I've been hesitant and don't know if I should write to you. This morning, I suddenly remembered the words of Jesus: "Tame like a dove, and be as dexterous as a serpent." "So, I suddenly wanted to write to you. I'm the sister of Revival, do you remember? If only I had forgotten to try to think about it.
Lately, Revival has been bothering you and causing you trouble, and I'm really sorry. (In fact, the revival should still be handled by the revival itself, and I apologized, feeling bored.) Today I am not here for revival, but for my own business. Listen to revival
I said, after the disaster, you moved to your current address, and I would like to think of you visiting the house outside Hangzhou, but my mother has not been in good health recently, and I can't ignore it, I can't go to Hangzhou alone, so I plan to write to you. I have something to discuss with you. What I am going to say, if viewed from the standpoint of women in the past, may be very cunning, dirty, and bad quality crimes. But now that I am in our home, it is difficult to live in this situation. You are the most respected person in the world, so I have to confide in you without concealment, please advise.
I just can't stand the days now. It's not a thing to like or hate, it's to say that if this continues, our family of three will not survive.
Yesterday, I felt a lot of pain, I had a fever, I was out of breath and overwhelmed. After noon, the girl from the neighbor brought rice, and I gave her some clothes as agreed. The two of us sat face to face in the dining room drinking tea, and she was very realistic what she said to
"If you just live by selling things, how long can you last in the future?"
"Half a year to a year." I replied, raising my right hand to half-cover my face, "Too sleepy, can't stand it." ”
"You're so tired, you're always sleepy, maybe you're having a nervous breakdown!"
"Maybe."
I burst into tears, and the words "realism" and "romanticism" poured out of my heart. For me, realism doesn't exist, so can I still live?
The thought of this makes my body tremble. My mother was already half sick, lying down for a while and getting up for a while. As you know, my brother suffers from a serious mental illness, and when he stays here, he always goes to a nearby restaurant that doubles as a hotel and drinks shochu. Every three days, I would take the money from selling my clothes and go to Hangzhou for a business trip. But this was not the most distressing thing, but even more frightening was that I had a sober premonition. Live this kind of day every day
Son, I myself will soon die, just as the banana leaves rot before they have fallen.
I couldn't stand it. Therefore, I want to get rid of the shackles of real life.
So I would like to discuss it with you. I intend to make it clear to my mother and brother recently that I have always loved someone and that in the future, I want to always be a lover to him. You also know this person, whose initials is WY. I used to want to run to WY whenever I was upset, and I thought he was going to die.
Like you, WY has a wife and children, and seems to have a younger, prettier girlfriend than me. Still, I always thought I had no choice but to be there. Although I have never met WY's wife, I have heard that she is very virtuous. When I think of his wife, I get a little scared. But I feel like my life is even more terrible now, and I have to go to WY. I want to be tame like a dove, as flexible as a snake, and I want to fulfill my love. But my mother and brother, and all the world, disapproved of my approach. What do you think? In short, I had no choice but to make my own decisions and act alone. I burst into tears when I think of it. Because this is the first time in my life that I have encountered it. Isn't there anyone who blesses me? Like looking for an answer to a difficult algebraic factorization problem, I always feel that I can find a breakthrough, and then suddenly open up, everything can be solved, so I am immediately cheerful.
But, the key is WY, how would he see me? Thinking of this, I was discouraged again. It is reasonable to say that I am sent to the door, how to say it, the wife who sent the door, this is not good, the mistress who sent the door, in fact, is not this the case? If WY really doesn't want to, then it doesn't matter. So, I beg you, please ask him what he thinks. One day six years ago, I had a glimmer of anticipation in me, although it was neither love nor love, but as time went on, the anticipation became more and more intense, more and more exciting, and I never forgot it. After the storm, I see the rainbow, but the rainbow I hope will soon disappear without a trace, but the rainbow hanging on my heart seems to never disappear. Please, please ask him. What would he think of me? Do you also see me as a rainbow in the sky after the rain? Is it long gone?
If so, I will die, but only by destroying my desires first can I eliminate the rainbow in my heart.
I look forward to your reply.