"If I'm 'asleep,' please don't wake me up."
"I lost everything 3 years ago because I was in a relationship
Including the Little Dome concert in preparation
Some say I'm brave, others say I'm stupid
They all asked me, if I could do it all over again, would I still be willing?
I'd love to say 'I thought I was tired at that time, if I could do it again!'
But love is not like that, if you have the opportunity to love someone well, it is worth it!"
Whenever I see Wang Xinling's words at the concert site, there will always be ripples in my heart, and the little sweet girl who used to wear a student uniform and sing "love is very easy" is now singing "I almost forgot how to love a love".
Every word is full of despair and sadness about love, and the sweet voice is also soaked with some vicissitudes of the world. In the past few years, Wang Xinling's life does not seem to be so good, she is not red, she has been angry.
"Plastic surgery monster", "little three", "domestic violence", "upside-down paste", "tender", "not self-love" and other kinds of black materials fill her daily life, sending a new song, dancing a dance, sharing daily life, obviously such a common behavior, can be blackened by netizens useless.
Many years ago, the "Cheng Xiaoshi" who smiled like a flower and looked like the girl next door experienced the ups and downs of life and finally lived himself into a "joke".
Here is a movie love letter, today let us walk into the "Sweetheart Sect Leader" - Wang Xinling's Paradise Lost.
Part 1
In 1982, the little sweet sister Wang Xinling was born in a poor family in Hsinchu, Taiwan. In the fourth grade of primary school, his parents divorced because of emotional discord, and his father ruthlessly abandoned Wang Xinling's mother and newborn brother.
The mother, who experienced a marriage change, once could not accept the blow of her husband abandoning herself and her children, washed her face with tears all day, and suffered from depression. Often inexplicably mad, punching and kicking Wang Xinling.
Faced with his father's departure, his mother's "unreasonable trouble", and his newborn brother who needed to be cared for, the young Wang Xinling understood that the family could only rely on itself now.
So at the age of five, she often had to take leave to take care of her brother at home to urinate and urinate, and also to take care of her mother who suffered from depression, and the children of poor families had long been in charge, which was more or less a child like Wang Xinling.
Wang Xinling, who is strong in her heart, is still a child who has not yet reached adulthood, and a child can take care of the members of the family, but for making money to support the family, the young woman obviously cannot bear it.
Losing the family's economic pillar, the family's economic situation was only 100 Taiwan dollars, only enough to buy a light meal for himself and his brother to eat, fortunately, later in Wang Xinling's mother and sisters finally could not see it, and took their family to live together in their own home, which temporarily eased the pressure on Wang Xinling's shoulders.
After arriving at her aunt's house, Wang Xinling finally returned to the normal track of life, and she could safely start to go to school, and in the blink of an eye, she reached the juncture of Wang Xinling's high school examination.
Wang Xinling, who inherited his mother's singing talent since childhood, very much likes the feeling of performing on the stage, fantasizing that he is a superstar, in order to realize his dream of becoming a star, Wang Xinling applied for the school known as the cradle of Taiwan's stars at that time - Huagang Art School.
However, at that time, Huagang Art School was a private school, and the tuition fee was very expensive, which was simply unaffordable for Wang Xinling's family situation at that time.
Perhaps out of debt to her daughter and not wanting to leave regrets for her daughter's life, Wang's mother sold the only valuable car in the family and sent Wang Xinling to the school gate of Huagang Art School.
I don't know if after many years, when Wang Xinling was negatively entangled and attacked by public opinion, whether Wang's mother regretted that she had desperately sent her daughter into this strange dye vat.
Part 2
Wang Xinling, who entered Huagang Art School, in addition to studying hard to improve his professional ability, also met his first love at the age of 15 - Ou Dingxing.
Compared with the greasy of Ou Dingxing at that time, what was appropriate was a small fresh meat with red lips and white teeth, which looked good and was an alumnus of Wang Xinling. Near the water tower platform first got the moon, it is no wonder that it will touch Wang Xinling, who was still a young girl at that time.
Lack of father's love since childhood, the mother because of depression to take care of themselves, it can be said that Wang Xinling is like a "wild child", no one has ever told her, what kind of boys should be associated with, what kind of love should be discussed, so that her eyes on men are really difficult to say.
Ou Dingxing is the beginning of her nightmare, in everyone's life, the first love should be a girl's unspeakable careful heart, or bitter, but mostly sweet.
