When I met Cui Jian, I was 22 years old, full of style and vitality, that is, people are a bit of a leng, from the Xilin Gol steppe, just came to Hohhot not long ago, in the unit to make an object, people are literary and artistic youth.
One day he took a tape and called it to me, and he was so excited that he said, "Look at people's voices, listen to people's songs." After I listened to it, I was particularly surprised, is this a song? Roaring, roaring, roaring downwards, the voices are all holding in the throat, Oh my God, listen to it and hold your breath, how brighter and farther than the long tune of my grassland.
But I did not dare to squeak, looked up at him, took the tape, unfolded the tape, "Rock on the New Long March Road", pretended to be very useful and listened to it for a while.
Sincerely, I thought it was hard to hear, and I thought it wasn't a song because I couldn't understand what he was singing.
You can understand the song "Nothing" that I heard earlier, and when I listen to this song, I feel that this man is really arrogant enough through the tape - I just have nothing, I want you to go with me.
At that time, my heart was full of love, and since my object regarded him as a treasure, I could not say that I could not understand it, could not understand it.
He began to look for information about Cui Jian.
Cui Jian, a cattle in 61 years, a grandfather of Beijing, a xian ethnic group, the Beijing Symphony Orchestra plays trumpets.
Can't understand the song, start studying his lyrics. At that time, I remember that this album also contained seven or eight songs, as well as his eggs under the red flag, and his lyrics I watched repeatedly, first I did not adapt, then I was shocked, shocked, and then I shuddered, and I felt that it was inconsistent with the public order and good customs of the time.
"I want all of this, but don't hate and regret, if you want to fall in love with me, you don't have to be afraid to regret it, because one day I want to go far away, I don't want to stay in one place, I don't want someone to follow, I don't let you see my hypocrisy." 」 I want to see your beauty, but don't look at you suffering. ”
For us girls, I think such a man is particularly fucked, look at it again, look at it again, think that he doesn't tell a scumbag dog blood love story, this is a very uncomfortable thing.
"Walk up and look around, reality is like a stone, spirit is like an egg, although the stone is hard, but the egg is life", he first understood the lyrics, and implemented my lifelong consistency: the spirit of this egg in life this touch is broken, but life without this egg, what strength do you live?
His song recounts the time we were, shouting in our own voices:
"I just grabbed my hand and just walked forward, and I just yelled with my mouth open."
"Buried head and walked forward looking for myself, walked over to the ground without a basis"
The sun climbs up
I opened my eyes again
I look at the sky, I look at the earth
Yikes
I lifted my legs and walked down the old road
I stared at the old place
The mountain is still there, the water is still there
Yikes
How many times the sun is in the head of the sun in one day
But how many times have the same sorrow in the heart?
How many times have you kept walking like this
How many times can this be done all day long
Yi Ya Yi Ya...
Look at the wild chrysanthemum
I think of my home
The old man, the old lady
Yikes
At that time, I personally liked to listen to this song the most, and I thought that this song was the most normal, and I could understand it and define it as a song. Listening to a sound of Yi Ya, Ah, always want to cry, think that the "Yi Ya" of this sound is the essence of this song.
Now the mountains and waters are gone, and the mountains and rivers are charged.
In front of cui jian, these familiar lyrics feel that they are warm and vicissitudes of the old man, do not listen, just look at the lyrics feel good.
At that time, cui Jian was six or seven years older than us, and I couldn't imagine how he could be so powerful and amazing.
Vision and insight are limited, read his lyrics, listen to his songs, the first feel hard, the second feel panicked.
It's not the same as the rushing Xilin River, the white clouds floating in the blue sky, and the black horses running.
Under the recommendation of the object and the enthusiastic fans, I watched and read his lyrics, listened to and listened to his songs.
He is a big eagle flying and circling cold above the sky at the top of the high ridge, and I wait for the, I can't reach the height of people, but the heat of the heart has never been cold.
Later, my love was scattered in two shots, and each day went their own way, and Cui Jian became the wedge of his heart.
I haven't thought about it, and I won't forget it.
Trivial and trivial life, year after year, day after day.
In the past many years, from the green onion girl to the green onion girl her mother, the day is chai rice oil salt sauce vinegar tea, no poetry no Cui Jian, there is only this meal in front of you.
One day I saw an article, Cui Jian was still in Beijing, living in a tube building in Houhai, and was once again shocked by this man.
With his appeal at that time, in such an information age, he did not say that he moved his little finger, and he had a lot of money when he took a sweat and hair, and he also used what tube building.
Frustrated? Can you be so poor? Banned? Was it castrated, or was it rejected?
After understanding it, I was relieved, and it turned out that this eagle was still soaring in the sky that I did not know.
Later, after listening to Dou Wei's "Landless Self-Tolerance", it was also very amazing, and I felt that Dou Wei was singing about you and me, and Cui Jian was singing about the front.
Half of the country is also a side branch that multiplies from here.
I watched "Blue Bones" seriously, do you think that the male protagonist played by Yin Fang feels a little unsatisfactory, or the movie is too melancholy.
"Make more money, make more money."
If you earn enough money, things will naturally change."
"Don't talk to me about seriousness, don't be deep with me
There are more money than cultural opportunities these days."
"Honestly earn money It's a bright future, and the standard of happiness is lowered
Forget the existence of the soul, life is so vivid."
"The ideals of the past are now tools"
"The more knowledge you have, the more money, the more you buy the ideal"
"You say that everyone's ideals have been washed away by the times
Watch TV, listen to the radio, read the newspaper
You say that the struggle between ideals no longer exists
Doing that relationship well is the safe way back."
Listening to this song, when I was young, I still had a thousand thoughts, and now I can't tell the pain when I bite my tongue.
There is no spirit, there is no egg, life is light, and it is not easy to bear.
Then it was this evening, April 15, 2022, Cui Jian's online public concert.
I have been watching, I have been watching the wonderful replay behind, watching Dou Wentao's interview, and contributing my virgin bullet screen, tonight sleepless.
More than 40 million people watched online, and 4 million people never moved. Likes, 150 million.
At that time, I didn't think that Cui Jian tonight was like Uncle Ya.
Before watching it, I thought, Cui Jian is more than 60 years old, who will see him? It is also our batch of old gang dishes, young people tell them Cui Jian, is not unknown.
Tonight there is our blood, the cry of our fists going forward, and the youth of our faith that has not withered.
I don't know how many young people are there in these forty million or so, more than half of them.
I also clearly feel that old age is old. Not the boy who had his hair up, his neck wrenched, his pants legs pulled up, and he looked like an angry rooster.
Today, I am not moving, I have no expression, I am shrugging my eyelids, I am not shouting, I am just stating all the content that has not been given up.
Calm the face of the big cake, not happy or sad.