【Maido Original】 Today's Oxfork
Author: The brightest slag star
Tony Leung said of the late Leslie Cheung:
I used to think,
If you have this person in your heart,
And what does it matter where he went?
But...... After so many years...
I think, good has a relationship.
Probably next decade,
I still can't be that free.
But, I will always remember -
You have shone in my heart...
01
Spring should be nice, if you are still there
On April 1, 2022, it has been nineteen years since my brother turned around and left.
6935 days flew by.
If nineteen years is a ruler, a life goes to adulthood; A city may be full of mulberry fields.
Although a generation of superstars fell back then, his charm and everything about him are still in the hearts of many people and cannot be erased.
Those who fanned his face, snorted his sweetness, and were attracted by his love story were middle-aged.
With the accumulation of time, like water flowing through the years, people in the world have gone through more worldly events, rolling in fate, looking for a way forward in difficulties...
Looking back at my brother's 46 years of life again, I will read the mellow life situation even more, which is profound and timeless.
I used to feel that the beauty left by my brother to the world was as rotten as fireworks, and it was brilliant in an instant; But now when I read it again, I am actually frivolous.
What he left behind is a lot of taste wrapped under a lot of purity and beauty.
What we remember and pay tribute to every year is Him and the pure and enduring things he represents.
These are unique and will never come again.
There is no substitute for these, candles illuminate every night.
Pieces are crushed into mud and dust, only fragrant as before.
02
Brilliant as fireworks, profound in human nature
Some people say that the older you get, the more you perceive Leslie Cheung's deep and internal, hesitant struggle.
Looking back at my brother's life, indeed, it is as bright as fireworks, with picturesque eyebrows and a variety of charms.
In 1980, Leslie Cheung co-starred with Chen Baiqiang and Paul Zhong in the movie "Applause", he was a conceited young man.
In 1986, he was the righteous and enthusiastic police officer Song Zijie in "The True Color of Heroes".
In 1987, he was a weak and pure scholar in "Qiannu Ghost".
In 1988, he was the amorous and cowardly rich son "Twelve Youngsters" in "Rouge Button".
In 1990, "The True Story of A Fei", he is the arrogant and rebellious prodigal son, and the clip of Xu Tsai dancing solo in the mirror has become one of the classic scenes in the history of Hong Kong film.
In 1993, he was Cheng Dieyi, who was "not crazy and not alive".
The phrase "said well for a lifetime, one year, one day, one hour less, is not a lifetime", the roar is distressing.
Leslie Cheung is gone, and there is no Cheng Butterfly in the world.
When Love Is a Thing of the Past Music: Leslie Cheung - Drama
In 1997, he was He Baorong in "Spring Light".
Fierce, fragile, drunken and dead, squandering everything.
……
In addition to film and television works, his music is even more unique, and many songs are regarded as classics.
My brother said: "I think that the highest level of an artist is to be able to be of both men and women in the same person, and art itself has no gender. ”
Because of this, he left many more aspects to the world's works.
What everyone sees, and is touched, will be different answers and inspirations.
Pure, affectionate, longing, mysterious, charming, compassionate, mournful, poignant...
And these words, over time, have been interpreted more meaningfully.
03
"Suffocation" for love
My brother once said, "You have only one life, and so do I, who has no future life in this life." Therefore, in this life, we must try to be good to the people around us and hand over a heart. ”
In his life, my brother really faced the world with love; With love, communicate with those around you.
True love, regardless of age, gender, race. My brother's love with Mr. Tang really did that.
Rely on each other, love for life.
Even today, Mr. Tang continues to reminisce about his years with his brother on social media.
Swipe left and right to see more old photos
Among her brother's female friends, Anita Mui occupies a very important position.
At one time, they were called "Golden Boys"; Since then, he has been his closest friend.
Leslie Cheung once said on the show, "My relationship with Anita Mui is different from other friends. When I take photos with other actresses, Anita Mui is also angry. ”
Leslie Cheung has also been defending and supporting Ame.
