Liu Lingzhong's Selected Short Stories Serialized (1147)

Waiting for you on the balcony (5)

What is the matter with Wang Li, Zhao Jian sat on the gray and black stone and told me a secret, she just looks like Hu Li. When Zhao Jian told her that he had a wife in the past, Wang Li was just a substitute, and that anger almost swallowed her. Zhao Jian's situation was very embarrassing, so he planned to get rid of Wang Li.

"The sex life of a wage earner is also a dog to relieve his hands."

"I can't help it, I can't afford the huge pressure of life."

"No one is lonely, and there is more confusion."

"I don't think I'll meet someone I like."

So he planned to leave our city for a while before agreeing to marry Wang Li, because everyone needed to calm down. When he went out, Zhao Jian was always thinking, where could he go? Anyway, let's get out of the city that made him feel lost. He came to the cold drink shop in Maguan Town, where I happened to be drinking orange soda, and I was already feeling anxious and lonely. Zhao Jian said that he wanted to go back to the adolescent forest, to the magical Grand Canyon, to find the graveyard of our cats.

"Even when you're traveling, it's quite lonely."

"Eating is alone, and the cat cemetery has no friends."

"Mossy cat bones, can you take them into the cinema at will, hoping that someone will suddenly reach out to save me."

"Loneliness and loneliness are the norm, and girls are almost meaningful."

"I really understand that the idea of finding a treasure partner is not so easy."

After drinking a bottle of orange soda, he said that it would be good to go to see Mu Tangjie on the green train. What exactly we were going to do to make it through the swamp and finally reach Sow Creek, I was equally unsure of what to do. You can also hike, first to Zhao Jian's hometown, to visit Luo Li's classmates, he took with him a letter he wrote to his wife after he ran away. Zhao Jian even bought Zhang's most popular treasure hunting route map at a cold drink shop.

"I hope I can find a sacrificial stone this time to commemorate our first partnership at the masquerade." He said.

I said, "It's hilarious that you're playing Superman." ”

"How many times have you tried? Tian Sen. Zhao Jian asked.

"No one in a cold drink shop will respect each other." I replied.

Zhao Jian was killed by others selling watermelons, sent to the hospital for treatment, stitches, blood transfusions, and went back to the rental house to lie down for a long time. That year, there was a lot of chaos on the streets for well-known reasons, including Zhensoul Street and cold drink shops, which reminded me of the castle riots that my former treasure hunting partner Zhang Qi was coerced and involved in, and I heard that two of the three addicts died, and it was possible that our street liar Wan Hanli betrayed everyone. Zhao Jian also participated in the riot at the Blue Lightning Bar and the society. It's not easy for everyone to survive, and finding treasure partners to cheat each other, hurt, and commit suicide has become child's play. Cold drink shops often love to hear these kinds of stories. The two of them always quarreled, and they split up and got together.

"Even good people can't become Buddhas!" Zhao Jian said to me.

Wang Li's death, could it be that Zhao Jian originally wanted to commit suicide, but killed her as a result? I forced myself to break up with people who were rhapnostic, suspected of murder, and who had a close relationship with drug ghosts. It really broke up, and it didn't take long for me to regret it. When I cried quietly after drinking the orange soda, I felt that maybe I was the most sorry decision for Zhao Jian. There is no substitute for the fact that he was the first, and almost the only, reader of my novels.

But I definitely didn't expect Zhao Jian to be so indifferent, and the ghost fire was even more intense. I scolded: "You uneasy and kind fellow, dare to ride on my head, first keep your eyes straight." ”

"You don't look at what kind of business I am, I also go south and north to work, I will be afraid of you!" Zhao Jian said exaggeratedly.

I didn't care whether I could stand it or not, and I was panicked, in fact, I had long wanted to find an excuse to quarrel with him.

"Even if you find a chance to fight, you can do it." I say.

Zhao Jian didn't care about me at all. He said: "Tian Sen, don't think that the people in the cold drink shop spoil your bad problems!" ”

"I don't get this kind of gas very often." I say.

My eyelashes were glistening with tears, and the needle didn't hurt him, and I almost burst into tears. Zhao Jian's cheeks were blue and white.

"I can't say no to you Tian Sen." He said.

"There is an opportunity to do evil, and to give up is to do good."

"You deserve to let me accompany you to the castle one last time."

I could even tell that the other person was forcing himself to do something he didn't want to do in the first place. Zhao Jian has no interest in fictional stories. The two of us cried and cried in the room of the ironworks inn, and after reconciling, we went to the cat cemetery, the demon palace, and the Sengoku red stone sacrificed to the guide cat was never found.

"I don't know what else a person like me can do."

"The premise of putting down the butcher's knife is that you must have a knife in your hand first."

"I probably don't." Zhao Jian stretched out his hand at me.

Even if you go to the exit of Yanying Railway Station to pick up Mu Tangjie, after returning to the hostel, you are exhausted, and you will often be even more noisy. Once again, the relationship between the treasure partners has been confirmed, and it is better to die than to think about it, maybe we can finally end this matter, otherwise, neither of us will be better off. I've been in elementary school until I became an adult, and I'm about to turn 35, and I don't seem to have much interest in getting married as an adolescent. The two of us have experienced a short and fragile marriage, Zhao Jian's wife ran away with someone else, and I took the initiative to file for divorce, leaving no sequelae for the other party.

"No matter how boring the treasure hunting game is, I have poured my heart and soul into it."

"Then do you thank God for making another arrangement?"

