"Comparing me with Bing Xin and Bai Wei, I really can't be proud of it, only compared with Su Qing, I am willing to do so."
Zhang Ailing, a generation of talented young girl writers, once said so.
Su Qing, formerly known as Feng Heyi, was born in 1914 in Ningbo, Zhejiang Province, and his grandfather was a late Qing Dynasty juju.
In the 1940s, Su Qing, together with Zhang Ailing, Guan Lu and Pan Liudai, was known as the Four Talents of shanghai's literary circles. And finally with the "Ten Years of Marriage", an autobiographical novel, he was able to be called the double wall of Shanghai's literary circle with Zhang Ailing.
Su Qing was talented and intelligent, and was admitted to national central university at the age of 19, and won the reputation of "Empress of Ningbo".
She and Zhang Ailing were girlfriends who talked about everything, and later when Su Qing's "Heaven and Earth" magazine needed her full help, after a unique letter of request containing the words "Nagging in the Same Sex" was sent, the second issue had Zhang Ailing's "Blockade" article appeared, Zhang Ailing also commented on Su Qingqi as a "small red clay stove", which showed that her appreciation for Su Qing was high, but later because of the emotional problems, the friendship between them was ossified, and it was still difficult to escape the "love" word.
It is said that in her later years, Zhang Ailing made a photo album with many photos of her and her friends, but Su Qing's photos are no longer among them.
As for Su Qing's emotional problems, she obeyed her parents' arrangements in her freshman year and married a man named Li Qinhou, who su Qing met when she graduated from junior high school and rehearsed the drama "Peacock Southeast Flying".
After the Su family agreed to the Li family's proposal, Su Qing had to give up his career and terminate his studies, and chose to go home to give birth.
I thought I could hope for a final consummation, but who knew that ten years of time was confined to the family and was tired.
After marriage, Su Qing not only had to endure the unclear relationship between her husband and her widow's cousin, but also endured the betrayal of her husband who cheated on other women.
I don't know how dark su qing's heart was when she found out that her husband had cheated on her own girlfriend Zhao Lian, and the other party was pregnant with a child.
In the tenth year of his marriage, he slapped her, and perhaps to his surprise, this slap actually brought out a female writer who had been the richest in the Republic of China, and beat up an independent woman.
She decided to divorce.
In fact, if you mention Su Qing in the married life, it is not easy, in order to have a son, even five years to give birth to four children, and are daughters, and listen to the mother-in-law's words, from the confinement to stop feeding the child, the purpose is to prepare for the pregnancy of the next child as soon as possible.
Later, Su Qing did give birth to a boy, but the arrival of this child did not recover and ease her relationship with her husband, and the windows between each other were still tightly locked.
The daily life of chai rice oil salt sauce vinegar tea, but also to take care of a few children, is enough to consume a lot of effort, but often have to ask for living expenses from her husband and again and again to lower her body.
I remember once, when Su Qing asked her husband for money again, he looked very impatient and said to her:
"You are also an intellectual, you can earn money yourself...!"
These words infuriated Su Qing, and under the dispute between the two sides, her husband beat her.
The pain of cutting the skin again and again determined her to leave his heart.
When Su Qing was 29 years old, she divorced her husband.
The life after the divorce is naturally not good, and the first thing that needs to be solved is the problem of survival!
Remembering that she had earned money from writing before, she decided to pick up the pen again and rely on words to support herself and her children.
In 1943, Su Qing's autobiographical novel "Ten Years of Marriage" was first serialized in the magazine "Wind and Rain Talk", and then published in a collection, and was widely acclaimed, and people rushed to buy it.
This book is about growing up as a woman in marriage, but it is undeniable that sometimes, growth does need to be accompanied by heartbreaking pains.
In order to support herself and raise her children, she often had to write day and night, just to earn the necessary remuneration for survival, and with this money, she also had to buy rice to support her family.
Such a hard work, su Qing, who was divorced for only half a year or so, suffered from tuberculosis, and in the Republic of China period, this disease could almost be equated with terminal illness, which made people avoid it.
This novel "Ten Years of Marriage" was a novel that caused great success at the time, and was repeatedly copied in 36 editions, which was considered to be the marriage apocalypse of the contemporary Republic of China, and was highly evaluated enough to glimpse the depth of popularity.
Su Qing's life, while her marriage failed to bring her warmth, her evening scene also seemed extremely bleak.
In her later years, Su Qing lived with her divorced young daughter Li Chongmei and her young grandson in a small room of only 10 square meters.
Su Qing's death was also very cold, there was no spiritual hall, wreath and mourning, and after entering the earth, there was not even a tombstone.
Li Xiaoyi once said: "All of our lives, everyone is a passer-by, and only we are our hometown."
Perhaps this is Su Qing's own favorite way of saying goodbye, she once said: "I was already lively enough before I was born, and after I die, I just want to leave quietly and quietly."
In 1982, the writer Su Qing left this world due to illness at the age of 69.
He has not remarried in his life since his divorce.