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Twelve years have passed in the blink of an eye, and for each of us, this time can be long enough to change our face, or short enough for us to ignore its impact on our lives.
At this moment, Guo Jinglin's face is clear, his temples are dyed with frost, and the years have left a deep trace on him, as if his body and mind have aged a lot in a long time.
However, in the midst of this tranquility, he sat alone in his study, silently staring out the window at the familiar street alley. Beijing, the city where he grew up, has long been deeply engraved in his blood, and those memories of the past are like beautiful pictures unfolding in his heart.
That alley is the testimony of him and Tong Xin's childhood sweetheart, they have been inseparable since childhood, laughing and playing here every day, leaving countless good memories.
Recalling that young and innocent relationship, it is like a touching drama, which is constructed by acquaintance, acquaintance, love, companionship, life and death.
Tong Xin supported him with her innocence and enthusiasm, warmed him with her broad heart, and gave him the courage and strength to pursue his dreams.
However, fate is always so cruel, just when Guo Jinglin's career is beginning to dawn, his wife's illness comes ruthlessly. Tong Xin suffered such a blow when he was young, and the pain in his heart almost destroyed him.
They had just passed the sweet period of their newlyweds and welcomed their first child, but his wife's illness made her face gradually lose weight, which made Guo Jinglin feel extremely painful.
Remember that night with tears in your eyes? In order to realize his dream of becoming an actor, he resolutely decided to leave his hometown and go to the Shanghai Theater Academy for further study.
Without the support and understanding of his family, he had to rely on his own determination and courage. Looking back now, those past pains were just a small test on the road of life.
With the death of his wife, the real nightmare has just begun.
When he made a name for himself in the entertainment industry and accumulated a certain amount of wealth, he proposed to his beloved Tong Xin without hesitation, and the two finally entered a happy marriage.
The wedding day is full of laughter, Tong Xin is a virtuous and generous wife, she is careful and thoughtful, and handles the housework in an orderly manner, so that the whole family is full of warm and harmonious atmosphere.
We are fortunate to meet such an outstanding husband as Guo Jinglin, who is filial and sensible, diligent and hardworking, tirelessly traveling, earning the necessities of life, and not letting his dear wife work at all.
Sometimes, the heavy shooting tasks of the crew are really exhausting, he often sits on the chair tiredly with heavy responsibilities, and falls asleep like this, however, in order to give Tong Xin a full sense of security, no matter how tired or late at night, he always resolutely rushes home before dawn, which is a manifestation of his deep affection for his wife.
Tong Xin is a considerate woman who is well aware of her husband's hard work and understands his professional hardships, and has never complained about Guo Jinglin's work delays.
In this way, they supported each other, spent the ups and downs of life together, and spent a good time together, and their sweet love finally ushered in the most precious gift in this beautiful year - a lovely child who came to the world like an angel.
However, fate doesn't seem to want their happy life to be too perfect, and it once again plays a cruel joke. During a routine physical examination, the doctor announced a shocking fact in a heavy and cold tone - Tong Xin suffered from breast cancer.
This bad news was like a thunderbolt from the sky, smashing heavily into Guo Jinglin's heart, making him almost on the verge of collapse, watching Tong Xin's originally beautiful and moving face gradually lose weight due to the invasion of the disease, the pain in Guo Jinglin's heart was like a knife cut, watching his loved ones get farther and farther away from him.
Faced with a difficult choice - whether to keep the child or save his wife's life, Guo Jinglin chose the latter without hesitation. He loves Tong Xin deeply and is willing to pay any price, just hoping that she can continue to survive.
Now that you have made a decision, you should move forward, even if it will leave endless regrets.
After the surgery, Tong Xin's condition was temporarily relieved, but soon after, she began to recur. This poor mother had to spend the rest of her life in pain and suffering every day.
