Salvage yourself in 2021

【March 1】

At the beginning of the year, I wanted to write this summary, busy and lazy, and dragged it until the beginning of March. Five days later, I was stunned, when I was a child, I liked winter with wind and snow, and now I like spring.

It's not that I don't like snow anymore, mainly because I get frozen in winter, and at this point, I'm sure it's not my own fault, it's purely because the heating is not reliable.

After two months of shelving, the mood has changed.

As mentioned below the title, the New Year's wish is to bask in the sun, which is actually related to this experience in winter, when it was still cold at the beginning of the year, and it was often sad to live in a hut. The desire to bask in the sun quickly came true over the weekend, the last rented house expired, I moved to a room with a large balcony, the afternoon sun illuminated the house brightly, in the morning I could open my eyes to see the remnants of the southern glow, the disadvantage was that people gritted their teeth and became more expensive, and the new rent was in a state of financial tension these days, but I still felt a long-lost happiness in this fleshy life.

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I recently joined a new field of work, I can go to work leisurely, leave on time, the colleague atmosphere is also very harmonious, I have a lot of new things to learn quickly. But occasionally there is a little bit of uneasiness, taking the time to devote to a small project, compared to the full-time as a journalist, is obviously two different lives, I don't know which option is better, or maybe it is just a mediocre self-disturbance.

Recently, there have been many new news happening around me and in distant worlds, and after this article, I decided to write about it often, if 2021 is the year of salvaging myself. Then 2022 should rely on this rare driftwood to migrate freely.

【March 3rd / A Midway Episode】

Happiness is always impermanent.

This summary was unsurprisingly delayed for another two days. Today is March 3rd, the fourth day of work, I have drunk a little pain in my new job, I am used to living in the front line of the information torrent all day when I am a full-time editor, and now I am afraid to be content with specific matters. I'm faced with a lot of trivial forms and documents, and I have to remember to do some less in-depth creative work in parallel. Now the only thing that can encourage oneself is bravery.

The good thing is that the new partners are very friendly and reliable.

Too lazy, I decided to write a little bit every night and try to finish it by next week.

【March 13】

There are too many project tasks this week, lazy.

【Today is March 16th】Haruka Oh Far Away! How can you be so depraved! Have you forgotten your previous update plans? Zi Yue: "My Three Provinces and My Body" can't go on like this anymore!

[Today is March 20th] I think this summary must be updated today. In the New Year, many people go to write the year-end summary, and my year-end summary has been dragged from January to March, and from the beginning of March to today, it is still not finished. Recently, life has been smooth, resulting in the dull pain of going back to the past few years to appear disease-free and moaning, and I don't know if it is a reconciliation.

If you have something in your mind and don't say it, over time it will form a dammed lake. My original plan was that after writing this article, I could record some new things one after another.

Dear Friends,

The whole of 2021 is the year of the fall.

At one point, I let go of a certain part of myself and tried to be a person who went with the flow. I don't know where to start, so I'll keep a few notes below, you can understand it, and it doesn't matter if you don't look at it. Now I'm sure I've been salvaged, at least floating on the water.

I quit my job at the end of January and left a job that consumed me, but I also really made a great friend as a result. At that time, the newly rented house had not yet expired, and I wanted to stay in Beijing, so I was nostalgic for the cottage I rented, and then I had to say goodbye to it in a hurry.

Another thing happened during that time, I and my original family have always had some separation, but before I heal myself, I have no way to solve it, so the hidden dangers are long-standing.

After returning home from the Spring Festival, I had a few fights with my family, and my dad said: Don't think you can write a few articles and be a writer. He hoped that I would go back to my hometown, take the civil service exam or help him take care of his business.

Here comes a golden sentence: If you want to deny a person, you don't really need to deny him all, just misunderstand what he loves most and depends on for his livelihood.

Then I said I didn't really want to go home at all.

Here is the second golden sentence: the efficiency of people hurting each other is always particularly high, precision strikes, and it is not pleasant to try.

After this fight, I began to vomit, my limbs were cold, and I couldn't move. My mom said you're uncomfortable again, didn't I say it was okay. She said don't worry, your dad is also worried about you. I said it's okay you take a lunch break, I'll lie down. The sun was shining and my body temperature was a little higher, so I got up and went for a walk in the street.

On the first day of work after the Spring Festival, I lied that I was still working normally, but in fact I made an appointment for a psychiatric consultation at the Sixth Hospital of Peking University.

Just as I was sitting on the bus to the hospital, my family did something very unintelligent, made a big fuss, caused a little misunderstanding, and then I was urgently called to the police station. I had thought something big was going to happen that day—maybe I would kill myself on that day, or maybe there would be some kind of major turn in my life. However, the final outcome of this matter is that the misunderstanding is solved, and everyone is happy that my hospital has not gone to succeed.

