This article is reproduced from the public number: Heartfelt Song Is Unknown
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Since I joined the work, every once in a while, I will go to Guiyang for a full body examination.
It's been two years since I thought about the last physical exam or the last one.
At that time, I got the medical report, and the assessment result was obesity, 52 kilograms of weight, so that my height seemed to be only the root number two.
Blood draw needs to draw 10 tubes, just after drawing 2 tubes can not be released, the nurse sister has been letting me clench my fist and then release, the needle shakes around, the blood is still drawn very slowly.
Another physical examination that I remember vividly is the one at work. There was a group of girls behind me, watching me get a few stitches and not bleed, and a few of them were directly frightened.
I had just graduated from college that year, and I had failed several recruitment exams, and in desperation, a school in another county informed me to go on the bench and pass the physical examination to join the company.
The night before, I took a bus for more than four hours alone to the designated place, the mountain road was eighteen bends, the bumps were also severe, and when I rested halfway, I threw up everything I ate at noon.
When I arrived, I could no longer eat, so I had to wait on an empty stomach until the end of the medical examination. Early the next morning I went to the queue, and it was only after twelve o'clock that I was done, and all kinds of people who dragged the relationship cut in line, which ruined my good feelings for the small town.
When I went to the school where I was going to join and turn in the medical examination form, I suddenly hesitated. I couldn't stay in a place where I couldn't stay for a day, so I decided to give up the job that I had won so hard.
At noon, I ordered a bowl of double-added lamb powder, and while eating it, I cried, and the boss asked me what was wrong, and I said it was too spicy.
Later, he took a desperate road and made a desperate bet and was admitted to the current school.
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Adult life is not easy, such a mood, you may have experienced a few times.
My 18th birthday was spent in college, and I thought the years ahead would be smooth.
After I didn't want to enter my sophomore year, my mental state went wrong, and for a long time I couldn't sleep all night, I couldn't find anyone to talk to, and no one to comfort me, so I kept it in my heart.
It was also a long time before I reacted, and I was depressed during that time.
One summer when I came home, I got 2500 yuan a month as a part-time job, bought a ticket to go to the toilet and came back, and I didn't realize when my wallet was stolen.
During the few hours I waited for the bus, I couldn't stop crying, but fortunately I didn't lose my ID card. It was really sad at that time, 2500 yuan was a huge amount of money for me.
Later, I met an uncle who identified it from his accent as a fellow countryman, and now he can't remember his face, only that he was holding a bucket of instant noodles in his hand.
He offered to chat with me, and I slowly calmed down and talked to him.
He said that as long as people are okay, there is no chance to earn back the money. He originally had a son who was about the same age as me, and when he was ten years old, he was diagnosed with leukemia, and he owed a lot of money for medical treatment, and finally the person was gone.
It was also a coincidence that after getting on the bus, the uncle's seat was just opposite me. I was carrying a shoulder bag and a suitcase in my hand, and seeing that I had little strength, my uncle helped me put away my luggage.
I lay on the table, still very sad, listening to the songs in mp3 and slowly falling asleep.
When it was almost time to arrive, the uncle woke me up, put a bucket of instant noodles in front of me, and asked me if I wanted to eat something, so that I would not feel sad when I was full.
I was too embarrassed to refuse, and then he soaked it, saying that he had already eaten it, and it was a waste not to eat it.
I took a few bites and kept throwing up, because my sadness was connected to my stomach, and when I was sad, I was sick to my stomach when I ate.
I have not finished eating at the station, the uncle took the initiative to help me take the suitcase, said, "Then don't eat, let it go."
When I got out of the car and looked back, I could still see the noodles on the small table through the window, and I still remembered that there was still warmth.
Sometimes you feel that life is really difficult, and strangers suddenly care, but it makes you feel that the world is worth staying for a while.
The difficulty of tearing your heart and lungs in front of you may not be worth mentioning in a few years.
Time is always flowing, and no matter how hard it is, it will pass.
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When brushing the circle of friends, I saw that my friend Chen Dali wrote a paragraph:
When others say, "You are not good enough", you can argue with the grievances in your heart, "Hugh wants me to feel that I am useless, I am fine", the will is hard and unshakable like a thousand troops.
When people say, "You're already fine," and you send candy, you can't hold back.
When I was a child, I would not cry every time I was beaten by my parents, and as long as my grandmother said "it is not easy for children" on the side, I would scream and scream.
When you grow up, a person can hold on to anything, and a sudden word of comfort from a stranger instantly makes people cry.
Many times, we are wronged and silent, because we know that crying is useless, no one will help, rather than letting others see jokes, it is better to carry it alone.
Receiving unexpected comfort, I found that there were still people who cared about themselves, even if the other party was only out of politeness, it was still easy to be vulnerable and easy to be moved.
Many times, perhaps because of our personality, we are not used to telling others sad things. It is also good to be alone, there is no one behind you, you can only force yourself to be strong.
However, when others comfort you, you suddenly feel that you are not alone, and the psychological defense line that you insist on in your heart is broken, and the tears burst out like a fountain.
Suddenly someone understands you, you are not alone, do not have to pretend to be strong, the fortress built before collapsed. You are accepted by the outside world, and you begin to slowly accept the understanding of the outside world, and the grievances slowly float to the shore from the hidden bottom.
People are such strange creatures, when alone, although they can feel the pain of tearing their hearts and lungs, they can also hide and keep smiling.
Once you know that there is another person who lets you feel pain in your heart, you will become squeamish, and a little grievance will shed tears.
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Adult life is so difficult, a little comfort is sour.
But when encountering unhappy things, the key is to adjust your emotions first, and then solve the problem.
Whether it's reading a book, watching a movie, playing a game, or brushing up on vibrato, you have to find ways to calm yourself down, because you still have to clean up the mess in front of you.
Will those problems that cannot be solved at present still be the same in a year or a few years?
Of course, you can also choose strenuous exercise, climbing, running, playing ball, and your breathing and pace will become even with your mood. It is understandable to be depressed for a while, and perhaps you can try to accept and face it positively.
When your body is tired, your sweat is dry, and your head is temporarily empty, you can get a good night's sleep. Then I woke up, the sky was bright, everything was business as usual, and life wasn't so bad.
Poetry clouds, mountains and rivers are full of doubts and no way, willows are dark and flowers are bright and another village. Doing something you're good at and sticking to it, some difficulties are not only obstacles in life, but also growth.
When you're overwhelmed by life, don't forget to give yourself a little encouragement. Relying on your own strength and perseverance will eventually harvest your own piece of the world.
The road is still long, don't be disappointed, when you alone survive all the heartache, loss, want, you can personally take it back.
*About the Author: The most comforting writer. He has published "I Prefer Myself Moving Forward in the Wind and Rain", "Dreams Will Not Fail to Live Up to You Who Work Hard", "There is no dream in this world that cannot be placed".
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