However, Wang Xinling's first love was obviously more bitter than sweet. It lasted only two months and ended, because Ou Dingxing split his legs, and Wang Xinling caught the girl who took someone else back to the room on the spot.
For the first time in her life, the simple-minded little girl tasted betrayal, and seemed to understand the helplessness and disappointment in her mother's heart when her father abandoned her mother.
One is different and two wide, of course, I hope to be happy with each other. After all, people who have loved each other always hope not to disturb and secretly wish him happiness.
Who would have thought that many years after the breakup, Wang Xinling at that time was already a well-known "sweetheart sect leader" in Taiwan, but was exposed by her boyfriend who had been separated for a long time at the time, openly talking about her "first night", and also involving her first love Ou Dingxing.
Obviously, Ou Dingxing let go of his hand first, betraying the feelings between the two, and there should be some guilt in his heart for Wang Xinling.
Human sorrow and joy are not the same, the scumbag is the scumbag, the vicious he in order to increase his exposure, consumption and Wang Xinling's first love, openly discuss Wang Xinling's "first night" with netizens, in her scarred heart spare no effort to find the pain she brought her.
But Ou Dingxing is not the culprit, at best he is an accomplice, and the abuse that really disintegrated Wang Xinling Xingtu and made the "Sweetheart Sect Leader" no longer sweet is the actor Fan Zhiwei.
Part 3
After breaking up with Ou Dingxing, Wang Xinling, although he suffered a lot of setbacks emotionally, gradually improved in his career.
In 2000, Wang Xinling was in the third year of high school, because the image of the sweet neighbor sister was selected by Zhang Zuoji, the idol drama director who came to the school to choose actors, to play the role of "milk" in the TV series "The Car is Chasing", and it was Fan Zhiwei who played the male protagonist at that time.
When he was young, Fan Zhiwei was really amazing. The god resembles a dragon and is known as Liang Chaowei's successor. Even if you look good, your acting skills are still online, and you are really God's darling.
The girl's heart is always poetry. At that time, Wang Xinling was 17 years old and Fan Zhiwei was 19 years old, because "The Car is Chasing", the two young people got acquainted. The young man's pursuit of love is too abstract, as long as he is good to me, he will overcome everything in this world.
Even Ou Dingxing's previous lessons did not teach Wang Xinling how to find a man worthy of trust.
Handsome, and know how to please girls, will secretly pay attention to Wang Xinling's every move, emotional changes, make her happy, and often buy some small gifts for Wang Xinling, it seems to be smoothing the scars brought by Ou Dingxing to Wang Xinling.
In addition, because of the filming, the two spent a lot of time together, and Wang Xinling was a person who especially needed to accompany and get along, and Fan Zhiwei at that time walked into Wang Xinling's heart.
However, due to the fact that both of them were on the rise of their careers, they did not announce their love affair, but secretly talked about a sweet underground love affair. This also laid the groundwork for Fan Zhiwei's leg splitting in the future.
The beginning of the relationship is always sweet and sweet, Fan Zhiwei will always secretly surprise her, spoil her, make her something to eat, let Wang Xinling fall into the beautiful dream that Fan Zhiwei woven for her. However, young people are not mature enough in mind and are easily tempted by the outside world to pursue excitement and freshness.
The flowers at home always have no wildflower fragrance outside, after half a year of sweetness, Fan Zhiwei got tired and began to "steal", Wang Xinling, who had experienced a leg split, obviously could not accept this naked betrayal, so he and Fan Zhiwei proposed to break up.
Although the two broke up, looking back at Fan Zhiwei's bits and pieces of himself at the beginning, he still thought that Fan Zhiwei loved himself, but he did not control his desire for a while. But cheating is something like this that has a first time and there will be a second time, and it will be addictive.
However, at this time, Wang Xinling couldn't think of so much, and he pounced on Fan Zhiwei's heart. After the breakup, Wang Xinling still couldn't let go of Fan Zhiwei and chose to forgive.
When she recalled this relationship many years later, she also bluntly said that she loved him too much, so she still exchanged messages with him and kept in touch, which seemed to be an ambiguous relationship like a couple.
While enjoying Wang Xinling's stalking of himself, Fan Zhiwei did not change his dead nature, and when filming the idol drama "Come to My Home" in 2002, he and xu Ruyun, the heroine of the same drama, had a scandal.
Even if he had already reconciled with Wang Xinling at that time, he still told Xu Ruyun that he was single, and when someone bullied Xu Ruyun, Fan Zhiwei would still stand up for it.
