Yang Lijuan is an ordinary girl born in the late 70s of the last century and grew up in Lanzhou. Her father, Yang Qinji, is a middle school Chinese teacher, who dotes on his daughter and never scolds him, as long as Yang Lijuan asks for it, he will try his best to meet it.
In such an environment, Yang Lijuan gradually developed a self-centered and self-contained character.
In 1992, Yang Lijuan did not want to go to school anymore, she felt that the classroom was boring and boring, and she was tired of the daily repetition of Xi life. Yang Qinji did not force her daughter to continue her studies, but allowed her to drop out of school and stay at home.
Yang Lijuan has more and more free time, she is fascinated by astrology, spending a lot of time studying horoscopes, believing that the stars will determine her future.
During the day, Yang Lijuan was alone at home with nothing to do, and at night she stared at the night sky, trying to deduce her fate from the position of the stars. She believes that as long as she is destined, the prince in her heart will definitely appear at some turning point and take her out of this boring life.
This blind belief led Yang Lijuan on the road of chasing stars, and also led to the first major turning point in her life.
Meet the lover of your dreams
In 1994, 17-year-old Yang Lijuan had a dream in which she was strolling in the garden with a handsome man, and the man looked at her gently.
After waking up, Yang Lijuan was still immersed in the joy of a sweet dream, and she couldn't wait to tell her father about this dream. Yang Qinji saw his daughter's happy appearance, and deliberately echoed that he had also had such a dream.
A month later, Yang Lijuan accidentally saw a poster of Andy Lau on the street, on which Andy Lau was wearing a white stage costume and smiling brightly.
Since then, Yang Lijuan has firmly believed that Andy Lau is her destined other half. Every night, she would stare at Andy Lau's poster and fall asleep, fantasizing about one day marrying her idol.
Yang Lijuan began to collect Andy Lau's photos, posters and records, and decorated the room with Andy Lau's handsome face all over the walls. She believes that as long as she sees Andy Lau once, he will live happily with her like the prince met Cinderella.
This absurd idea is completely Yang Lijuan's wishful thinking. However, her father Yang Qinji did not dissuade her, but let her daughter continue to blindly chase stars.
He couldn't bear to break his daughter's dream, and he was gradually infected by his daughter's fanaticism, thinking that this might be his daughter's fate.
Crazy star-chasing journey
Since 1994, Yang Lijuan has embarked on a crazy star-chasing journey. She seemed to have been tricked, thinking about seeing Andy Lau all day long. At first, Yang Qinji could still understand his daughter's dream, and he would spend money to send her to Andy Lau's concert site when his daughter asked.
Yang Lijuan would arrive at the venue a few hours early every time, and then pass through the heavy crowd wall, trying her best to squeeze into the front row, wanting to be closer to the idol. After it is over, she will linger at the backstage door and wait, hoping to get close to Andy Lau.
Every time she can't see Andy Lau, Yang Lijuan will be deeply depressed.
In addition to squatting on the spot, Yang Lijuan will also write love letters to Andy Lau. She will pour out her love for her idol, express her admiration and admiration for him, and send it to Andy Lau's agency or residence.
But these love letters from strange girls have all been lost, and they have never been answered.
In 2003, Yang Lijuan even went to the cultural department and asked them to help hand over a letter to Andy Lau. The staff thought her behavior was strange and ridiculous, and they ignored her.
Yang Lijuan could only leave disappointed, but her enthusiasm for chasing stars did not diminish at all.
In order to chase stars, Yang Lijuan does not work or Xi, and stays in the room all day. Yang Qinji's savings bottomed out under her profligacy, and the old couple began to borrow money from relatives and friends, but soon they could no longer borrow it.
Yang Lijuan didn't feel family difficulties at all, and all her thoughts were on how to meet her idol Andy Lau.
This crazy star-chasing behavior not only ruined the family economy, but also completely ruined Yang Lijuan's life.
The tragedy of a broken family
March 25, 2007 is a day that Yang Lijuan will never forget. On this day, a surprise and despair befell her at the same time.
In Hong Kong that day, Yang Lijuan finally got her wish and met her idol Andy Lau himself. At a fan meeting, the organizer specially arranged for Yang Lijuan to take a photo with Andy Lau on stage.
When Andy Lau walked up, Yang Lijuan trembled with excitement, she came on stage, stood beside her idol, her hands were at a loss, and she stammered "Andy Lau, I love you".
Just when she was excited, the staff urged her to hurry up and give way to the next fan. In an instant, Yang Lijuan was asked to leave the stage. She couldn't say anything, she could only watch Andy Lau's back go away.
Yang Lijuan was extremely aggrieved, she should have said a few more words to her idol.
When she returned to the hotel that night, Yang Lijuan hugged her father and cried bitterly, she described the scene when she met her idol, saying that she was very dissatisfied with the 10-second meeting. She also wants to see Andy Lau again and talk about it.
Yang Qinji knows that her daughter's obsession with idols has become pathological, and this contact is far from enough, and her obsession will only deepen.
So the next day, the exhausted Yang Qinji came to the organizer and begged in a low voice to give his daughter a little more time alone with her idol. The organizer shook his head in embarrassment, saying that this could not be done according to the regulations.
Yang Qinji left discouraged, feeling that he was old and had no one to rely on, and he could not give his daughter what she wanted.
Painful lessons, deep reflection
Yang Qinji's death has become a pain that Yang Lijuan can never erase. After the death of her father, Yang Lijuan finally came to her senses and realized what a big mistake her star-chasing behavior over the years was.
She began to reflect on the cause of all this. It turns out that it is not the imaginary idol who really cares about her and is good to her, but the father who gave birth to her and raised her. However, she abandoned her family in order to chase stars, causing her father to owe huge debts during his lifetime and his reputation was discredited after his death.
She finally recognized the absurdity of blindly chasing stars. Idols are just ordinary people, and there is no perfection in her imagination. Her wishful thinking ruined the family and took her father's life.
It's too late now, and there's no going back.
Yang Lijuan was remorseful. She regretted the selfishness and willfulness of her youth, regretted not following her father's persuasion, and regretted not being able to stop the loss in time to prevent the situation from deteriorating. If she had kept her sanity at the beginning, she would not have embarked on this road of no return, and she would not have caused irreparable tragedy.
Now Yang Lijuan lives a simple life. She no longer believes in the so-called fate, nor will she squander it for no reason to chase stars. Yang Lijuan hopes that her experience can be a warning to others, and she calls on everyone to look at idols rationally and not blindly follow them for no reason.
She will also use the rest of her life to remember her father's teachings and live a meaningful life to make up for her mistakes.