Once, during Anita Mui's concert, Amei suddenly sighed and said to Leslie Cheung: You are my only friend.
Worried that she would cause dissatisfaction among other friends in the circle because of this statement, Leslie Cheung immediately helped the circle and said: "No, you have many good friends."
Super high emotional intelligence and empathetic.
Leslie Cheung has been taking care of his friends with his kindness all his life.
Lin Qingxia has collaborated with her brother in many works, including "East Evil and West Poison", "East Becomes West" and so on.
She claims to be a Leslie Cheung fan and "card friend".
In the sixth year of her brother's death, Lin Qingxia wrote an article for her brother - "Pamper Leslie Cheung".
My brother and Jackie Chan are intimate.
Jackie Chan said that in the past, Leslie Cheung especially liked to tease himself, "I had long hair at that time, and every time Leslie Cheung saw me, he would come over, gently ruffle my hair with his hand, put his mouth to my ear and speak softly, blowing while talking, deliberately fixing me." ”
Jacky Cheung, Li Ming, Karen Mok... Whether it is the four kings or rising stars, many Hong Kong artists have received Leslie Cheung's promotion and heartfelt help.
In 1996, Leslie Cheung held a concert, and as soon as Liming returned from a performance in Malaysia, he rushed to the scene of Hung Hom Stadium as soon as he got off the plane, rushed to the backstage, panting and shouting: "Leslie, I'm coming!" ”
At that time, Leslie Cheung had already stood on the elevator to prepare for the audience, and he waved at Dawn like a child and said: "Well, go find a seat and sit."
In the middle of the concert, Leslie Cheung couldn't help but pull Liming on the stage to perform together, and sang a song "Red Face and White Hair", which was composed by Leslie Cheung and sent to Liming to sing Chinese version of the song.
Leslie Cheung said that he knew Maggie Cheung very well, "She is a woman who needs people to hurt her, but she has her own opinions, and she needs people who love her to give her freedom." "If I really wanted to love, I would love her!"
At that time, Zhao Wenzhuo went to Hong Kong alone to develop, and his first acquaintance with Leslie Cheung was in the cooperation of the movie "Full Han All Seats".
Because of the language barrier and his personality, every time in public or in front of the media, Zhao Wenzhuo will stand in the back row or on the very side.
Leslie Cheung would shout to Zhao Wenzhuo and say, "Come here, stand next to me." ”
When Cecilia Cheung was hospitalized in a car accident in 2002, her brother often visited her, and in order to make her recover quickly, his brother gave her an amulet that he hung around her neck.
04
Why April Fool's Day?
Nineteen years ago, Leslie Cheung jumped from Mandarin Oriental in Hong Kong to end his life.
Since then, April 1, which is regarded as "April Fool's Day" by Westerners, has taken on a different meaning in the hearts of many people.
Why? Why this day?
For 19 years, many people have been asking questions.
In the last days, the brother was plagued by "depression" and finally came to an end because the condition was out of control.
The "sinking" that has weighed on his heart for many years is difficult to return. There are many reasons for this.
First of all, in the eyes of the outside world, he has too much affection for art, for his works, and for the people around him.
The pursuit of perfection and the pursuit of perfection is one of the reasons why his inner pressure is constantly piling up and there is nowhere to express it.
Some people say that looking at Leslie Cheung, it is inevitable to feel that if you have not lived seriously and profoundly, you are not worthy of getting tired of the world.
"Farewell My Concubine" is regarded as one of the masterpieces in Leslie Cheung's works.
Some people even believe that Zhang and Cheng, inseparable from human drama, are the epitome and portrayal of his life.
Director Chen Kaige recalled the filming process of this drama and had many feelings.
"At those critical moments, Leslie Cheung did not miss a single shot."
For example, Butterfly Yi is addicted to smoking, and Duan Xiaolou came to see his scene.
