Author | Yi Qing
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Li Sha Minzi called the variety show "Who is the Treasure Singer" his "mascot". Here, at the age of 27, she has a fresh start.
She first bid farewell to her ex with a song "I am waiting for you on Saturday", generously announced her current relationship, and then landed on the first hot search; then, wearing a white wedding dress, she sang a song "Meet a Man" with Lu Rover, waving goodbye to the past and embracing the future.
In the 6th episode, Li Sha Minzi and Land Rover sang a song "Night Train". The song was adapted very briskly, and after the two sang, Luo Yonghao bluntly said that he was "sweet to", "very, very touched" and "100% recommended".
Li Sha Minzi listened, could not help but cry, she admitted that she is a person who wants to be recognized by others, "hard work is not a great thing, everyone is very hard, but when your effort is seen a little bit, it will feel particularly good." 」 ”
Just came to the stage of "Who is the Treasure Singer", Li Sha Minzi's heart was very worried, worried that everyone would say that she was "not good to be a host, but ran to be a singer".
But when she stood on this stage in the name of a singer and conveyed her inner feelings, there was a kind of happiness in her heart that persisted, "The host is my eternal sacred profession, it is family affection, it is a lifetime, acting is a friendship that flows in the long stream, and music is love." Love needs me to earn bread money to feed it. So maybe I'm the most free in music, and I don't need to worry about too many things. ”
"Host" is the label that audiences are most familiar with Li Sha Minzi, but few people know that she is already a "singer" with 18 original songs.
Once Li Sha Minzi, with the money earned from hosting and acting, to support his own musical dreams, on the one hand, very realistic, but also idealistic.
Now, she finally stood on the stage as she wished, and the memories in the diary were safely and accurately conveyed in the form of music, while being extremely sensitive, she also healed herself with a positive sunny side.
She fully accepts her true self, and decides not to curry favor with the "whole universe" and strive to be with everything she loves.
Li Sha Minzi no longer lived in the judgment of the masses, and began to "where the heart goes".
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="28" > contradiction</h1>
In Who's the Treasure Singer, Minzi Lee is a singer. In the host competition, Li Sha Minzi is the host, and in "Dear Taste" and "FlutterIng Like You", she is also an actress.
In the minds of many people, Li Sha Minzi is a contradiction, and she herself thinks so.
Li Sha Minzi often sent her own songs to her good friends, until one day, the friend asked her back: "Li Sha, when will you be able to write a song as warm as "Little Shrimp"?" ”
In addition to love, sometimes she also expresses her "self", and this "self" is "inferior" most of the time.
Minzi Li was impressed by her first song "Little Shrimp". The shrimp swimming in the muddy waters are very small, but very stubborn, "The shrimp and the lesser number in "Who is the Treasure Singer" are myself, I am smaller than the world, but I am greater than myself." ”
In the world of the self, Li Sha Minzi held herself high and cherished it incomparably. In the real world, she made "small and strong" her motto, engraved on a headset.
After graduation, he went to Hunan Satellite TV as a host, with a high starting point, good resources, and variety shows such as "I Am a Singer-Songwriter" and "First-grade Graduation Season" in between.
The word "inferiority" seems to be unrelated to "Li Sha Minzi", but she feels very normal: "Because there are too many excellent people in this world, or there are too many stars in the sky, when you look up at the beautiful on the ground, you will first marvel at the beauty, but at the same time you feel so small, and even look forward to it, one day I can catch up." 」 ”
When she was a fledgling, Li Shaminzi was very "brave" and confident in her mentality. In the process of social experience, she began to become cautious, worried that she would not do well, afraid that her behavior would hurt others, and even cared about what others thought of her.
Li Sha Minzi told Yu Shi'er (ID: yuci-er) that Lu Rover described her as the 2.0 version of Lu Rover, "He said that he himself wanted the world to be satisfied, he didn't expect me to be inferior to him, he described me as wanting to make the whole universe satisfied." ”
On the day of the 520 recording program, The "Night Train" cooperated by Lu Rover and Li Shaminzi detonated the whole audience, and the judges' seats burst into pink bubbles, the corners of the judges' mouths rose to the corners of their eyes, and Luo Yonghao could not hold back the emotions in his heart, saying: "I was completely moved." ”
As soon as Luo Yonghao's voice fell, the corners of Li Shaminzi's eyes were a little moist, and she told Yu Zhi'er (ID: yuci-er) that she was a person who was looking forward to being recognized.