"Fate has made us both of us the Last Supper."

"I hope I never betray the other party." Zhao Jian said.

I don't think I've ever participated in a group activity like playing basketball or soccer. Not to mention the possibility of a riot at a cold drink shop, I told Zhao Jian that I hated all games in which three or more people participated, including the masquerade in the square at the entrance of the castle and the date under the mercury lamp. Because when I confessed to my partner at the Ironworks, I was almost declaring that I was afraid of anyone in society. Around the two of us, Zhao Jian was absolutely not allowed to hurt me under any circumstances, which made him breathless.

"Most of the people around me don't know much about it."

"Tian Sen, why don't you stay in the Demon Palace." Zhao Jian asked.

In the world we live in, every little thing I want to do, even life itself, in fact, I see it as just a task, so I am too tired to live.

"People look at you tired." Zhao Jian nodded and said.

"The first time I woke up, I knew you wanted to scold Mu Tangjie."

"It must have been a misunderstanding! I just remembered my wife. ”

"But she abandoned you and ran away." I sneered.

"I just don't know if she'll write from her." Zhao Jian said.

I may have suffered from not having a loved one, not being able to find a soulmate, and believing that I have never had any friends other than a partner for treasure. It is only in the face of paper and pen that I feel relaxed, and the long time of adolescence, without refutation, denunciation and mutual attack, makes fantasy and opportunity coexist. I told Jian Zhao that when I was growing up, I often wrapped myself quite tightly.

"I'm almost out of breath." I admit it.

Maybe we both suffer from puberty syndrome and tachycardia. I went to the psychiatrist several times and she prescribed me a whole bottle of blue pills. At that time, triazolam was not classified as a drug, and I was even more excited after taking it. I actually know my own body, and it's not a clinical medical disease at all, and I've read a few books about it. This symptom is called menopause, and a person may have multiple menopauses in their lifetime. "Isn't that right?" Anyway, I don't hesitate to believe it.

"You'd better listen to the doctor, what does the doctor say?"

"I was skeptical of the doctors, who couldn't cure me for insomnia, including nocturnal wandering. Hallucinations and rapid heartbeat. ”

"Do men have menopause?" Zhao Jian looked at me.

Actually, I totally understand his skepticism about the world around him.

The two of us sat for a while on a large pile of gray-black rubble near the cat's graveyard, as if not far from the dry cave. Zhao Jian told me that I needed to recover my strength for a short time. As if by juggling, he retrieved two plastic-shelled flashlights from his backpack, one orange and the other pink-green. He slowly loaded the battery and closed it out.

"I resisted in my heart for many years before I got married."

"Divorce, Tian Sen, you don't seem to have any reason."

My illness flares up in any public setting, suddenly, and especially in crowded places.

"It was supposed to be fine." I told Zhao Jian.

Even though I was walking down the street, I felt the loneliest in the bustling crowd, buzzing in my ears and suspecting that a long-legged bee had sneaked in. It's bad, all of a sudden I can't hear anything, it's really just a disease of fantasy.

"Hurry up to the hospital for a check-up when you have a seizure." Zhao Jian said.

Electroencephalography, electrocardiogram, CT, color ultrasound, and all organs that can be examined by the body have not found organic lesions.

After entering the dry cave, I first saw two piles of fresh animal droppings.

"Zhao Jian, do you feel if there are any beasts?"

"There must be!" Looking for a treasure partner said without hesitation.

"Oh, the beast doesn't hurt." I asked.

Zhao Jian laughed: "What is the gun used for?" ”

I almost forgot that he had a powder gun that beat iron sand. Zhao Jian's voice in the cave became a little distorted and weird, probably related to climbing the hill and panting without stopping. I don't seem to understand the meaning of the words of the treasure partner. After the corner, the light became dimmer, and the bright light of the two flashlights did not do much. We walked for about ten minutes, and it was a hall, and the light from the flashlight could barely reach the top.

"In the library, or in the factory, I also have hallucinations, auditory hallucinations, sudden rapid heartbeat, low blood sugar, sweating profusely, thinking that I will faint."

"So did you really pass out?" Zhao Jian asked.

"No, I just want to get out of the scene."

"Then hurry up and change to a new environment."

"I can't be my own master." I told Zhao Jian.

"Could it really be a heart problem?" He said.

The two of us walked around the hall, illuminated by flashlights, and on the opposite rocks, cliffs, hung huge stalactites of different shapes that ticked and ticked off water droplets. The ground is full of rocks.

Zhao Jian said he had seen a different kind of treasure hunt in other places where the green train passed, including the cat graveyard.

In this dry cave, there are many nodules and stones illuminated with flashlights, and it is vaguely felt that it is purple-red. However, the flashlight rays and even the rays of light are clearly white or orange. Moreover, stalagmites, stone pillars, stone cats, stone monkeys, stone birds, and stone insects are covered with crystal-like particles, and when they are shaken by a flashlight, they immediately emit a small cross light, or feel the pain of the prickly skin, as if there is an ant bite. Zhao Jian resolutely knocked down a stone to see, it was not the kind of Warring States red that could be taken to sacrifice the cat cemetery. He knocked on a dozen pieces and didn't. We reached the exit.

Zhao Jian came to Maguan Town quietly, and he appeared in the cold drink shop like a ghost, and he really walked quietly.

"I don't believe he's a murderer." Qin Feng said.

"But Wang Li had a car accident, and Zhao Jian was riding a motorcycle."

I remember that I once suspected that my partner wanted to commit suicide.