I am an ordinary housewife named Wang Min. After ten years of marriage, my husband and I are the envy of the neighborhood. Recently, however, things have changed dramatically.
Shocked, angry, anguish...... All kinds of emotions surged in my heart, and I felt a violent conflict in my heart. It turned out that I found out that my neighbor Li Jing was actually having an affair with my husband, and more than once, as many as ten times. Every time I think about it, I feel incredulous and I don't know how to deal with it.
I used to wonder if I didn't do well enough in the family that caused my husband's betrayal? But whenever I saw him and Li Jing sneakily outside, I felt wronged. This inner conflict made it impossible for me to calm down, and I often couldn't sleep all night.
A few days ago, I couldn't stand it anymore and decided to go to Li Jing for a theory. I struggled to open her door, and after a heated argument, she actually told me, "You don't know your husband, he doesn't care about you!" So, I rushed home and vented all my anger on my husband.
"It's a shame for my wife to go to Li Jing's house to make trouble. The husband said dissatisfied. His words made me even more angry, and in the face of his betrayal, he still had the face to say such things!
However, my inner conflict became more and more serious. I don't know if I should continue with this seemingly happy marriage, or if I should resolutely leave. Every choice left me exhausted and overwhelmed.
Perhaps, I should think hard and find a solution to the problem. However, when I once again remembered the betrayal of my husband and neighbors, the pain and anger in my heart hit me again. For the time being, I haven't found a solution to the problem, so I can only endure it in silence.
I silently endured everything at home. Every night, I would look in front of the mirror at my haggard face and look at my bloodshot eyes. Sometimes, I even think about leaving, but I feel like I have nowhere to go. The pain and despair in my heart made me feel like the whole world was falling apart.
However, by chance, I discovered something that surprised me. While sorting through my husband's drawer, I found something I couldn't believe – it turned out to be a private correspondence between him and my sister Xiufang. The letters were filled with emotional entanglements between them, and I couldn't believe my eyes.
I was so emotional that I immediately rushed to my husband to ask. He was speechless and unable to offer any explanation. I was tormented to find that my marriage had fallen apart, and I didn't know it. Moreover, this betrayal actually includes my closest sister.
I was exhausted by the fact that I was exhausted. I don't know what to do, on the one hand, I can't forgive my husband for betrayal, and on the other hand, I am reluctant to give up this marriage and family. This inner contradiction is suffocating.
To continue to endure in silence, or to face it bravely, I fell into a deep hesitation and contradiction. This seemingly happy family hides endless pain and betrayal, and I don't know what the rest of my life will be.
I need time to think calmly and find a way to fix it all. Perhaps, only by facing all this with strength can I find my own happiness.
I tried to calm myself down, but as the days passed, I realized that I could never go back to the silly girl who believed in love in the past. I started to become suspicious, anxious, and even a little paranoid. Watching my husband's every move every day, I feel uneasy in my heart.
During this time, I discovered an even more painful fact - I was pregnant. Faced with this accident, I fell into a deeper conflict. I don't know what to do with this child if I should want it. I thought that this child was in my blood, and that I could not abandon him, and at the same time I thought that this child would come from the body of an unfaithful person. I really can't accept all of this.
In the face of this sudden change, my husband and I also began to quarrel more fiercely. His attitude was still the same as before, and he was unwilling to take any responsibility for the child.
All of this made me unable to calm down, and I felt as if I was in a quagmire from which I could not breathe. This helplessness and pain makes me feel like life is worse than death every day. I don't have a trace of nostalgia for this home.
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Soon, I discovered another thing that made me angry and miserable. It turned out that my mother had a serious illness that required expensive surgery. There is no doubt that I have to pay huge medical bills. I thought I could ask my husband for help, but I couldn't say anything when I thought of his betrayal with my neighbors.
I felt like I was stuck in a quagmire from which I couldn't extricate myself. Lately, every night has become unusually long, and I often have insomnia, my mind swirling around my husband's betrayal and my mother's illness. Feeling depressed has become my daily routine, and life seems to have lost all its color.
After thinking about it, I decided to talk to my friend Li Na. Li Na and I have been confidants for many years, and after listening to what I had to say, she said with a solemn expression: "Wang Min, you can't let yourself be tortured like this all the time, you need to take action." I took a deep breath and I knew she was right, I couldn't go on like this forever. I need to make a decision, no matter what the outcome will be.
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