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If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

author:Mountain source honey

Folk singers, in the hearts of most people, are recorders and realizers of life.

Life is varied, some people are disgusted, some people cherish.

Folk songs are one of the most rustic ways to document this real world.

Maybe you don't have you in the folk story, but you hear your story. Whether it is poetic romance, euphoria, snub sarcasm, filthy darkness.

There is always a sentence, there is always a melody, it can bring you a touch of the heart.

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

Folk songs, this kind of music that grows out of the folk, may carry a rough and bold, eclectic voice, or it may be casually hummed, and the guitar.

But the lyrics are flowing with fine water years, and the hum and tone convey the mockery, indifference and greed for this world.

It is the wine of the late-night sentimental, mellow and strong.

And Ma Wei, this authentic Beijing grandfather, he once raised the banner of folk songs, and once desperately threw off this label, which seemed contradictory and incredible, but it was a process that he really grew up on the road of music.

This young and vigorous, rebellious and manic young singer of literature and art gradually became in touch with this world and became transparent and calm, casual and at ease.

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

It is said that folk songs carry untold stories, and they can bring together people who have stories in their hearts.

And the singer who can sing folk songs, he is a story in himself.

01

Ma Wei's growth trajectory is like many young people, in his own words, I have grown up to nothing but family changes, and there are no major events that I have experienced firsthand.

On the "little me", he came over plainly and without tribulation; on the "big me", he did not witness the big social unrest. In short, everything is flat and stable.

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

I remember that when he and Li Zhi were tearing up on Weibo, they did not shy away from saying that they were die-hard fans of "forcing brothers".

He said Mr. Lee's rough recordings, accent-heavy singing voice and lazy tone poked him in the heart.

He highly recommends Li Zhi's songs, and every time he sees friends and classmates, he will recommend them so much that for a long time, Ma Wei was a "fool" in the mouth of his friends.

And he responded with self-pity: You don't understand!

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

When he was in college, although his living expenses were only 650 yuan a month, he still saved half a year's money to buy a piano.

He did not doubt his choice of Li Zhi, and among the first ten songs of practicing violin was "With You".

Even if he began to perform later, he did not forget to come to the stage with a few songs of "forcing brothers".

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

After graduating from university, Ma Wei attended a class in a state-owned enterprise for three or four years.

The state-owned enterprise is nine to five, and he is doing the same thing for ten thousand years, taking a salary that has not increased for ten thousand years.

A young, restless heart urged him to record a record of his own.

In 14 years, he resigned from the state-owned enterprise, relying on sporadic performances to maintain his life, incidentally ending the record matter, which can also be regarded as a realization of the original dream of "temperament".

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

In 15 years, a song called "Nanshan South" was sung on the stage of "The Voice of China".

Like a stone thrown into the lake, the ripples formed are pushed away in a circle, and the sorrow that cannot be sought in the song hits the hearts of countless people.

This poem-like folk song about his heart was on fire, and the songwriter Ma Wei entered the public eye.

Ma Wei was inches old, a little shy in his heroism, and a little melancholy when he sang.

His name is difficult to recognize, and when he was studying, he did not even know the teacher, and after he knew him, he would get up and answer questions.

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

Almost every capital in his work is a story, and this kind of song is either not heard in a word, or after listening to it, it is unconsciously burst into tears.

A young man who is funny and has a story in his heart, the songs he writes, there is a sense of vicissitudes in his youth.

This is the reason why people who like Ma Wei will like him very much.

02

In 2011, Ma Wei organized a folk music label called "Ma You Ye" in Douban, which originated from the harmonic sound of "Ma You Page".

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

It was also at this time that Ma Wei met Shu Aohan.

Ma Wei once told the story of himself and Shu Aohan: when he first began to write songs, a man who was unknown, had no money, no reputation, no stage, and began his folk career with a guitar on his back.

Hemp oil leaves have just been established, and their popularity is very small, so small that only a few dozen people know about it. The first time they sang in front of everyone, there were only one or two dozen listeners in the audience, and Shu Aohan was among these dozen listeners.

A chance four eyes facing each other, Ma Wei remembered Shu Aohan, that is, this look, Ma Wei decided to take the girl home.

During a performance scene of Shu Aohan in Ma Wei, Ma Wei confessed to her, and the way of confession was very special, using a song called "Ao Han"

If the whole world were to add up to your bad words

I'll just say something to you about the last life

And our story

It starts and ends

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

Love may be experienced by everyone, but it is rare to sing it so movingly.