In the face of Fan Zhiwei, who is handsome and considerate, and then single, Xu Ruyun naturally fell and became a little woman in love.
After all, the rumors reached Wang Xinling's ears, Wang Xinling chose to ask Fan Zhiwei to verify the truth of the facts, Fan Zhiwei immediately showed that he and Xu Ruyun were just friends, as long as you said, I believed, because I loved him, so Wang Xinling once again chose to believe without reservation.
After that, although he also broke up with Fan Zhiwei, he finally couldn't resist the love in his heart, and still chose to reconcile with Fan Zhiwei after several breakups.
The naïve Wang Xinling always thought that as long as she was good enough to Fan Zhiwei, he would stay by his side forever. Reality is cruel, and everything you think, you think, will end up going against your ideas.
After three years of honesty, in 2005, when Fan Zhiwei was filming "Detective Story", he and Yang Yazhu, an actress who was only 15 years old in the same crew, had a peach news. Intimate photos of the two traveling and watching movies together.
Fan Zhiwei, who is accustomed to splitting legs, thinks that as long as he coaxes Wang Xinling, no matter what he does, Wang Xinling will eventually forgive himself, because Wang Xinling obviously loves himself more than he loves her, but this time Fan Zhiwei miscalculated.
Together for 6 years, Wang Xinling forgave Fan Zhiwei again and again, but in exchange for betrayal again and again, in the process of division and integration, he had already exhausted his love for Fan Zhiwei.
Not all explanations and apologies will eventually be forgiven.
Fan Zhiwei's dream of weaving for Wang Xinling was finally shattered, the number of qi had been exhausted, no matter how he defended, this time Wang Xinling was tired, if Xu Ruyun was just catching the wind and catching shadows, Yang Yazhu was a person who stole and got it, and Wang Xinling, who could no longer deceive himself, finally let go of his hand, and after experiencing several betrayals, he finally ran away with Fan Zhiwei.
However, the harm that Fan Zhiwei caused to Wang Xinling was far more than that. After 5 years of breaking up, he openly posted a private photo with Wang Xinling on the social platform, pointing out that Wang Xinling's private life was chaotic, and when he was 17 years old, he had no chastity when he was with himself.
He also denied his previous leg splitting, but instead said that Wang Xinling and the coffee shop owner were ambiguous, and at the same time, he split his legs to stand William.
Not only that, he also exposed that he had twice "domestic violence" Wang Xinling. Hearing the closest people of the past say this about himself, Wang Xinling was very sad in his heart and broke down and cried.
Not only that, Fan Zhiwei's move also caused Wang Xinling's career and reputation to suffer a heavy blow at the time.
Justice may be late, but it will never be absent, and the wicked will eventually get the retribution they deserve. Since then, every few years Fan Zhiwei will always come out to connote Wang Xinling, and such a face is not ashamed of the public.
Until he was exposed to pursue the model Ke Jiaqing, locked the other party in the car, and slapped the other party 30 times.
This kind of person who does not know how to respect women, self-righteous, arrogant and arrogant, was eventually completely abandoned by the Taiwanese entertainment industry.
After experiencing two failed relationships in a row, I always thought that Wang Xinling should always learn a lesson, identify men well, and talk about a love that no longer hurt herself, however, Wang Xinling seems to be really cursed in the eyes of men, and can never find someone who is really good to her.
Ou Dingxing is, Fan Zhiwei is, and Yao Yuanhao, who let her fall into the storm of "Little Three", is the same.
Part 4
After breaking up with Fan Zhiwei, Wang Xinling's career went all the way up, released an album, and even beat Jolin Tsai to the top of the charts, starring in many idol dramas and becoming a well-known idol drama in Taiwan.
Of course, I also experienced several loves in this process, perhaps because I was hurt too deeply by Fan Zhiwei, and the scandals with Zhang Dongliang, Li Wei, Luo Zhixiang, Fujioka Indigo, and He Junxiang did not have any splash, which also made it difficult for Wang Xinling to invest in a relationship.
Because she realized that these boys who had been with him always liked to consume themselves to increase their popularity.
It was not until 2012, when Wang Xinling was 30 years old, that a new relationship was revealed.
Intervening in yao Yuanhao and Sui Tang's 8-year relationship, Sui Tang tearfully accused his heart image of being knifed by the art in LingChi, and for a while, Sui Tang pear blossoms with rain looked really pitiful and chuchu, winning the sympathy of everyone.