The original design of the script was that Leslie Cheung wanted to use a dusty tail to smash the frame of an entire wall. Hanging inside is a photo of him and Duan Xiaolou.
Before filming, Chen Kaige was extremely nervous and worried. If you can't shoot it once, you have to replace the frame of the wall, which will cause a considerable delay.
More importantly, this play is extremely demanding for the actors' performances.
This is the last physical contact between Duan Xiaolou and Cheng Dieyi in the play, and at the same time to express that they love restrained and love painfully.
As a result, as soon as the machine was turned on, Leslie Cheung went crazy. He beat the frame on this wall with a stick, and the glass ballast splashed everywhere... Zhang Fengyi hugged Leslie Cheung behind him, full of feelings...
The performance of the two people at the scene was thrilling, showing the struggle and pain in front of love to the fullest.
When Chen Kaige shouted to stop, Leslie Cheung had already cried into tears, persuaded for a long time, did not distinguish between people and plays, and used deep affection.
Because of the deep affection, it is inevitable to be disappointed in the world.
This is the second layer of conjecture that Leslie Cheung chose "April Fool's Day".
Leslie Cheung is dedicated to the world.
Like a baby, he sees the world with pure eyes.
But in the last days of his life, he felt cold and lonely.
He was so kind, but he felt let down by the world.
From the trough of life to the highlight moment; But it is inevitable that life will be hesitant, and the difficulties of the artistic career will be misunderstood...
The older brother was born into a large family and was the eldest of ten children. His father was a tailor shop owner.
In the process of receiving traditional education, although Leslie Cheung went to study in the UK in junior high school, he finally entered the society before finishing university due to family reasons.
After experiencing in the rivers and lakes, although he has experienced the warmth of people, he has not obtained a strong enough philosophy of life.
How to live by yourself in change and how to get along with the world in change is a deep lesson.
At that time, although Hong Kong was his hometown, although it was developing rapidly in the economic field, it could not give him fuller and stronger nourishment in spirit and philosophy.
Too much confusion to find an answer.
For a person like his brother who pursues perfection, mental torture is far more painful than physical torture.
In the end, my brother, like a bird without feet, spent his life flying in the sky with all his strength, and when he was tired, he slept in the wind. The moment it finally lands is the moment it passes.
He chose to jump on the day of "April Fool's Day" and put a poignant end to it.
He seems to be playing a joke with the world.
It has left the world with endless regrets and countless conjectures.
In "Coco", it is said:
True death is that no one in the world remembers you.
From this point of view, there are so many people who will always miss him, which can be regarded as living up to the purity and hard work of his brother's life.
05
The essence comes and goes
Chen Kaige first met Leslie Cheung in Hong Kong. Sit face to face.
Chen Kaige later recalled: "This person has a sense of excellence, not flattering at all, very natural, very real, completely different from the vast majority of people in this industry." ”
"Besides, at that time, I felt that Hong Kong was a world of flowers, so keeping clean in the hustle and bustle must be much more valuable than being clean in a simple environment."
Zhihu, in the question of "how to evaluate Leslie Cheung's life", the most liked answer is:
My brother's life is so short and long, how regretful and brilliant.
In him, any adjective looks thin, and any language looks pale.
The three words "Leslie Cheung" are enough.
Qiannu Ghost Music: Leslie Cheung - Qiannu Ghost Trilogy Movie soundtrack
The road of life is like a long dream
Wind and frost in the road Wind and frost are dry
In the red dust, dreams go in many directions
Find Obsessive Dream Center Love
The road is empty
Life is a dream and a hope
In the dream, there are rare tears
Where to go to find the direction of my heart
The wind seemed to sigh softly in a dream
The road and the people are in the middle of nowhere
Human Road Happy Boy
The road is rough and rough, and there is no sunlight
In the mud, happiness goes in many directions
A touch of dreamy weather
The road is empty
A touch of dreamy weather
The road is empty
Brother, if space-time can be folded,
Let us embrace you, warm you, and keep you!
Missing you
R.I.P.
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