Author: Ning Wenying
After Long Qinjin and Fangzi came to the old place and stood at the root of the west wall, Long Qinjin said to Fangzi with an expressionless face: "Suzuki Fangzi, I tell you clearly, we can't be together, I really wish you happiness!" After speaking, he strode around and left.
Yoshiko Suzuki had accumulated a stomach full of words to pour to Long Qinjin, but Long Qinjin threw out a heartless word to her and walked away.
Suzuki Yoshiko's aggrieved tears immediately burst out of her eyes, and her voice changed in a choked tone: "You ......" pounced up, wanting to hug Long Qinjin's waist from behind.
Long Qinjin didn't look back, and forcefully broke free from Suzuki Yoshiko's slender arms, and Yoshiko was caught off guard and was stumbled.
"Dragon, Qin ......" stood firm, and Yoshiko Suzuki, who was already heartbroken to the point of having no strength, was left looking at Long Qin Jin's back with teary eyes, and gradually turned into a dot and disappeared...... She was completely desperate, Long Qinjin would never want herself again, she wouldn't want herself!
"Hahaha, hahaha!" Yoshiko Suzuki laughed at herself alone, Yoshiko Suzuki, Yoshiko Suzuki, you overestimate yourself too much. Do you think that if you put down your body and humble yourself to the point of insignificance, you will be able to regain a trace of pity and turn back from Long Qinjin?
At the end of class, although the university campus was full of people and shuttled, no one set foot in the territory of Yoshiko Suzuki. Everyone seems to be busy, maybe it's remote, maybe they see a schoolgirl who is in a bad mood and can't get close.
Yoshiko Suzuki looked up at the gray sky alone, muttering the name of Long Qin Jin in her mouth, laughing for a while, crying for a while, crying for a while, laughing for a while.
The bell of class rang, the second hand of time was unhurriedly walking in a figure-eight step, the ups and downs of the world were all insulated from it, and it was only responsible for measuring time.
Class ended at 5:40 p.m., the winter days were short, and it was already dark, and Yoshiko Suzuki cried and laughed alone at the root of the west wall, and finally her voice was hoarse and she couldn't cry, and no one knew.
Heaven and earth, including human beings, are cold.
Fangzi sat on the cold ground wrapped in a coat alone, leaning against the roots of the dead trees, looking at the bright and dark campus roads and classrooms in the distance, feeling that they were so far away from her, like an alien, seemingly irrelevant to this earth and anyone on the earth. She's like a spectator, after watching it, after the performance, it's time to leave. No one pays attention to themselves, hates them, and loves them. At this time, Suzuki Yoshiko had a terrible thought in her heart, she knew what she should do: since the first plan to marry Long Qin Jin for a hundred years was completely shattered, there was only a path of reincarnation waiting for her. died early and gave birth early, hoping that he would serve the Long family in the next life, and squeeze out some of his grandfather's sins.
Gradually, the night breeze rose, the wind, you can blow it at will, the night is dark, you can be as dark as you like, that's your business, it's none of my business.
Fangzi smiled bitterly and stood up gently, and gently moved to the dormitory, there was no roommate in the dormitory, they probably all went to self-study at night, the year-end exam was approaching, and everyone was working hard to get good grades. However, all this no longer belongs to him, and he is already an outsider.
It's quiet in the dormitory.
Fangzi saw that there was no one in the dormitory, and she was a little happy in her heart, and said in her heart, could it be the will of heaven? I will come if the sky asks me to come, and I will go if the sky wants me to go, and the will of heaven cannot be violated.
So, Yoshiko Suzuki didn't pull the light rope, she took advantage of the faint light outside, struggled to get into her bed, packed up her futon, put on her favorite clothes, counted her money, got out of bed, stuffed her delicate crocodile purse into Li Zhuqing's pillow and lowered it. When she was done, she slowly withdrew to the door of the dormitory, turned around, and glanced affectionately at the place that had given her hope, happiness, blows, pain, and despair. Turning around again, Yoshiko Suzuki had two lines of tears in her eyes, pulled her suitcase, and disappeared into the dark night......
Illustration: Ning Wenying
Originally, it was perfect to be in the dormitory, not to run away, not to exert effort, not to toss, but she was unwilling, because she got along so well with her roommates, especially Li Zhuqing, a classmate from Xi'an, and if she died there, wouldn't it cause fear or even trouble to everyone? The police would definitely intervene and call for a confession one by one to investigate the cause of my death, even though I would keep my suicide note. The year-end final exam time is so tight, I can't help them, and I must not cause them trouble.
So, where to go? The wilderness was too cold, and although her life was over, she didn't want to die in the cold and pain, and maybe she would be torn and disfigured by wild dogs. She wanted to keep a whole corpse, dress brightly, walk decently, and leave a last good impression on her beloved Long Qinjin.
So, there are a few big hotels nearby, the price is expensive, I don't care, I'm going to die, the money in hand is useless, she has just left enough for the cost of staying in the hotel, and the remaining 600 yuan is all left to Li Zhuqing, she is too good to me, I can't repay. The problem is that she died in a nearby hotel, and it was rumored that a female student from Qinjing University died in the XX Hotel, which was not good for the reputation of Qinjing University.
So, where is the right place? Yoshiko Suzuki wanders the streets like a lonely ghost with a suitcase, looking for a target. Swim and swim, she swam to the end of an alley, I don't know where this is, it should be a private hostel in an urban village, she has not been here for the entire three years of college life, if she ends her life here, it is remote and not easy to be found by acquaintances, it can not only end her life safely, but also ensure the whole corpse.
(To be continued)
(Ning Wenying, a member of the Shaanxi Writers Association, a member of the Shaanxi Literary and Art Critics Association, a member of the Shaanxi Dramatists Association, and a member of the Chinese Playwrights Association.) ）