—Margaret Duras
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When I first saw the movie "Lover," I didn't know who Margaret Duras was. I just think that the sixteen-year-old girl who crossed the Mekong River by boat, wearing a chic men's hat and looking at the railing alone, is really good-looking, not only to see, it is simply charming! No wonder the chinese young master, who was full of money, fell in love with her at a glance.
Later, I learned that the story in the movie, almost a reproduction of real life, was written by the French female writer Margaret Duras when she was 70 years old, looking back on her youth journey, and it can be said that "Lover" has a strong autobiographical color.
Duras was born in 1914, when Vietnam was a French colony, duras' father came to Vietnam from France to support the religion, and he did not expect to die soon after. Duras's family should have been in good condition, who knew that the mother invested all the family's savings in a piece of land by the sea, but in the end she lost all her money.
Duras's older brother was spoiled by his mother from an early age, fierce in temperament, and liked to gamble and smoke opium; his younger brother, cowardly and cowardly, had to be abused by his elder brother at any time; his mother raised three children on a meager income, and the family was getting worse and worse. People are poor and short-sighted, and the mother has high hopes for her daughter, both overtly and covertly.
A beautiful French girl under the age of 16 lives in a school in Saigon and occasionally travels by boat between home and school on holidays.
It was during a boat trip that a poor French girl met a 32-year-old young master of Chinese descent. As soon as the young master saw her, his gaze froze, and he no longer wanted to take anything off her, which of the young master's heartstrings did this underage Western girl touch?
The young master couldn't help but come over and talk, the girl was always cold, and she had an innate contempt for the yellow race in her heart, just like her family's contempt for them.
But she couldn't help but yearn for his magnanimity, of course, he was rich, the diamond ring on his hand was shining, and she and her family were in desperate need of money.
As a result, everything went very smoothly. At first, he was careful to probe, and she twisted her face not to look at him, but she did not refuse his gentle touch.
He watched her reaction, emboldened and moved more and more intimately. Finally, they had their first time in a big house on the side of the road in the bustling street, and that was almost on her own initiative. Because, she was too young, he was afraid of hurting her, and he fell in love with her at first sight. And she's just for the money. After that, the two began to meet frequently.
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On the surface, they each took what they needed, she received money and all kinds of care from a young master, and he received unprecedented physical and mental pleasure and satisfaction.
They never talked about their feelings, because they both knew that the young master was going to marry a rich lady with the right door according to Chinese etiquette, and she could not marry a yellow-skinned Chinese.
But the young master's gaze at her was so warm and sincere, he touched her with a trembling hand, treated her with all his tenderness, she was his treasure, and what she wanted the young master would be satisfied.
In fact, her family had received a lot of money for her efforts, but they still despised him, feeling that she was insulting to herself and her family with such a young master, because in their eyes, no matter how rich the yellow race was, they were inferior.
So the girl never admitted in front of her family, and even emotionally and fiercely denied it, denying that she had frequent contact with him and had a deep relationship.
When the girl was 18 years old, the young master had to obey his father's orders and return to China to marry his wife. The young master's eyes were tearful, this Western girl had become the love of his heart, leaving her was like ripping off the flesh of his heart.
And the girl, at this time, had not yet thought about how important he really was to her, and she maintained her usual cold attitude of waving goodbye. But the little bit of affection has been in the heart, and on the cruise ship back to France, the girl finally hid in the dim corner, and the tears could not stop.
Although she was always ashamed to admit it, it was indeed her first love, those good times together, never looked back, she felt that the 18-year-old self, has aged, has withered.
"I haven't been in contact with any men in the whole two years since I left him. This mysterious fidelity should be known only to me. ”
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The start of adolescence is not pretty, and it is even a little difficult to talk about. Well, let me bury the memories of the past first!
Since then, life has opened a new page. Duras, who is in his 20s, first studied at the Paris Law School, spending the same age, naturally can not lack romance, emotional breeding naturally, so fall in love, get married, have children. It wasn't long before she fell in love again.
Duras is free-thinking, she yearns for and pursues pure romantic love, she has the courage to take risks, and she has the ability to clean up the mess. Even if the men who make good friends leave her one by one, she can still write as a companion.
Writing has always been her dream. At first, her mother tried to prevent her from writing, hoping that she would learn mathematics well and find a career that would make money in the future. But the love of writing has gone deep into the marrow, how can you give up?
Romance and writing were Duras's lifelong pursuits. Since writing in 1943 at the age of nearly 30, the complexity of emotions is the eternal theme of her works, and after more than 30 years of unremitting efforts, her works have become increasingly rich, and she has also been paid more and more attention.
In his 60s, a die-hard fan appeared. When he was still in college, he kept writing letters to Duras, whether she was right or not, he just expressed them, and the letter was written for several years.
He was 39 years younger than her, but he had a deep affection for her. Finally, one day, she beckoned him to the front, and a shocking love affair was staged magnificently in her later years. She renamed him Jan Andre, the year He was 27 and Duras 66.
He was her assistant, attendant, and pump, and her last lover, and no matter how arrogantly she treated him, he never abandoned him.
The years are long, and the colorful past can be looked back? People are late in their twilight, and they prefer to remember the old times. She often remembered her years in Saigon when she was sixteen or seventeen years old, and the rich young master who cherished her infinitely.
Now, the young master, the mother, the brother, the younger brother, all these people have passed away one after another, so she told This old story that she was ashamed to tell Andrei. Andre recorded them word by word, and this was the "Lover" that followed in great fashion.
In 1984, at the age of 70, Duras won france's most prestigious literary prize, the Goncourt Literary Prize, for Lover. Since then, the work has been translated into more than 40 languages and sold well around the world.
Duras grew old day by day, while the young Andre was unexpectedly inseparable.
In his later years, Duras was sick in bed, and he washed her body and back, fed and washed... The last 16 years of her life were filled with warm sunshine of love because of Andrea's presence. On March 3, 1996, at the age of 82, Duras finally came to the end of his life.
"Jan, goodbye forever, I'm gone. Embrace you. I love you. Please forgive me for everything. These were Duras's last words to Andrey.
A woman, whether she was born extraordinary or bravely lived out extraordinary, Duras used her legendary life to show the world.
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