When she went to the university as an intern host at a TV station, Li Sha Minzi worked very hard, consulting her seniors every day and writing a summary in a small book.
Inexperienced and wanting to do a good job, Li Sha minzi was a little too hard. After the recording of a show, the producer said to her cryptically, "You are old," not kind, not speaking human words, which is not in line with the tone of our show." Li Sha Minzi straightened up as she spoke, showing the embarrassment of being a host.
The sad time was short-lived, because she knew that the producer's words were not offensive at all.
Li Sha minzi racked her brains to achieve "speaking human words". She watched the news broadcast by Yang Iridium, a well-known host of Hunan Satellite TV, and almost returned to the most primitive way of learning to speak. The other party said a word, Li Sha Minzi paused a sentence, and slowly felt the voice of the professional host. After practicing privately, she asked the host on the same stage for advice.
Recording the program during the day, at night she reviewed her performance on the TV, so she did it for a long time, Li Sha Minzi suddenly received a WeChat from the producer, and the producer praised her: "You can talk about people today, and the progress is obvious." ”
Just like hearing Luo Yonghao's praise, hearing the producer's feedback, Li Shaminzi's tears fell down. That night, she sent a screenshot of the conversation with the producer to the circle of friends. Everyone in this world is working hard, and the reason why Li Sha Minzi is moved is because she feels that the effort is meaningful, and she is seen.
Li Sha Minzi had a low period, there was no stage at that time, and she once doubted whether she could continue to be a host.
It was hard to have a chance to host, and she would definitely hold it tightly in her hands and do a lot of homework. When these lessons were used on stage and the effect was good, a director came up to her and said, "It's good to have you, it's good to have you." ”
These few words saved Li Sha Minzi, "At that time, I almost felt that I couldn't be the host." ”
Li Sha Minzi felt that she was lucky, and she always encountered some warm forces during the low period.
When she crossed the line as an actress, she was not very confident. Chen Mingzhang, the director of "Dear Taste", commented on Li Shaminzi when he interviewed her: "Obviously, she is a person who is an actor, but she ran to be a host. ”
There may be many interpretations of this passage, but Li Sha Minzi feels that she is recognized by her predecessors as a director and is supporting herself to continue to go on.
From the host, actor to singer, in the eyes of the outside world, Li Sha Minzi is very contradictory, and does not know what she really wants.
Li Sha Minzi admits that she is a typical Leo, contradictory, but limited to her own personality, "I am indeed a contradiction, there are two people inside, one is an optimistic and positive sun, and the other is a sensitive and sad little black shadow, the two of them hug each other, and sometimes fight." I've always felt that the sunny part of my personality saved me, to embrace another inner iceberg. ”
However, regarding the choice of professional identity, as early as 2020, when she participated in "I Am a Singer-Songwriter", Li Sha Minzi thought clearly in her heart.
At that time, she seemed to have been failing, someone would give her advice and ask her if she had not chosen the right direction, and Li Sha Minzi also fell into meditation, trying to think about what her "direction" really was.
Later, she came up with a simple answer: "Isn't the direction of the heart?" Why can't I just run with my heart? I live this life, and in this life, I want to do what I like as much as I can. Of course, I like not to be above the pain of others. If my insistence is good, if I don't break principles and trample on the bottom line, I am qualified to insist on what I like. ”
Minzi Li accepted her contradictions, and between the balance of inferiority and pride, sunshine and sensitivity, she also balanced her preferences and worked hard to live.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="90" > I am the "love brain"</h1>
During the conversation, Li Sha Minzi admitted almost without any hesitation that she was a "love brain". She speaks boldly, and love brain is a neutral word, not pejorative.
"It depends on how you interpret it, because a good relationship must be grown by two people, if you can't grow together, or you can't feel happy in a relationship, such a relationship should not be left alone." 」 A good relationship will not make you lose yourself, why not enjoy it? ”
Baidu Encyclopedia explains: "The love brain is a love-first thinking mode, and once in love, you put all your energy and mind on love and lovers. ”
Li Sha Minzi can not be counted as a love brain in the typical sense, because in her life, "career" accounts for a very heavy proportion, "I am a very enterprising person." She firmly told Yu Thorn (ID: yuci-er).
