Open the computer, an e-mail from the hometown of Ning Jin popped up, and I clicked on it in a hurry, only to find that it was a distant copy of the distant hometown of "Toad".
I remember that it was 1985 in the last century, and my primary school Chinese teacher and class teacher Liu Zhenmin came to me and said: We want to start a toad farmers' literary club, and we must also regularly publish "Toad" magazine.
Although I fell in love with writing when I was in elementary school, I couldn't distinguish between literature and journalism at that time, that is, in the summer of that year, Teacher Liu Zhenmin took a copy of the Xingtai Daily and said to me: You see, you have written news on the newspaper.
I took a closer look at the news about Liu Zhonghai in Dabei Su Village organizing villagers to engage in willow weaving, but in fact, this was written by Teacher Liu, because he loved Wu and Wu, so he signed the name of "Zhang Shengkai" at the back of this news.
"Do you know why you use this kai character?" Because this Kai word means happiness, Sheng Kai, that is, you write better than happiness! Teacher Liu explained to me.
Perhaps, everything in the world is predestined in the dark! Since then, I have not only truly fallen in love with writing, but I have also been determined to never change my life.
In particular, I can be said to be unforgettable for this mimeographed copy of "Toad", I not only published a few poems on it, but also volunteered to run to the county literary federation, find the leader of the literary federation at that time, Teacher Wang Na, after issuing a letter of introduction, and then ran to a friend of the county public security bureau, issued a certificate, and engraved a solemn and angry official seal of the "Toad Peasant Literature Society".
To this day, I can still recite verbatim a small poem called "Smoking" published in "The Toad": Ignite maturity / Ignite contemplation / Inhale into the long years / Spew out the circle of ignorance / I put my age in my fingers / Let the smoke yellow childish...
Because there are poems, I am destined to go far away; when I board the train to the south and sublimate my hometown into my hometown, this copy of "Toad", I don't know how many times I have walked into my dreams...
Teacher Liu Zhenmin hopes that I write more than happiness, so what is happier than happiness? That is the happiness of doubling happiness, because happiness cannot only be expressed in happiness.
I will never forget that one day at noon eighteen years ago, america's red-faced confidante baby pig suddenly called me: "My sweetheart, I am shopping in New York City now, I just bought a copy of the New York Times, and I actually saw your article and your name, I was so excited and happy..."
Oh, yes! Time is too great, just like this, the hometown of the "toad", it became yesterday, became history, sublimated into the hometown and dreams that could not be walked out...
I think that a poem published in this mimeographed magazine can still be recited backwards; and now, no matter which country's newspapers and magazines publish the so-called work, it is also a look of confusion: Is this really written by me?
Perhaps, it is really like the ancients said: the golden nest and the silver nest are not as good as the kennel at home. Just like the great locust tree in front of my old house during the Kangxi Dynasty, all the trees in the north of Tiannanhai are inferior to the status and magnificence of this big locust tree in my heart.
No wonder "Toad" in the "Under the Ancient Locust Tree" column of the essay requirements read: (Great Northern Su) village crossroads there is an old locust tree that even the grandfather can not remember when planted, in its thick shade has acted, said the small drum book, let go of the movie, is the place where the villagers live, this is a lively place, naturally is also the birthplace of the story; in this column, each issue requires a story, or jokes, or crosstalk, or slip-of-the-mouth things... But to make people happy...
Looking back now, is this the "croaking" sound of the toads in the village of Dabei su in my hometown?
No matter what, seeing the hometown's "Toad" again is better than all happiness: doubling happiness is great happiness!