Loneliness exists for everyone, but there are very few who can turn loneliness into art.

In this life of eagerness, Ma Wei is a "lazy person", writing songs, singing, living casually and happily.

He did not admit that he was a poet, nor did he say that he was a folk singer, in his mind, such and such a name is only the definition given by others, and the music needs to be determined by the heart.

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

Ma Wei often posts his Weibo as a circle of friends, and he can hear his inner voice almost every day.

He seems to regard everyone as his friends, and he can confide in himself at any time, although many of them are about thinking about life, but they also reveal his personal enjoyment.

Abstaining from alcohol and losing weight seems to be his eternal topic, and this is also a struggle between him and life, noisy, divided and combined, and finally slowly reached a compromise.

Someone once gave him a multiple choice question: "Internet, wine, music, which one is the most inseparable?" He replied, "Wine." ”

In his heart, wine has become a partner that is difficult to choose.

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

Now it is difficult for us to tell when Ma Wei was drunk and when he was sober, and what he said in his thirties was half joke and half serious.

And we can't explore his mood, like the ocean, although the sea surface is calm and calm, and the bottom of the sea is undulating, and it can never be guessed.

With the increase of age and the continuous enrichment of experience, Ma Wei has also become more thorough, tearing off the label, living a new life, as if everything is moving in the direction of happiness, and writing songs has gradually become a bridge for him to communicate with himself

03

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

Please forgive the scavenger girl

Clean and beautiful clothes

She came to graze

The Coffin

"Coffin" is one of the earliest songs written by Ma Wei in the Lone Bird album, and it is also one of his favorites.

Because it is the most "self". Boss Ma said: "This is the most similar to me, and it is also written when I think it is the best, and it is a collection of self-contradictions and social contradictions." ”

Ma Wei painted the entire album with a sad background. Above the sorrow, there is the vicissitudes of love. Buried in a fairytale metaphor, the second half of the steep octave rises to the top of the coffin, despair is overwhelmed.

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

One day I will become a bird that no longer covets freedom

Accompany you in your cage as you age

Even if the isolated island has no four seasons

No one mentions your beauty either

I'm still going to fly there

"The Song of the Lone Bird"

Like "Nanshan South", "The Song of the Lone Bird" has long been a widely sung new folk classic.

It seems that "mourning without hurting" can better reflect the neutral beauty of poetry and song. Ma Wei knew better than anyone that love was not the eternal antidote to loneliness, and that isolated islands met again and again and separated again and again, each time stirring up a tsunami of inner rage like an earthquake, and then returning to a temporary peace on the scars and ruins.

Those infuriating pains were integrated into the music by Ma Wei and told.

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

Embrace the ends of the world

They meet when the bustle falls short

Ignite a shattered dream

Look at the crimson eyes scattered in time

Out of reach

When the bustle falls short

"None of Them"

Some people say that folk songs are poor, poor only the soul, a guitar, a north and south, a heartbreak, every lyric is telling a story.

This song "None of Them" slowly flowed into the heart, and the scenes of the past gushed out.

But the story of the past is that the current world is not the same, none is not the same, the laughter is not, it has long been vicissitudes, and things are not human.

"Chen Grain finally let go of Zhu Xing's hand, Ao Han still couldn't seem to marry Ma Wei, after smoking a Lanzhou Song Dongye and his Miss Dong ran their own things, Zhao Lei could no longer find his southern girl, Yi Bai's rose Xiaojie finally became the boss lady, and Yao Thirteen finished singing his northern queen."

If no one looks at me, how happy I should be

His dream was that one day he could support himself with music, and when he suddenly became really supportive of himself one day, he found that the fun of music as a hobby had dropped dramatically. It becomes a profession, and I have to run for it every day and use it to survive.

"What the fire directly brought to me was that my material life became better, and besides, my life did not seem to be as happy as before."

To avoid being bound by what he loves, Ma defines himself as a "semi-professional" music singer-songwriter.

People are sometimes such contradictions, hoping to be seen and afraid of being seen.

Reality and ideals, fame and self, it is not easy to find a balance, so entanglement arises.

Ma Wei especially liked one of Li Zhi's lyrics: If no one looks at me, how happy I should be.

Someone asked Ma Wei: "From the establishment of Hemp Oil Leaf in 2011 to the present, what year is the happiest?" "Ma Wei said it was 2011." You know you have nothing, are you still afraid of losing something? ”

I am a musical character, welcome to pay attention

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