On a summer afternoon in 1993, 13-year-old He Chengxi walked out of school briskly after a middle school in a small town in Guangdong Province.
After school, she couldn't wait to run home, took out a fluffy pillow and leaned against the bed, a magazine spread out on her lap.
On the pages of the magazine, there are beautiful and moving photos of actresses. He Chengxi watched carefully, his eyes revealing longing and yearning.
The mother came over and sat down next to her daughter, smiled and said, "Bingbing is indeed very beautiful, but we Chengxi are also very cute!" He Chengxi pursed his lips and said, "But I want to be more beautiful, as beautiful as Sister Bingbing." The mother was a little surprised when she heard this, but she still persuaded gently: "Chengxi doesn't need to be in a hurry to become beautiful now, you have to believe that you will become better."
However, He Chengxi has already come up with an idea - she wants to look like Fan Bingbing. From that day on, the idea of "becoming beautiful" haunted her, and she began to read various fashion magazines to learn the secrets of beauty.
He Chengxi's attention is also more and more focused on makeup and dressing, and she hopes that through her own efforts, she will have the perfect appearance of her dreams as soon as possible.
Finally, on He Chengxi's 15th birthday, she mustered up the courage to say what was in her heart to her mother: "Mom, I want to have a plastic surgery and make my face look cold, is it okay?" The mother was shocked, she didn't expect her daughter's idea of "becoming pretty" to this extent.
He Mu persuaded: "Baby, it's too early for you to have plastic surgery, let's talk about it when you grow up." And Bingbing is Bingbing, Chengxi is Chengxi, and he must have his own characteristics.
The mother looked at her daughter's determined eyes and knew that she had made up her mind. As a mother, she didn't want to go to extremes, so she could only try to slow down her daughter, saying: "Then let's negotiate a plan, don't do a lot at once, you can come step by step, depending on your ability to bear."
In the end, He Mu still compromised. He Chengxi happily hugged her mother, she couldn't wait to realize her dream of plastic surgery.
After eight years of plastic surgery, step by step, He Chengxi's face is finally getting closer and closer to his idol Fan Bingbing.
One day, He Chengxi couldn't wait to run to the mirror and carefully looked at his face in the mirror. She was happy to see that her facial features were almost indistinguishable from Fan Bingbing, but she still retained some of her own features in a few contours.
He Chengxi sincerely thanked the doctor for his careful design, and the control of the plastic surgery steps was just right, allowing her to smoothly have the face of her dreams. She excitedly spun around in front of the mirror a few times, the smile on her lips glowing with sweet satisfaction.
From that day on, He Chengxi was immersed in the joy of successful plastic surgery, staring at himself in the mirror almost every moment, for fear that he would accidentally lose this face.
She also began to imitate Fan Bingbing in her dress and hairstyle, intentionally or unintentionally, hoping that she would be as close to her idol as possible in terms of behavior.
When friends saw He Chengxi change her new face, they were surprised to praise her for successfully becoming "Fan Bingbing 2.0". He Chengxi was so happy that she posted photos of herself on social networking sites to express her gratitude to her friends.
Gradually, He Chengxi became a small Internet celebrity. Some print magazines approached her for model shoots, and she also took on a small supporting role or two. He Chengxi was delighted to find that with the face of an idol, his life seemed to shine brightly.
When someone asks her to share her plastic surgery experience, He Chengxi will smile mysteriously, saying that this is her lifelong dream and the result of her perseverance. The hardships of the plastic surgery process have been put behind her and replaced by a great sense of accomplishment.
He Chengxi imitated the life of idols even harder, and even talked about Fan Bingbing, who would use "I" to refer to him. She is immersed in another life brought about by plastic surgery and is ecstatic at the stark change in appearance.
During many plastic surgeries, He Chengxi got acquainted with the surgeon Yu Xiaoquan. The young Dr. Yu is not only professional and dedicated, but also very patient, carefully listening to He Chengxi's plastic surgery requirements, and on the premise of ensuring the maximum effect, taking into account the bearing capacity of He Chengxi's body, and controlling the rhythm of plastic surgery.
In frequent contact, feelings gradually developed between the two. He Chengxi also found that Yu Xiaoquan was not only handsome on the outside, but also delicate and considerate on the inside. The two began to date and go on outings together, and after coming and going, they confirmed their relationship.
He Chengxi transferred his admiration for Fan Bingbing to Yu Xiaoquan. She asked Yu Xiaoquan to also look like the popular actor Li Chen, so that they could become the perfect "Fan Li" combination.
At first, Yu Xiaoquan was very embarrassed by such a request. But seeing the expectant light in He Chengxi's eyes, he still decided to satisfy her little willfulness. As a result, Yu Xiaoquan also began to undergo facial plastic surgery, gradually fitting Li Chen's photos.
