I only kept a thousand for myself, and all the rest was given to my mother, hoping that she would live a rich life.
So the family life is getting better and better, dad no longer picks bones in the egg and argues with mom, often invite friends at home to eat and drink, and the family also has laughter. I think my choice was the right one, and everything went as I wished, and it would be fine in the future.
I have always thought that I was relatively timid and cowardly, but after experiencing the outside world, I realized that there are no wonders in the world, and I must understand how important it is to advance and retreat.
In the winter vacation of 16 years old, our group went to Wuhan to perform, and they went to meet separately. Sitting on the hard seat of the train, a few of us were like flowers and jade, which was particularly conspicuous. In order not to cause trouble, everyone snuggled up to each other and did not talk to anyone. But unexpectedly, this train is a famous bandit nest in Wuhan (listening to other passengers), even the police officers turned a blind eye when they did not see, those hooligans can open their luggage at will to take away other people's belongings and money. I vaguely felt someone pulling out my jeans pocket, and suddenly woke up to see a group of young men squinting at us. So scared, what to do? I flashed a lot of TV episodes in my head ~ I said out loud, "What are you doing, big daylight, robbery?!" "They were stunned and called the boss here. I saw that his face was not a bad person, so while he knew the reason, he was morally righteous, but he didn't expect that we actually chatted and made friends. Heck, for the safety of a few of us, I had to leave fake addresses and community pagers (because there were no cell phones and BB machines at the time), and finally these people sent us safely out of the station. This was the first time in my life that I had lied, but at least I got us out of the predicament unscathed, and afterwards my other little sisters said to me: Gu Ying, you are so bold, we are all scared to death. This scene is something I will never forget.
In the summer vacation of 17 years old, I went to Xiamen with the troupe, in order to work more and make more money, every day in addition to the fixed fashion show at night, I also did a welcome at the hotel door during the day, and then went to another karaoke as a host after the performance. At that time, there was no private room for singing, only more than a hundred small round tables in the hall, and the guests sang songs, and I was responsible for the opening and the number of the station. In order to be able to sing in advance, the guests will basically tip me and let me cut them in line, and the tip is at least five or six hundred yuan per night. At that time, everything was going well, except for giving money to my mother regularly, the family never seemed to care about me, asking me how I was doing every day, how my health was, or when I came home, as if I had belonged to the outside world since I was a child, not to my own family. So I didn't take the initiative to care about others since I was a child, and when I met others who cared too much about me, I felt twisted.
I remember that one night the performance ended relatively late, it was already 2:30 a.m., and a few of our staff members did not change their regular clothes, but went out to eat supper in small dresses. Suddenly, a large group of men surrounded us, like the triad members in the TV series, dressed in uniform black short sleeves, and tattooed with green dragons on their exposed arms. One of the little leaders said, "Oh, this girl is good-looking, let's go back and make mrs. Press for the boss." "At that time I just felt that the air was frozen, stupid, they actually wanted to take me away, what should I do...
Oh, my God! At this moment, my brain waves are flashing again, and the only way to turn the danger into a disaster is to rely on wisdom, and those colleagues have long been frightened and trembling, but I seem calm and self-assured (in fact, I am afraid in my heart) and ask them: "Who is your boss?" So I reported the names of some of the more famous local underworld bosses, and sure enough, they were frightened by me and left sadly, while I continued to eat my supper as if nothing had happened." Because since I was almost robbed on the train last time, I have a long memory, and I know that going out to rely on friends, even if not socializing, can at least keep us safe. Afterwards I asked myself where did I get the guts? Borrowed!
But this is not a long-term solution after all, since then, I like quiet, thinking that my too real personality is not suitable for the entertainment industry, two years later I resolutely took off my costume and returned to my true colors.
In fact, looking back on this life now, it was the most free time of my life. From childhood to adolescence, I basically had a fairly smooth life, but I was relatively precocious and stepped into society prematurely, in fact, I was not ready, but fate prematurely let me accept the test.