Chapter Four: Remembrance (4) Feng Jing:
There are too many tears from the past. These words, which had never been spoken, were now stuck in the throat.
I want to shout out loud to the whole world, to tell the world that I am no longer the sprouts I was.
Growing up, it seems that the whole world has also become gentle. People look at me and don't have the original pickiness. However, I lost my happy childhood, lost the laughter that could be chattered, and lost the time that could never be recovered. No one has ever given me an explanation, and I don't know who to ask for one.
And it seems that the loss of all this seems to be compensated for today.
Holding Feng Jing's, he unconsciously tightened up.
When I was still immersed in my own emotions, Feng Jing's break free came from my hand.
I let go of my hand guiltily, wiped my eyes with my hand, and quickly picked up my phone and sent a message: I'm sorry to lose my attitude. I'm sorry.
After Feng Jing saw the information, she hurriedly drew a tissue from her bag, pressed my forehead with one hand, and helped me wipe the tears from my face with the other. He said softly, "It's all over, it's all over, and everything is good to regret." ”
Feeling the warmth coming from her hand, I nodded slightly in response.
Having managed to pick up my mood, I grinned and made a smiling expression.
Feng Jing looked at me and smiled toothlessly, but the smile was accompanied by tears.
Seeing that Feng Jing was in tears, I panicked a little, and quickly pulled out my pocket, but there was nothing in my pocket.
Feng Jing said, "It's all right, it may be a cold." With that she pulled out a tissue herself and began to wipe her tears herself.
After calming down, I suddenly felt that the atmosphere around me was strange.
I looked around, and many people were quietly looking at our table. We may be confused by the crying and laughing, and they are all looking at us suspiciously.
At this time, I felt that my mood seemed to be much more relaxed, and the psychological distance between me and the scenery was very close, and I reached out and gently touched Feng Jing's shoulder.
Feng Jing's eyes were still red, and she raised her head to follow my gaze, looked around, and also embarrassedly stretched out her hand to cover her face, and two red flowers flew up on her cheeks, as bright as the plum in the snow.
I looked at Feng Jing's expression in a daze, and I looked at it with some fascination, so I looked at it in a daze.
After a moment of embarrassment, Feng Jing grabbed the small bag on the table with one hand, pulled my slave with the other hand, rushed out of the KFC, and escaped from the crowd of KFC.
The moment I rushed out the door, I looked back, and many people were still looking at us through the glass, and it seemed that from their eyes I could see the blessing and the encouragement.
The flying snowflakes were still flying in the air, swirling, like a ballet of Swan Lake.
After running for a short while, Feng Jing stopped and took my hand but held it tighter.
Because of the running, Feng Jing's white face became red and plump, and her chest also rose and fell with her breathing. Watching the flying snowflakes fall on Feng Jing's head, I reached out my hand and gently brushed the snowflakes off her head.
Feng Jing calmed down for a while, faced me, sighed like a lan, and said softly: "Xiao Jin, do you believe in love at first sight?" ”
In this world of Qiong's dress, facing Feng Jing, who is blue in the heart, I nodded my head hard to express my affirmation.
Although I don't know much about her, I feel that I have known her very closely, and today's meeting is just a reunion after a long absence, is this not "love at first sight"?
Although I keep saying to myself "I don't have too much demand for humanity". But that doesn't mean I don't expect better in life.
Feng Jing saw my response, and the other hand also reached over, and the two of us faced each other, holding hands together, looking at each other, with silly smiles on our faces. In her smile, I seemed to see the crying cousin when I was a child, seemed to see the timid Cheng Cheng in elementary school, and seemed to see the fat fat of junior high school, and it turned out that my past had always been guarded by angels.
From Feng Jing's face, I saw my own happiness, I don't know what Feng Jing saw on my face? I think I also saw the guardian angel beside her!
Feeling Feng Jing's hand slowly getting colder, I pulled Feng Jing's left hand to loosen, pointing to the steaming bun shop next to it, in the railway station square, there is a bun shop, business has been very hot, especially in this cold winter, people have lined up a not short line.
Feng Jing saw the direction I was pointing and understood what I meant. But she said happily, "I'm not hungry yet, let's go to the snare." ”
I nodded.
Feng Jing pulled me and ran towards the crowd.
People during the Spring Festival always have a lot of fun. Just snare this project, I have never tried, mainly when I am alone, I do not want to walk into the crowd, only willing to watch people's joy from a distance.
Feng Jing excitedly asked for 40 circles, I wanted to pay with my mobile phone, but she gently pushed away, mischievously said: "A moment please let me eat hot pot, now I invite you to set the circle." "Say half of the coupons to me."
Feng Jing seems to be very interested in this project often, picking up a circle and aiming at a remote control toy car in the fourth row, throwing five or six circles in a row, and the result is that it does not even touch it.
Feng Jing puffed up her cheeks in some frustration, and after throwing two circles, she looked at me with some discouragement, and muttered softly in her mouth: "Is there a problem with this circle?" ”
Feng Jing's little daughter's appearance fell in my eyes, and I felt that she did not look like the mother of a 5-year-old child, but a little girl who was alive and free.
I smiled and wanted to show comfort.
Feng Jing said angrily, "Are you still laughing when I'm so messed up?" ”
I grinned helplessly, indicating my innocence.
She approached me without a trace, put her mouth to my ear, and whispered, "Xiao Jin, do you feel that I am pretending to be tender?" ”
I thought Feng Jing was going to whisper something to me, but I didn't expect her to say this.
I shook my head hurriedly, just bitterly at my own mouth, and said silently in my heart: I feel that you are very good and real.
