In the "Fu Lei Family Letter", Fu Lei created an image of a loving father and confidant, in which the warm and pulsed words have touched countless people.
However, after the death of such a good father, fu Cong, the son of the book, is willing to leave for China to see him for the last time.
He is both the prototype of Zhang Ailing's scumbag and the terrible factor for his son to escape from his family.
After removing the image packaging in the book, we found that we had all been deceived by Fu Lei.
NO.1
In April 1908, Fu Lei was born in a small town in Jiangsu.
Fu Lei's family is a famous family in the local area, and there are hundreds of acres of good land alone.
However, Fu Lei's father was framed when Fu Lei was 4 years old and was arrested and imprisoned.
After the change in Fu Lei's family, his mother pulled the four children and ran around selling their property, and finally redeemed his father.
Unfortunately, Fu Lei's father dragged his battered body out of prison not long after he died of illness.
Tragically, unfortunate things continue to follow.
After the death of the top pillar of the Fu family, Fu Lei's other three brothers also died of illness due to neglect of care. Little Fu Lei had not yet understood the grief of the separation of his relatives, and he already felt that his mother had more gray hair on her sideburns and no smile on her face.
It is always good for teenagers not to know the taste of sorrow, but the nightmare of Fu Lei's childhood has quietly arrived.
It turned out that after Fu Lei's father died, Fu Lei's mother, Li Wanzhen, would creak her teeth in hatred whenever she thought of her husband's unjust imprisonment, the family's fall in the middle of the road, and her son's illness.
Therefore, the revitalization of the glory of the Fu family became the driving force for her to live. And all hope is pinned on Fu Lei.
In order to let his son receive a better education, Li Wanzhen did not hesitate to sell all his belongings, and then spent a lot of money to Fu Lei to ask the best master to give one-on-one lessons.
Whenever Fu Lei was reading, Li Lizhen had to stare at the side, but whenever she heard Fu Lei's voice reading a little stuttered, she would drop the ring ruler in her hand and slap her face with her face split.
But Fu Lei was still a child, and although he enjoyed treatment that others could not reach in his studies, he still wanted to breathe the free air outside occasionally.
Once in the summer, Fu Lei heard the chirping of crickets through the window, so he ignored it and quietly ran to the courtyard and picked up his ass to fight crickets.
When Fu Lei was having a good time, his mother was already standing behind him with a black line and staring at him deadly. After Fu Lei felt a chill in his back, he ran back to the room to continue the endorsement as soon as he slipped a cigarette.
When Fu Lei stared at the book, his eyes always glanced at the door from time to time, waiting for the ring ruler that did not know when it would come. As a result, he was worried for a day, and did not see the meaning of his mother's punishment, and then he did not hesitate to breathe a sigh of relief.
Unexpectedly, when Fu Lei was sleeping late at night, he suddenly felt a fiery pain in his stomach, and he subconsciously waved in the direction of pain, but he was greeted with a more painful burning sensation. Fu Lei woke up from the dream only to find that his mother had lit a candle on his stomach to punish him.
And the candle was poured by Fu Lei, and at the same time, the burned wax oil was poured on his stomach.
Fu Lei subconsciously wanted to pull it away, but when he looked up and saw his mother's wide-eyed eyes, the hand that was thrown out stopped in mid-air and hung down, and could only spread from the spicy pain from his stomach to his heart, and he didn't even dare to make a sound, allowing tears to wander freely on his face.
But that's not all.
Whenever Fu Lei's grades slipped, he was directly tied up by his mother, dragged to his father's tablet and knelt down, and then he mentioned the bruises and black marks left on his body by whip.
In Fu Lei's world, as long as the grades are not good, it means sorry for his dead father, which is the most his mother has said to him.
Therefore, although Fu Lei's childhood life was boring, he was very competitive in his studies, not only admitted to a well-known high school in Shanghai, but also got the opportunity to study at the University of Paris in France.