Guo Jinglin always waited by her side, doing his best to take care of this long-suffering woman, he watched his lover's face become more and more haggard, his heart was full of endless grief, and at the same time, he also felt deep self-blame and remorse for his powerlessness.
In the end, on a twilight full of endless sorrow, Tong Xin slept peacefully like a child in Guo Jinglin's broad and stable arms, and never woke up again.
This scene, this moment, will forever be imprinted in his heart and become his eternal nightmare.
He hugged his wife's cold body tightly, his shoulders trembling slightly, but he never shed a single tear, because his tears had been completely hollowed out in the past years.
For a period of time after his wife left, Guo Jinglin fell into deep self-blame and remorse. If he could resist the temptation of that character and chose to stay at home to accompany Tong Xin, maybe her fate would not be so bleak.
However, there is no such thing as "what if" in the world, everything is predestined, and no matter how much he regrets it, he cannot change reality.
In the year of his wife's death, Guo Jinglin unexpectedly received a small comfort - he won the Best Actor Award for starring in a movie that year.
For an actor, this is undoubtedly the highest honor, the dream of countless people, but he did not feel the slightest joy from it.
On the night of the awards ceremony, when he stepped onto the stage with that small trophy in his hand, his heart was hollow like never before.
He muttered in a low voice, clutching the trophy as if it was his wife's body temperature: "May my mother and wife, who are far away in heaven, be able to give me a warm hug...... This small trophy has been exchanged for the departure of the two most precious women in his life, which is undoubtedly an extremely heavy price.
In the year after his wife's death, Guo Jinglin wandered the streets and alleys all day long, and those good memories seemed to laugh at his pain.
The meticulous care and persuasion of relatives and friends, but he turned a deaf ear and completely indulged in grief and couldn't extricate himself.
Whenever he walked past a familiar place, he would involuntarily stop and recall the time he spent with Tong Xin in a trance.
Finally, with the continuous encouragement of his family and friends, he regained the responsibility of his career and began to do his best for his new role. The crew felt sorry when they saw him with a haggard and skinny face, and at the same time sincerely wished him that he could find his own happiness again.
As Guo Jinglin became famous in the film industry, the female partners around him shone like stars. They either have a beautiful face, or a gentle temperament, or a talent who is rich and rich, each of them can be called a good couple, and countless people are fascinated! .
However, in the face of everyone's earnest admonition and persuasion, Guo Jinglin refused without hesitation. "The love of my life is only Tong Xin, and she has become the only eternal existence in my life.
He affectionately explained that in his heart, Tong Xin was the whole universe, and losing her was like draining all his life force, making his heart forever frozen in that heart-wrenching moment.
Seeing him alone waiting for the posthumous photos of his deceased wife, relatives and friends resolutely did not want to renew the strings, and began to look for a new partner for him. However, whenever Guo Jinglin saw those beautiful and moving women, Tong Xin's gentle and virtuous image always appeared in his mind, which made him unable to have the slightest heartbeat.
He has never been interested in the newlyweds, and even the best marriage in the world has not been able to regain his attention.
Tong Xin's sweet and charming smile and deep and charming dimples have always been an inseparable concern in his heart. With love and reluctance, he unswervingly defended the relationship, vowing never to find a new person again.
Time flies, the years are like this, and in a blink of an eye, he has been lonely for 12 years.
Relatives and friends saw that he was alone, and they persuaded him: "How can you die alone like this? You should be brave enough to pursue your own happiness. However, Guo Jinglin just smiled indifferently and responded firmly: "Life is short, only once."
I have dedicated my life to Tong Xin without reservation."
In order to commemorate this tragic and poignant love song, Guo Jinglin created a widely acclaimed TV series "Born on a Bright Day" and put it on the big screen.
Although the heroine in the play finally saved the fetus, which seemed to bring some comfort to the audience, for Guo Jinglin, this is more like a kind of compensation for the regret of reality.
Because in real life, he and Tong Xin did not leave an heir, which undoubtedly became the biggest regret in his heart.