Feng Jing then said softly, "I feel that you are very good, I don't know if we have a fate to walk together, I am afraid that you will dislike my age." ”
I still shook my head in a hurry, saying that I didn't hate that she was older than me.
"Hey!" Feng Jing sighed, and then whispered in my ear: "If we can walk together, I hope that you can live with us." ”
Yahweh? First of all, I understood that the girl should be Feng Jing's daughter. But for a marginal person like me, what qualifications are there to pick and choose?
I nodded my head in agreement and agreed to live with the girl.
Feng Jing got my reply, very satisfied, one hand passed under my armpit, the other hand wrapped around my arm, and leaned her head on my shoulder.
I froze on the spot, never thought that happiness would come so quickly, did not think that in less than half a day, my wife had it, and my daughter had it.
This is a great gift from God, happiness came too suddenly, I was a little overwhelmed, all this came too quickly, too unreal.
I tried to stabilize my mind, not wanting to show too much excitement, but the "sudden" heartbeat accelerated betrayed me.
As if feeling the rhythm of my heartbeat, Feng Jing said softly: "The heartbeat is so fast, is it happy or disappointed?" ”
I felt a little bitter in my heart, and this question made it difficult for me to answer, after all, it could not be expressed with a nod and a shake of the head. But I didn't want to spoil this atmosphere, so I cheekily tilted my head and let my head gently hit Feng Jing's head to show my attitude.
This subtle movement conveys my happiness and joy.
Feng Jing put her arm around me and leaned closer. A warm softness, coming from the arms, the scent of the hair accompanied by the fresh air, refreshing the spleen, there is a feeling that makes me flutter.
At this moment, I hope that the world can stop and let me feel this happiness forever.
Someone accidentally bumped my back, a handsome guy, embarrassed to smile at me apologetically.
I smiled slightly and said it didn't matter.
Feng Jing raised her head and looked back behind her, her face even redder.
In a short time, my feelings about Feng Jing. From the surprise at first sight, to her understanding, to her current shyness, I thought that I had met a mortal fairy, and that kind of flattery was beyond reproach.
The owner of the trap, walked over, looked at us grumpily, silent.
I gently patted Feng Jing's back, pointed to the gift on the ground, and raised my hand again, indicating that I still had many circles of uselessness.
Feng Jing smiled and said, "Xiao Jin, it's up to you." "After saying that, I simply gave me the remaining dozen laps."
Calming down a bit and taking two deep breaths, I picked up a circle and threw it toward the remote control car in the fourth row.
The force was a little big, and it fell to the ground next to the package, and I looked back at Feng Jing.
Feng Jing gave two thumbs up to show encouragement.
After a little thought, I adjusted the force in my hand. I dare not say anything else, but I still have some experience in controlling the force. After all, to do massage, the strength in the hand needs to be grasped clearly.
Direction, strength, with the gentle exhalation of the breath in the chest, the circle in the hand was thrown out, impartial, and the remote control car was covered.
Feng Jing's excited voice came from behind him; "Hit, hit!" The boss quickly brought the remote control car. ”
"Little Kim! Come on! Feng Jing encouraged excitedly.
In my mind, recalling the force and trajectory of the parabola just now, the third circle flew towards ultraman in the fifth row and hit again.
"Little Kim! Hello awesome! Feng Jing clapped her hands happily. Everyone around them was attracted by Feng Jing's shouts.
I scratched my head with some embarrassment, thinking that this is too simple.
The boss took Ultraman over, handed it to me, and whispered, "Handsome man, I see that you are a master, or I will return the money to you, and you will go to play somewhere else?" You're good enough with these two toys. ”
I put the rest of the plastic ring on the ground, and the toy was handed over by the boss. When the boss paid for it, I clapped my hands and said I didn't need it.
Turned around and motioned for Feng Jing and me to leave.
Feng Jing asked with some puzzlement, "Xiao Jin, what's wrong?" Then the set ah, I feel that you can put a lot of gifts. ”
I handed Ultraman to Feng Jing, held out my hand to my mouth, and made a silent gesture. At the same time, he pointed to the booth next to him playing balloons.
Feng Jing understood what I meant and walked over with me. Just whispering: "Do you feel that the boss is not easy, afraid that he will lose money?" ”
I gave Feng Jing a thumbs up.
Feng Jing said happily and triumphantly, "Is there a tacit understanding and a feeling of spirituality?" ”
To be honest, I really feel this way in my heart. What Feng Jing said was exactly what I wanted to express in my heart, and at this time I wanted to kiss Feng Jing's forehead. But in the square, I resisted this ridiculous idea.
One morning we happily played balloons, darts, and beanie in the square.
Finally, we went to the hot pot restaurant opposite the station and ate a hot pot.
When you are separated, you always have to express it.
I sent a message: Feng Jing, when I met you, I felt very happy, and I had a feeling of seeing each other and hating the night. It's just that I can only express myself by sending messages. Words are expressed through sound, very romantic, but also emotional, not as blunt as words. But that's all there is to it for now. Hope you understand.
Feng Jing did not speak to me directly, but also replied to the message: Jin Yang, I can feel your kindness, your sincerity, your innocence. If you don't mind, I really want to get involved with you.
I replied: Me too, and hope to get involved with you.
Feng Jing replied: Yes, but some things still need time to test, I don't want to hurt myself again, I hope you can understand.
I replied: Well, I understand. Everyone should be cautious and responsible for their choices.
After reading my reply, I smiled and made a cheering gesture.
At the time of checkout, Feng Jing took advantage of my lack of attention, secretly kissed me on the cheek, said "goodbye", and ran away.