Under the oppression of tiger mother education, Fu Lei lived a depressed life, and he tried to suppress his inner restlessness under the majesty of his mother, and seriously pretended to be a well-behaved boy.
Even if his mother's hand reached from study to marriage, Fu Lei gladly accepted his mother's appointment to his cousin Zhu Meifu as his daughter-in-law.
He was used to nodding, used to obedience, so those suppressed desires would eventually erupt in retaliation one day in the future.
NO.2
In 1927, at the age of 19, Fu Lei left Shanghai and officially began his study in France.
Fu Lei had just arrived, unfamiliar with life, relying on poor English to speak and draw on the street, and finally found Zheng Zhenduo, introduced by his teacher Yan Keats, and was able to settle down in Paris.
But Fu Lei, a mediocre Asian face, could not avoid being snubbed by some white people.
Whenever Fu Lei stood there, he saw several white people huddled together, chattering in French that he didn't understand, and still looking in his direction and laughing. Fu Lei had to look up and down to see if there was any laughter on his body, and when he was sure, he pretended to leave the mocking circle calmly.
But always choosing to escape is not the way, so Fu Lei had to enroll himself in a French cram school so that he could quickly integrate into the environment.
At that time, on the campus road of the University of Paris, it was often seen that the ragged Fu Lei was running wildly, just so that he could get to the cram school on time for French lessons.
Fu Lei did vocal exercises day and night in his spare time, which attracted the attention of the landlord. It just so happened that the landlord was a French teacher, and he was touched by Fu Lei's persistence, so he often helped Fu Lei correct his pronunciation in his free time in the evening.
In order to make his French improve faster, Fu Lei, in addition to majoring in professional courses, also went to other schools to listen to art lectures, and tried to translate some French novels and short stories, successfully unlocking his translation career.
As a result, Fu Lei's French language improved rapidly, and he gradually became able to talk freely with French students in school.
During that time, Fu Lei rode his bicycle through every tree-lined path in Paris, feeling the gentleness of the romantic capital, and did not have to worry about his mother's reprimand and whipping, everything seemed so relaxed.
So, when a French girl named Madeleine broke into Fu Lei's life, a warmth that had never been felt before also broke through his locked heart, allowing Fu Lei to instantly leave his cousin who was left at home waiting for him to return home.
At first, when Fu Lei first arrived in France, Fu Lei occasionally cared about the life of his fiancée when he wrote to his family to report that he was safe. But since Fu Lei fell in love with Madeleine, Fu Lei almost never thought of writing a letter to Zhu Meifu, and even the letters sent from Home, he threw it aside directly, and he didn't even want to tear it down.
A conformist young man who falls in love with an exotic girl will always seem so outrageous.
But Fu Lei's long-bound hands and feet, once stretched out, resembled a hare that had been banished from its cage. When he suddenly came to the paradise of freedom, he no longer wanted to be associated with the past.
In order to be able to cultivate the right results with Madeleine, Fu Lei wrote a letter of repentance and gave it to his friend Liu Haisu to bring back to China.
However, just when Fu Lei was determined to have a showdown with Zhu Meifu, he accidentally found that Madeleine was stepping on several boats at the same time, and he was just one of her playmates.
Unexpectedly, the first time I was emotional, I actually became a male partner of a dog blood story.
Fu Lei's body and mind were greatly hurt, and he also felt that he had no face to see the old mother and fiancée at home again, and he almost had to die to apologize.
Fortunately, Liu Haisu found out in time, and when he stopped Fu Lei from doing something stupid, he dropped the letter of repentance.
Fu Lei smiled bitterly in the same place, feeling the embarrassment and shame after he became a joke.
This experience made Fu Lei think bitterly, and also made Fu Lei make the decision to spend the rest of his life with Zhu Meifu.
NO.3
The failure of love made Fu Lei disheartened with life in France.
After the end of his studies, Fu Lei quickly packed up his baggage and quickly fled from that sad place.
After Fu Lei returned to China, he entered the Shanghai Academy of Fine Arts to teach, and at the age of 24, he married his cousin Zhu Meifu.