Whether you understand the above passage or not. I still want to say that in real life, people-to-people relationships are always very resilient, and this conclusion was also what I observed last year.

Speaking back after resignation.

After finishing that job, and then the misunderstanding, I became very tired. After all, the conversation had a lot of effect, and I simply accepted my parents' advice, looking forward to going the way of networking and stuffing me into a better track. An honorable elder promised to recommend me to some great units for internships.

The lesson that has been repeatedly picked up is not to have too good illusions about others. While waiting to be placed, I gave up an offer that I had found on my own that wasn't bad, and then gave up an interview offer that I felt was okay. I said to myself, then lie down and see where I can drift with the current.

So I drifted from February to September, of course, as usual, looking at the recruitment information, seeing more, voting less, and being almost no reply. Occasionally, new news comes from the elders, saying that the one I said before may not be a play, oh, you can try that one. In fact, I thought to myself that it was ultimately slim. In the large sections of the day, I began to try to find the topic I wanted to write, and interviewed some people. Then I started to struggle with how to write a passing work.

Starting in May, I went from the north to Guangxi to learn a driver's license, almost crossing most of China. It doesn't sound very logical, and few people now go to great lengths to go to another city just to learn to drive a car. But the reason was that my dad had some jobs over there, and it just so happened that the cost of taking the driver's license there was more cost-effective, and he could spend the night in their dormitory, and he was particularly keen to hope that everyone around him would live there.

Beihai is a very small city, people who care about social issues will remember that it was once the "capital of pyramid schemes", people who are keen on history will remember that it was the starting port of the "Maritime Silk Road", and the fans of the consumer market will remember that pearls are abundant here.

I came here from April, the original intention is to make a quick decision, as soon as possible to get the driving book, can be at ease to find a job, did not expect to be stuck in the subject three, once the exam can not be, wait another month, and then next month, next month. By the time I actually got my driver's license, it was September. Riding around in an electric car every day, the whole person is dark for a few degrees, and I am used to wearing slippers to run around. Beihai vegetable market is cheap, common dishes a few cents a pound, take 30 yuan into it, carry a lot of fruits and vegetables out, seafood is also cheap.

The only bad thing is that the locals are used to speaking vernacular and sometimes don't understand much. I walked the streets every day, fantasizing about discovering various topics, only to find that even auditing was a difficult one. And it gives people a sense of loneliness in a lonely place, many things can not be done, only words bother me.

As an immigrant city, 80% of beihai's population comes from abroad, and the northeastern restaurants and Sichuan restaurants that can be seen everywhere on the street represent the tastes of those who have lived here for many years.

One day I finally got my driver's license, went downstairs to the convenience store that rents an electric car every day to buy the last water, the boss said you want to go back to Beijing? I said yes yes yes. The boss said congratulations, so when are you coming back? I said wait for the rest.

I don't want to write it, and today's journal is recorded here.

【Continued on March 20】

Last time I remembered that in September, there was one thing I forgot to say, that is, I finally grew my hair for half a year as I wished, put it down about to my shoulders, and tied it casually with a leather band every day.

The volume was because At the beginning of the year, Teacher Tony accidentally permed it, but Teacher Tony did not pay much attention to his work, and burned his hair, resulting in the process of long hair has been fighting with the explosion head.

The above-mentioned long hair died on the eve of returning to Beijing, and was cut out for fear of job searching. Of course, there are also reasons for the ugliness, so ugly that only one photo is left, and I decided to blame Teacher Tony for this crime.

There are many reasons to decide to have long hair. To put it simply, on the one hand, it is an experiment that uses itself as a tool.

Since modern times, Chinese men's long hair has gradually become no longer accepted by mainstream aesthetics, and for ordinary people, only a handful of people who have deviant "art" have long hair to be given rationality.

In contrast, women with long hair are regarded as a common aesthetic, and if women cut their hair short, they will be looked at differently, and even stigmatized by conservative aesthetics.

So I wanted to see how people around me would see this person when I entered my daily life with long hair, what differences people would have in different places, and how long hair as a physical appearance would actually affect specific life. Regarding the long hair experiment, wait until the future is successful again, and then summarize it well.

On the other hand, I wanted to stay long ago.

Three months after returning to Beijing, the salvage period officially entered. There are three main things:

The first thing was that I got a favorite internship for myself by relying on sincerity, so I got to know several mentors and many partners.

The second thing was to re-rent my own cottage and contact many friends.

The third thing is to let yourself relax.

Well, the details are intended for telecom.

I was too lazy, I didn't eat breakfast a little late at noon, I was so hungry that I was dizzy, basking in the sun, and making some food.