Minzi Li is a person who "absolutely cannot stop" and she has to work every day. If I don't have a job, I look for a job on my own, "Most of the jobs are found by myself, and I even ask the staff to give me a job, I am afraid to stop, which makes me very insecure." ”
When she was not yet famous, Li Sha Minzi did not have many jobs, and in order to fill the vacancy, she went to guitar classes and fitness classes, and she must let herself have something to do.
Later, there were more job opportunities, Li Shaminzi's schedule was very full, occasionally vacated for two or three days, she went to music class, the staff advised her to rest, she resolutely refused, "This has nothing to do with money, it is that I have developed a habit of non-stop." ”
Perhaps because of her mentally "active" state, Li Sha Minzi has difficulty falling asleep and often cannot sleep in the middle of the night. On May 19, the day before the recording of "Who is the Treasure Singer", Li Sha Minzi lost sleep again, but when she participated in the recording the next day, she played an extraordinary role and successfully revealed her identity on the big screen.
"Who's the Treasure Singer" was recorded at four o'clock in the morning, and Li Sha Minzi almost did not close her eyes all night, and began the next day's trip. At the time of the interview, she had not slept soundly for 48 hours, but her mental state was still very good, without a trace of exhaustion.
"I invented a way to mentalize myself, which is to pinch the center point of the wrist, which is very useful." After li shaminzi carefully demonstrated, he added: "This can not rise to self-harm, it can only be regarded as a reminder to yourself." ”
This kind of "self-awakening" method Li Sha Minzi has been carried out many times, and now it is somewhat useless.
In the past internship, Li Sha Minzi had a habit of looking at the bullet screen one by one, and then wrote down the places she needed to correct in a small book. The bullet screen complained about the host's yellow teeth, and Li Sha Minzi immediately went to wash it, although she was inexperienced, but the execution was full of points.
She is happy to accept criticism from the business, even if it is a group ridicule, not to exclude, "I also love self-deprecation, I also have self-knowledge." 」 ”
But she is very afraid of seeing the attack on the character, which is not in line with the facts, and cannot prove her innocence at all, "Because you have no way to prove anything for yourself, I can't always send him a message saying, contact me, let's get along in life, make a friend, you see if I am the kind of person you said?" Li Sha Minzi joked.
She doesn't know how to prove herself, she can only change her motto, self-encouragement: you can accept disappointment, but you must insist on kindness.
Or sing, don't have to make pale explanations, and leave the interpretation to the audience. Looking at everyone's comments on the music, it is the way Li Sha Minzi is charged, and when someone is in the same mood as her, she will be particularly happy, "Even if only one person says this, I will tell him that you are not alone." ”
Li Sha Minzi was different. Friends were surprised and thought she had changed, "They said, the first is that I have become happy, and the second is that I have become truly mature. ”
Once she was very positive energy, the dictionary of life is full of chicken soup for the soul, "as long as you work hard, you will succeed", "Don't work hard and even have no qualifications to fail", "Persistence will give you the right to realize your dreams" She raised her arm, clenched her fist with one hand, and rushed forward, like the deer Xiaokui who was often ridiculed but worked hard in the TV series.
Time and experience are devouring her little by little, and Li Sha Minzi believes that insisting on kindness is a more important thing to do than chicken soup.
In the past, she cared more about the results and hoped that the effort would be rewarded, but now she cares more about the process, "I feel like I have become softer." ”
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="134" > vent themselves with music</h1>
Li Sha Minzi teased her song expression: "Nine out of ten are talking about love, because the inspiration comes from pain." And I only keep a journal when I'm in pain. ”
In a self-study class in the first year of junior high school, the bored Li Sha Minzi began to write songs for the first time.
At that time, she loved to sing, and when she encountered the lyrics she liked, she would copy them down, and if she couldn't copy them, she would print them, and finally she had a thick stack of lyrics in her home.
But she was not satisfied, and began to "scribble" without skill, accumulating a lot of small fragments of her teenage years. Like a kind of musical enlightenment, Li Sha Minzi realized the importance of music to her early on, but she also knew that it was just a "hobby".