Looking at himself who looked more and more like Li Chen in the mirror, Yu Xiaoquan couldn't help but be a little stunned. He was already born with deep facial features and a manly sex appeal, but now he wants to abandon these and become another person.
But after thinking about it, He Chengxi also made great efforts to make an idol face, and his sacrifice was nothing. It is also his lifelong dream to form a perfect husband and wife with He Chengxi in the future.
As a result, Yu Xiaoquan continued to endure the painful process of becoming beautiful.
Finally, after many surgeries, Yu Xiaoquan basically became Li Chen's appearance. He Chengxi looked at the handsome "Li Chen" in front of him, cried with joy, and thanked Yu Xiaoquan for realizing her dream.
She gave Yu Xiaoquan a hot hug, as if hugging the whole world.
In 2016, the two successfully held a grand wedding and became the perfect "Fan Bingbing and Li Chen" couple in the eyes of everyone. Friends applauded their courage and perseverance and expressed their envy.
He Chengxi and Yu Xiaoquan walked on the red carpet hand in hand and began their married life. Photos of a family of three frequently appear on the Internet, and they have become an Internet celebrity couple who are very similar to idol couples.
He Chengxi and Yu Xiaoquan's married life was originally sweet and happy, and the outside world praised them as a perfect couple. However, the good times did not last long, and one day, a crack appeared in the seemingly strong relationship.
That day, He Chengxi was feeding the baby, and Yu Xiaoquan's mobile phone suddenly rang. He hurriedly picked up the phone, with a happy expression on his face, and said softly words like "baby" and "miss you".
He Chengxi was keenly aware that something was wrong.
Sure enough, when she quietly checked Yu Xiaoquan's chat history and photos, she was horrified to find that her husband had an ambiguous relationship with several other men. In the photo, they are close together and act intimately.
"How so? Aren't we just playing the perfect idol couple?" He Chengxi had an alarm bell in her head, her fingers trembled, and tears came out of her eyes. She sent a message to Yu Xiaoquan, asking him to go home and confess.
In the face of questioning, Yu Xiaoquan denied it at first. But seeing the evidence He Chengxi already had, he had no choice but to occupy the magpie's nest and admit that he was gay, but he had been hiding this identity.
He Chengxi couldn't believe his ears. It turned out that the love she had built with a huge amount of money and time turned out to be illusory, and her "Li Chen" husband didn't love her at all.
She couldn't stop crying, but it had come to this point, and it was irreparable.
After careful consideration, He Chengxi decided to publicly expose the matter and divorce Yu Xiaoquan. She posted intimate photos of her husband and men on the Internet and wrote a divorce statement, hoping to get the understanding and support of netizens.
Looking at the messages of friends on the social homepage, He Chengxi's eyes were red, and his heart was mixed. She thought of her years of persistent pursuit of beauty, but there were too many unknowns hidden under the beautiful appearance.
Perhaps sincerity is the hardest to find, and only time will tell.
This seemingly absurd marriage change made He Chengxi gradually understand that appearance is secondary after all. She needs to let go of this nightmare and re-examine the nature of life. Maybe after the transition, she can still find happiness that belongs to her.
After experiencing the pain caused by the marriage change, He Chengxi chose to make work the center of life again to heal. She no longer deliberately imitates Fan Bingbing, but wants to use her own strength to reach the peak of her career.
He Chengxi is focused and serious at work, and has gradually won the recognition of the director and the audience. Everyone no longer sees just her appearance, but the core of her dedication.
In interviews, she will share her understanding of the character independently, no longer a verbal imitation of the past.
He Chengxi no longer deliberately conceals his plastic surgery experience. When asked, she would calmly say her journey of wanting to become an idol face. She said that although she was young and frivolous, it was also part of her upbringing, and she didn't have to shy away from it.
Outside of work, Ho spends time reading and meditating. She no longer believes that her appearance can be exchanged for love, but listens to her inner voice.
She would sit under the trees and watch the clouds flow in the setting sun; Will stand by the lake and watch a flat boat rippling with the waves. The heart gradually returns to the true state of life.
He Chengxi has also learned to enjoy solitude again. She no longer needs to rely on the company of others to define herself. Eating alone, watching movies, going for a walk, she can feel happy.
He Chengxi, who was once lost in the vanity of appearance, re-examined the meaning of life. We did not come into this world to pursue outer glory, but to live out our inner values.
The outward appearance will eventually age, but the inner light will endure.
Today, He Chengxi looks peaceful, focused and content. The attachment of the past is like a bubble, which becomes clear in the baptism of time. She began to enjoy being herself and stopped focusing too much on her appearance.
This peculiar growth experience is a valuable asset in He Chengxi's life. She will eventually understand that outer perfection is nothing but an illusion, and that true beauty comes from the richness of the inner world.
It's also a path of growth that everyone will go through.