My son was sleeping in my arms, and I felt happy and a little helpless with the endless green hills outside the car window.
I had to leave quietly in the middle of the night, or I would have to listen to my mother's nagging.
I'm Liu Ting, and now I'm an ordinary office worker, and I've made a home in the city with my husband. This time I took my son back to my hometown, originally wanting him to meet his relatives from afar, but he didn't expect it to attract a lot of tongues.
But I had to swallow my anger every time, because it was my mother after all.
My son fell asleep and I woke up to the music on my phone to create a bit of silence for myself. My mother complained on the sidelines, saying that my son had eaten too much, and that he should not take him with him when he came back in the future, and that she had robbed all the dishes she had cooked.
My family of three is in the city, without the help of relatives, most of the care has to be taken care of by me and my husband, this time I went back to my parents' house, only to know what is called family disputes and contradictions.
"Mom, I can't help it. I smiled wryly.
"Look, you listen to the fucking tone, no wonder your son looks like this. My sister joked on the sidelines.
My mom glared at my sister and told her to say angrily, "Okay, okay, I'm going to do something else." ”
My mother began to count me down again, saying that I had not taken good care of my son and that he had developed a bad habit of gluttony. I had a headache listening to it, and I just wanted to leave quickly.
It's not that I don't want to take my son to meet my grandmother, uncles and aunts, but I can't stand this kind of scene.
Either way, home is still the warmest place. I hope that my son and I will always find happiness in a warm family.
A few days later, I received a call from my mother, and there was a hint of displeasure in her voice: "Tingting, is there an earthquake over there?" I heard that there have been frequent earthquakes in your area recently, are you okay?"
"Mom, we're fine here, it's just an occasional small earthquake or two, don't worry too much. I replied.
"Hey, be careful, if there's anything, tell me. There was some worry in Mom's tone.
A few days later, my mother called again, she said that her faucet was broken, and she had found several masters who had not repaired it, and asked if my husband was not at home and wanted him to come back to help fix it.
"Your family is not here, what are you busy with, he doesn't even come to see me, and he doesn't want to do such a small thing.
I feel a little unhappy in my heart, my husband has been busy with work recently, and there are some trivial matters to deal with at home recently, I know that my mother wants us to go back to accompany her, but her untimely request is a little unbearable.
Although I am dissatisfied, my mother is my mother after all, and I still hope that we can get along in harmony.
Little by little, the contradictions accumulated, and I couldn't find a suitable way to resolve them.
I know that distance is not only a spatial distance, but also a spiritual distance. I hope that my son and I will always find happiness in a warm family.
The next morning, I received a phone call from my mom asking if I was having trouble on my way home. It made me feel a little warm and a little guilty.
My son was making a fuss at home, and I was busy making breakfast for him. My husband came over with a newspaper and said with a smile, "I talked to your dad on the phone last night, and it seems that your mom misses us a lot now."
I frowned, a little entangled in my heart: "She doesn't want us anymore, she just thinks my son is pitiful." ”
The husband sighed: "Don't keep getting along with your mother, she is an elder after all." ”
I don't know if this contradiction can be resolved, I just know that every time I go home, I am always criticized for being indecent. I tried to do everything well, but I always felt like I was missing something.
In the afternoon, I received a video call from my mother, and she looked concerned: "Tingting, is there anything going on over there lately?
I held back my anger and tried to say calmly, "It's not a big deal, it's just a routine." ”
"Don't beat around the bush with me, what do you think, just say it. I'm your mom and I won't blame you. Mom said with a bit of seriousness.
I was silent for a while, but finally said, "Mom, I think it's hard to go home every time, and I try my best to do everything, but it seems that I can never meet your expectations."
Mom was silent for a while, and finally softened her tone: "You, you're always anxious. I don't mean to find fault with you, I just think that you are not strict enough with your son's education, so I am a little worried.
My eyes widened and I felt aggrieved: "I am not strict enough with my son's education? Mom, do you really need to do this?"
The mother patiently explained: "You are my daughter, of course I hope you will educate your son better."
I was so choked by my mother's words that I couldn't speak. I felt aggrieved, but at the same time, I felt as if I was really not doing enough.
There does not seem to be a simple answer to this contradiction.
My son came running and took my hand, interrupting my thoughts: "Mom, let's go to the park together!"
I smiled, lowered my head and kissed him on the cheek: "Okay, let's go play together." ”
No matter how this conflict is resolved, I only hope that when my son grows up, he can see my love and hard work for him.
When I thought that I had returned to a peaceful city home, and that my mother's entanglement would be gone, a sudden turmoil made my emotions ripple again.
On the other end of the phone, her dull voice came: "Tingting, your father...... He's not been in good health lately.
I gasped and hurriedly asked for details. Mom told me that Dad has been feeling dizzy and upset lately.
When I returned to my parents' house in my hometown, I saw that my father's spirit was indeed not as good as before, his face was pale, and he was a little staggered when he walked.
"Dad, what's wrong with you lately?" I asked reproachfully.
Dad frowned and said nothing, but Mom blamed: "Your father is like this, he doesn't listen to advice on weekdays, he likes to eat this and that."
"What are you two arguing about?" I couldn't help but get angry, "Mom and Dad, at this age, you two don't quarrel over this kind of thing anymore."
"Okay, okay, you two don't quarrel. "Mom waved her hand to stop us.
My heart was full of helplessness, lamenting that my family was always full of strife and contradictions. I don't know how to deal with this, I just want my parents to be healthy and safe.
At this moment, I deeply felt the emotional impact of family disputes, as if I had fallen into chaos again. No matter what, I would like to find happiness with my son in a warm family forever.
The next morning, I woke up to find that I had not returned to the city, but was still in my mother's living room.
I got up to go to my mother to explain, but I saw my mother and sister sitting in the living room drinking morning tea.
"Mom, I'm sorry, I ...... last night"
"It's okay, I've always known what you're doing it for. Mom interrupted me.
I looked at her in amazement, I didn't expect her to be so forgiving. My mother told me that she wasn't angry that I was bringing my child home, but that she was just a little dissatisfied with some of her grandson's behavior.
My sister also persuaded her: "Mom, the children are still young, and we adults should be more tolerant."
I understand my mother's worries, maybe I am too partial to the children and do not give enough edification and teaching. I sat down with my mom and had a good conversation, and she talked about some of her thoughts when I was a child.
On that day, we had a homely meal together as a family, as if the unhappiness of the past had become a thing of the past.
Now, I'm standing by the window, watching the sun shine through the treetops on the ground. Perhaps, happiness is not a distant dream, but the thoughtfulness and understanding of family members for each other, mutual tolerance and forgiveness.