In 2016, the fourth season of Hunan Satellite TV's "I Am a Singer" was launched, and in the program, Li Sha Minzi became the music partner of singer Xu Jiaying. The voice often heard in the headphones suddenly appeared, Li Sha Minzi felt very magical, and what made it even more difficult for her to forget was that she followed Xu Jiaying and saw what is called real music.
From daily communication to professional song selection and stage presentation, Standing behind Xu Jiaying, Li Shaminzi witnessed the whole process of the birth of a song, and she realized that a song is more than "songwriting", "there are arrangements, mixers, producers, musicians and sound recordists, and so on." Recalling the original scene, Li Shaminzi's eyes shone with light, as if opening the door to a new world.
Influenced by "I Am a Singer", Li Sha Minzi began to write songs "in the eight classics". At first, not many people listened to it, but she gave herself enough sense of ceremony, every year on her birthday, she would send an original song, these lyrics are all derived from her diary, and there are currently 18 original songs.
Li Sha Minzi has the habit of "breaking thoughts", and sometimes posts it on Weibo to share with fans and friends. What cannot be shared, such as the plot of lovelorn, is written in the diary.
Music for Li Sha Minzi is like an outlet for emotions. When she is in love, she communicates with herself every day, and sometimes sends it to her ex, but she often gets a red exclamation point, "I think words and music will not deceive people, the most real things can be hidden in the text, even if it is around, even if it is only a hint, but always able to express the voice." 」 ”
These unspeakable fragments became an important part of Li Shaminzi's musical world. "I'm Waiting for You on Eight Sundays" was inspired by the fifth part of Li Sha Minzi's diary of lost love, she wanted to forget a person, but she couldn't, simply broke the jar and broke it, drew the ground as a prison, thought about the other party in the useless time, and then slowly forgot, "It's a kind of self-deprecation." ”
"Meet Someone" is more like a watershed, it allows Li Sha Minzi to say goodbye to the past and begin to meet a new stage of life.
This song is a song written by Lu Rover for "Who is the Treasure Singer", when Li Sha Minzi listened to Demo for the first time, there was an instant of pressure, she secretly competed with herself, and must write a good enough lyric to match this song.
"I'm Waiting for You on Eight Weeks" was written quickly, and in less than two hours, the lyrics were finished. But "Meet Someone" was not so smooth, and Li Sha Minzi grinded for a long time, but found nothing.
Without inspiration in Changsha, she booked a ticket to fly to Beijing, thinking that the inspiration for changing cities would come faster. Unexpectedly, the words that have not been able to be sharpened are all in one go on the plane to Beijing, and even "write themselves to cry".
Writing "You hold hands in the future, I marry the past", she remembers her former self, when she thought she would live with loneliness; writing "I trapped myself, you redeemed myself", she was very emotional, because everything was much better than the worst situation imagined - she now has a better life.
After writing, Li Sha Minzi was particularly excited, and the sense of abundance brought to her by creation and expression filled her heart, and she sent a Weibo with a real feeling of trumpet, "I love these two cities that run back and forth!" I love everything in the past, including scars! I love everything about the future including the unknown! I love! Passion that never goes away! ”
For better or worse, Minzi Li thanked her for everything in the past, "because it has made the inspiration for the present and the future, and has become my spiritual wealth." Like my friend told me, there may be no bad news in this world, you just don't know what's good about it. ”
How many articles were written in the diary, Li Sha Minzi could not accurately tell. Diary whispers eventually exist in two forms, either in memory or in music. Li Sha Minzi is also in the alternation of virtual and real, reassuringly telling his own story, secretly conveying his feelings, and those who understand will naturally understand.
Music is lisha minzi's vent, she does not have the luxury of making a splash through music, but she is eager to get a recognition, "at least give me the right to publish, and the opportunity to communicate with music." ”
When most people think that Li Sha Minzi should be a good host, Li Sha Minzi must pluck up the courage to tell the world that she can't do without music. When she can't sleep, she listens to music all night; at low points, she can only rely on music to burn her desire to talk.
Only in the world of music, she is the original self, and has nothing to do with her profession or others.
Why can't a person be a host, an actor, and a singer at the same time? With everything she loves, Li Sha Minzi is more free.