After the two married, Fu Lei felt that his wife's name was too rustic, so he changed her name to "Zhu Meifu" and gave her a foreign name "Margaret".
In fact, Zhu Meifu is not so unbearable, although she grew up in a deep boudoir, but she received a modern education, and she is also proficient in English, music and painting.
But these were nothing at all in front of Fu Lei, who had stayed in the ocean. He prefers to focus on his translation career than his wife, who has no common topic.
As a result, Fu Lei's translated works after marriage have grown in a spurt. After he translated literary masterpieces such as "The Biography of Michelangelo" and "The Biography of Tolstoy", his status in the literary world has become increasingly high.
The success of his career made Fu Lei more and more proud at home. Even though Zhu Meifu had been silently handling the housework for him, helping him copy manuscripts, and even getting pregnant and having children, Fu Lei did not release a trace of warmth, but instead vented his stinky temper.
Fu Lei's biggest hobby is playing cards, but every time he complains in blackface at the card table because of losing cards, sometimes he has to overturn the table.
Every time at this time, it was Zhu Meifu who rushed to the front to pay Fu Lei a smile, while Fu Lei was angry in the back.
Maybe his wife's love came too easily, even if Fu Lei didn't do anything, he could still get Zhu Meifu's wholehearted support, so he didn't need to cherish it.
Therefore, in the successful life of Fu Lei, he abandoned his wife and fell in love with the delicate and beautiful Chengjia liu.
After Fu Lei felt the long-missing romance in Chengjialiu, he did not hesitate to compare Chengjialiu to his own muse and source of inspiration.
Although Zhu Meifu knows her husband's extramarital affair, her feelings for Fu Lei are as deep as the sea, and she can only swallow all her grievances into her stomach, and then continue to play her husband's xiannesuke.
Sometimes, when Fu Lei was writing, the six gods and no masters would fall into a state of extreme mania, and when they started a fire, they could not recognize the six relatives.
But as soon as Cheng Jia Liu appeared, Fu Lei could soon return to calm. But behind this tranquility, every phone call Zhu Meifu made to Chengjia Liu was indispensable.
Therefore, in Fu Lei's world, there were confidants with red faces who studied ink and incense for him in the study, and there were housewives who took care of the housework for him.
The joy of two people only needs one person to complete with tears.
It was not until Zhang Ailing used their story as a prototype to create the novel "Yin Baoxuan Sending Flowers to the Louhui", that this delicate triangle relationship was stopped.
In the novel, Zhang Ailing portrays the male protagonist Luo Qianzhi, who treats his wife and lover differently, and vividly exposes Fu Lei's ugly mask.
After the publication of this novel, Zhang Ailing's sharp words aroused the anger of readers, and soon Made Fu Lei lose face in the literary world.
Cheng Jia Liu was also ashamed of himself, and quickly disappeared from the sight of Fu Lei and his wife with guilt for Zhu Meifu, and hastily married a pilot to end this shameless love.
NO.4
When Fu Lei was infamous after this disaster, he thought that this life was full of darkness and confusion. But when he turned around, he found his wife still waiting in the same place.
At that moment, Fu Lei instantly understood that what should be cherished most in this life should also be this wife who seeks perfection for herself and is sympathetic.
Perhaps, when you like to turn into the dust of humility, you can also blossom beautiful flowers in the torrent of time.
Regardless of whether Fu Lei finally loves or compensates for his wife, he is finally willing to return to his wife's side and fulfill the responsibilities of a husband and father.
However, a person's nature cannot be modified overnight.
Fu Lei, who grew up under the stick education, still failed to ease the already estranged relationship in the family.
At home, Fu Lei set strict house rules, and there were clear rules for everything. As long as the son is slightly against his will, he will surely throw a slap.
Therefore, in life, the whole family must do things according to his requirements, even if it is chopsticks after meals, water bottles that pour water, there are strict placement rules.
