Today is sleepless night again, the attending doctor of the former husband said that after the operation, yesterday he was hospitalized waiting for surgery, this morning the doctor called to let the past communicate, to the hospital Doctor said that in view of the husband's physical condition is not suitable for surgery, let continue to do chemotherapy. She was full of hope but was hit again, her heart was faintly painful, and she wanted to cry but was afraid that her husband would find out. Friends around me are advising me to give up, don't embarrass yourself, many rich people who are sick have disappeared, why are you still so insistent? Already in debt, why not consider it for yourself in the future? In fact, I don't know why I have to insist, I don't know what I'm sticking to, I just feel like I want to draw an ending to the relationship between our husband and wife for so many years. The doctor said to me that he has lived a long time longer than others, I should be very relieved, the reason I understand, but as soon as I think of him about to end his life, I can't breathe, for nearly three years, the mood has been up and down, hope disappointed, disappointed hope, like a roller coaster, I don't know what I will do at the end of his life, but I now see his appearance and feel a faint pain in my heart, that feeling of despair always stimulates me, I have been thinking that if I can give him some of my life, I must not hesitate to give it to him, always looking forward to the miracle to come, I know that my naïve ideas will not be understood, but it is stubborn hope that there will be a miracle, as a patient's family, I think there will be many people who feel the same, right? That kind of heart-rending pain...