Among them, Wang Xinling was unlucky, was named "Little Three", and was listed on Taiwan's "annoying artist list", although she did not know that Yao Yuanhao had a girlfriend, and she was also a victim, but the wind direction of public opinion at that time was very unfavorable to Wang Xinling, and Yao Yuanhao never came out to help Wang Xinling clarify in order to preserve his reputation.
So Wang Xinling had to come out on his own to hold a press conference to prove his innocence. Aggrieved, she showed that she had been involved in the feelings of a third party and knew this pain, so she would never be a third party.
In love, she once again licked the wounds by herself, and again and again she couldn't stop crying, and the unhappiness of love eventually spread to her career.
This scandal also set fire to the little dome concert that Wang Xinling painstakingly prepared for the tenth anniversary of her debut, and also made her image of "Sweetheart Sect Leader" plummet.
Subsequently, because the image was really too bad and lost a lot of job opportunities, Wang Xinling gradually faded out of the entertainment circle.
Perhaps out of revenge, she couldn't lose both love and career, at least to hold on firmly, even if she knew it was wrong.
So that later, Wang Xinling knew that Yao Yuanhao was swinging left and right between her and Sui Tang, or he still ignored the choice to be with Yao Yuanhao, and endured Yao Yuanhao's leg-splitting behavior again and again.
Together for 5 years, Yao Yuanhao never got the approval of Wang Xinling's mother, and when he most needed to stand up for Wang Xinling to clarify, he was silent and lost Wang Xinling's favorite dog.
It seems that Yao Yuanhao has never taken on the responsibility of being a man and a boyfriend. Standing behind Wang Xinling forever, he did not defend her even once.
How can this unequal relationship last? On February 22, 2017, Wang Xinling and Yao Yuanhao finally announced their breakup.
Breaking up can't end well, which seems to be a curse on Wang Xinling. Shortly after breaking up with Yao Yuanhao, Wang Xinling was once again exposed to private photos by his predecessor.
It's just that Yao Yuanhao is different from Fan Zhiwei, he doesn't even have the courage to admit his shameful behavior, he is simply a despicable villain who dares to be afraid to admit it.
Unable to bear it, Wang Xinling could only save his reputation through legal channels, and Yao Yuanhao finally relaxed that the photos were taken by himself, but they were not uploaded to the Internet by himself.
The five years with Yao Yuanhao confirmed what Wang Xinling said in the concert, for a love, lost everything, not only his own body was injured, but also lost his career, lost his sweet self, and could no longer sweetly sing "Love You", as carefree as a girl.
Part 5
Today's Wang Xinling, it has been rumored that he and rich businessmen are in love, this time seems to be a normal person, repeatedly photographed the intimate actions of the two, perhaps hurt too deeply, now 39 years old Wang Xinling no longer dares to easily admit love, declaring that they are just friends.
In the past feelings, Wang Xinling was always unable to put himself in the right position, too humble, never a boy stood up and said that Wang Xinling was my girlfriend, nor was he firmly chosen, even if it was not a move to protect her behind him.
Love is not the whole of life, in recent years Wang Xinling seems to be trying to return to the public's vision, out of the album, on the variety show. According to online rumors, she may also participate in "China's New Song" as a student.
This girl who spent a lifetime of hard work and hard work ended up with nothing, and even had to stand on the college seat and compete with teenage children, accepting the judgment and comments of others.
This girl who has spent her whole life without learning to love and has not been truly treasured, has been coaxed into love one after another, treated as a fool, and sang on her own stage:
"Since I decided to fall in love once is a lifetime."
Hope to make the world stand still So that missing is not a luxury
If there is a next time I will love again."
Word by word, she accused the grievances in love, and what she wanted to pursue all her life was just a person who truly loved him and treasured her.
Absent father's love, maternal love, so that she very much want to be loved, unfortunate childhood, precocious childhood, take care of her brother, take care of the mother's childhood, no one has ever taken care of her, she is always forced to understand, forced to grow, forced to accept the inequality in feelings.
Because no one ever taught her how to love and be loved. Even so brave, she is still trying to love others, to be herself, to fall again and again, to be hurt again and again.
She has never lost the strength to move forward and the courage to fight, she can calmly face the changes in her life, bluntly:
"In the 30s, life is really comfortable, more experience, think things are more complete, express more confidently, and know how to enjoy life more."
Finally, I wish Wang Xinling that he will turn the interrogation of suffering into the power of seeking to cross, fight against the evil dragon in the abyss, endure the pain and suffering that should have been experienced in life, and look forward to the next nirvana.
Holding original intention, Toto maeyuki.