But whenever a person made a mistake, Fu Lei would directly give him a kick. Especially in education, Fu Lei has well inherited the harshness and harshness of his mother.
Once, the eldest son, Fu Cong, was slack when practicing the piano, fiddling with the keys in one hand and flipping through "Water Margin" with the other. After Fu Lei downstairs heard that the piano sound was not right, he immediately roared and rushed up the steps, and casually picked up the mosquito coil under his feet and smashed it into Fu Cong's face.
Fu Cong's nose was smashed to the point of blood, and Fu Lei still ignored it, still pointing to the piano and ordering Fu Cong to continue practicing.
Fu Cong was so frightened that he didn't dare to make a sound, and could only practice with tears in his eyes.
But Fu Lei did not become peaceful because of his son's good-naturedness. In the days that followed, Fu Lei would stand by and supervise while Fu Cong was practicing.
Whenever Fu Cong played a wrong note, his inner anger would be fully ignited, and then he would poke his son's head hard, and even press Fu Cong's head down fiercely until a dull "bang" sound was emitted from the keys.
In the face of her husband's cruelty, Zhu Meifu sometimes argued with Fu Lei, but Fu Lei often dropped a sentence of "good for the children" and threw away his hands to continue his stick education.
With the passage of time, Fu Lei's trick of "educating" his son became more and more terrifying, and sometimes he even tied his son directly to the tree at the door to bask in the sun, even if his son was strangled with bruises, he did not feel pain.
This kind of education left an infinite shadow on Fu Cong, who survived under his father's stick education until the age of 20, and finally could not stand his father's violence, so he made a good claim to emigrate to Britain, and never returned home.
NO.5
From the moment Fu Lei educated his son, he never doubted that he would gradually push his son away.
Therefore, Fu Cong's departure brought a huge blow to Fu Lei, and also caused him to fall into a kind of self-doubt all day long.
Later, in the 8 years since Fu Cong's departure, Fu Lei put down his body, expressed his thoughts about his two sons through letters, and also gave them the strength to live through words, writing a total of 186 letters before and after, which became the later "Fu Lei Family Letter".
The love he expressed between the lines showed a kindness and kindness that had never been seen before.
However, it was already too late, and the harm that Fu Lei had caused to his son in the past had always become a thorn in their reluctance to return home
The most direct impact of this spiritual blow is the reduction of the production of works, and the articles written are often frequently rejected because of quality problems.
What is even more tragic is that our country was in a special period of history at that time. After Fu Lei's past love history scandal was pulled out, he could not escape the disaster, and after being judged to be a style problem, he was directly pulled out to parade in the streets and publicly criticize the fight.
Fu Lei did not get a response from his son at home, and he was unable to return to heaven in his career, coupled with the various humiliations imposed on him, he gradually despaired of life, and finally ended his life through poisonous herbs in the middle of the night.
And when Zhu Meifu saw that her husband was going to do something stupid, she did not stop her, but quietly waited by Fu Lei's side, and when her husband died, she sorted out his remains for him, and then tore off the sheets and hanged herself.
What is the world? Orthodox people are born and die. Even if Zhu Meifu suffered from Fu Lei's cold reception all his life, he still did not give up at the last moment, and life and death followed.
No one understood this kind of lonely love, but Zhu Meifu was always with Fu Lei.
For Fu Lei, he has been subjected to his mother's oppressive education since he was a child, so he has never felt the love from his mother.
Therefore, when Fu Lei, who was extremely loveless since childhood, grew up, even if he was talented, he was eager to get love from others, and this distorted value laid an invisible bomb for his future encounters.
At the same time, Fu Lei loves his children, so after his son is away, he wants to borrow one letter after another to express his remorse and guilt.
However, the pain of this world cannot be cured by a few words.
In the end, he lost his son and gave up his life because of the absurdity of the past.
Therefore, Fu Lei's life, talented but lack of love, love but do not know how to express, and finally ended up with a sloppy end, it is really sad and lamentable.
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【Wen | Ah Dock Monster】
【Editing | Cuttlefish Peach】