In 1973, a drama girl's star journey began
In the autumn of 1973, it was a good time in the north. Pan Hong, 23, came to the Shanghai Theater Academy with trepidation, and she will participate in the interview of the prestigious school to become an acting student.
On the morning of the interview, Pan Hong got up early in the morning. She repeatedly checked her grooming in front of the mirror and prayed for perfection. After breakfast, Pan Hong came to the college an hour early, for fear of being late and leaving a bad first impression on the judges.
Waiting in the interview waiting room, Pan Hong couldn't stop looking through the manuscript of the performance program she had prepared, and her palms were full of sweat.
Her heart was beating so hard that the little heart in her chest seemed to pop out. This was Pan Hong's first formal interview in her life, and she didn't know what the outcome would be, so she could only do her best.
"Pan Hong, it's your turn. The staff's voice woke her up. Pan Hong took a deep breath, straightened her mentality, and walked into the interview room.
Despite her nervousness, she still tried to perform at her normal level as much as possible, and the interview process was a crucial pass.
One day a month later, Pan Hong received a notice from the college that she had been officially admitted as an acting student! She was so excited that she couldn't speak, and with tears in her eyes, she dialed her parents' phone.
Young first love, long-distance combination
In 1978, 25-year-old Pan Hong met Mi Jiashan, who was 8 years older than her. Mi Jiashan has a gentle and introverted personality and has given Pan Hong a lot of care and help. The two began to communicate at work and soon fell in love.
For Pan Hong, Mijiashan is like an older brother. She has lacked father's love since she was a child, and the appearance of Mijiashan has made up for her long-empty heart. Mi Jiashan often takes care of Pan Hong's food, clothing and daily life, so that she can feel the warmth of her long-lost home.
In 1978, they registered as husband and wife. Since I work in different cities, my life is still in a different place. After marriage, Pan Hong would often write letters to Mi Jiashan to confide in her recent situation, and Mi Jiashan would also provide her with advice and encouragement in the letters.
For this marriage, Pan Hong is full of beautiful fantasies. She firmly believes that relationships transcend the barrier of distance, and they will gradually go hand in hand to get through life. At that time, Pan Hong was still young, full of longing and expectation for the future.
A scandal, a turning point in married life
In 1986, 34-year-old Pan Hong caused an uproar in public opinion because of an affair with married director Yang Yanjin in the new 작 product. Yang Yanjin's wife, Hong Rong, turned out Pan Hong's letter of accusation in public in the cinema, which caused Pan Hong's reputation to be severely damaged.
In order to avoid the limelight, Mi Jiashan offered to transfer Pan Hong to the city where he worked to live together. After leaving Shanghai, Pan Hong gradually calmed down. In the days when she got along with Mi Jiashan day and night, she also briefly experienced the warmth of family.
At this moment, 40-year-old Mi Jiashan asked Pan Hong to have children, hoping to leave blood and bones on them. Pan Hong, whose career is on the rise, still doesn't want to be interrupted by her family life, so she asks to wait another five years to develop her career.
The two had a serious disagreement over this. Mi Jiashan finally threw out a question: "Do you want to be a successful woman or a family woman?" 34-year-old Pan Hong did not hesitate to choose the former, because she knows how difficult it is to rebuild her career.
So, the divorce agreement signed their two big names, and thus ended a young and beautiful marriage.
Choose a career and achieve no difference in a moment
34-year-old Pan Hong chose to divorce Mi Jiashan, and she decided to devote herself to her acting career. After saying goodbye to married life, Pan Hong went all out to film and won awards, and quickly became the pillar and box office guarantee of Shanghai Film Studio.
In 1980, Pan Hong, who was only 27 years old, won the Best Actress of the Hundred Flowers Award for "Du Shi Niang". Since the film, she has had blockbuster masterpieces almost every year, and she has continued to climb new peaks in her career.
It is rumored that several producers ask her to act in new films every year, and her salary has reached new highs.
In his career, Pan Hong is thriving and unbeatable. However, behind the glamorous, she sacrificed her personal life and family. In the days of soaking in the crew, Pan Hong often faintly felt that her life was a little empty and incomplete, but she was pressed down by the filming schedule and didn't care too much.
It wasn't until she was 60 years away that Pan Hong, who had reached the peak of her career, gradually realized that life could not only be successful, but also needed the companionship and love of her family.
After the age of 60, loneliness slowly fermented
After entering the age of 60, Pan Hong's acting skills have been perfected, and the glory of her acting career is no longer an unattainable dream. However, when there is no one to talk to and rely on, the feeling of loneliness will slowly spread.
In the past few years, the scenes that have been filmed are all mothers or mothers-in-law. When figuring out her emotions for the play, Pan Hong began to understand a woman's yearning for home and the fear of not having children to take care of her in her old age.
She also understands the meaning of marriage, not that she can be strong alone in all difficulties.
These insights are based on real experience. Now 67-year-old Pan Hong thinks and feels, and it is the same as when she chose to divorce. Perhaps the understanding of many things needs to be explained by the life experience of hindsight.
She began to reflect on her choice of divorce and career back then, and also expressed in the interview the idea of "I'd rather not have any actresses, as long as I have my own children".
A strong heart also needs the harbor of the family after all to survive the stormy days.
A new plan after retirement to make up for life regrets
Pan Hong, 67 years old, has gradually drawn a perfect end to her acting career. When asked about her plans for retirement, she did not hesitate to say that she wanted to open a kindergarten.
Getting along with the children day and night is a life that Pan Hong has longed for a long time. She has no children in her life, and the idea of opening a kindergarten comes from making up for this shortcoming.
Pan Hong looks forward to a simple and happy campus life after retirement: learning Xi singing and dancing with the children, and listening to their innocent stories. When the children smiled and called her "Teacher Pan", all the worries and regrets in her heart would disappear.
This may be another possibility of life. Life is as long as the sea, and the ship of destiny cannot always be smooth. But as long as you have hope in your heart, you will definitely encounter all kinds of good things at different stages of life.