Returned to the small village where I was born and raised, familiar and strange, the original hillside has long been turned into a national forest park, my mother has passed away five years ago, my father is 98 years old, brother

Back in the small village where I was born and raised, it is both familiar and unfamiliar, and the original hillside has long been turned into a national forest park

My mother died five years ago, my father is 98 years old, and my brothers are living their own lives, planting crops.

I couldn't find any of my childhood friends, let alone get together, and it was not particularly convenient to do anything in a small mountain village, and it was too inconvenient to buy things or see a doctor. I want to go home after retirement, this mind is a little shaken, it turns out that my desire to return to my hometown is so strong, I want to come back, but now I feel that there is no so need, sitting alone on the mountain, looking at the scenery in the distance, the loneliness in my heart is leisurely, but the village is still that small mountain village, the sky is still so blue, there are more trees on the mountain, the scenery is beautiful, but there is no familiar person, am I still here to retire? Is it ridiculous?