Although I am more than half a hundred years old, I have always thought that I am still young, and in the face of my two sideburns in the mirror, I even comfort myself: How did I become a little whitehead? It's going to get dark, right?
The first thing I felt like I was no longer young was suddenly, one day, that indisputable loose front teeth made me feel a huge pain when I chewed on the ribs, and I had to endure the pain of cutting love and pulling it out.
In fact, there are foreshadows that people are aging step by step. For example, I used to like to eat acidic food, under my influence, my lover and daughter also like to eat, our family vinegar consumption is two to three times the amount of soy sauce, almost any dish to add some vinegar, can be described as no acid unhappy. But as I got older, slowly, I became less enthusiastic about some particularly sour foods. My personal experience is that eating habits change with age.
Later, what happened made me realize that I was really not young.
Once, I was climbing a mountain with a friend of the same age and taking pictures at a scenic spot, when a little boy of about five or six years old ran into our camera, and his mother hurried to him on the side: Come here, let Grandpa take pictures first, and then go over and play later. Call us Grandpa? Is it called us? We still had an illusion. Before, my friend and I didn't think we were old enough, at least not to classify ourselves as grandparents, but in that moment we realized that in the eyes of real young people, we were no longer young.
In the past two years, the unit has recruited many college students, who are of high quality and warm and polite. Usually there is not much work interaction, they are not familiar with each other, sometimes they want to greet me when they meet during work, but they don't know what to call, so they have to nod their heads, which makes people very embarrassed. When I encountered this situation, I had to smile back, but I felt an inexplicable sadness in my heart, once upon a time, young people like them saw me and called me a brother! But now, they don't dare to call brother in a hurry. Hey, unconsciously, my age has caused trouble in the relationship with young people, and I really feel embarrassed.
I always feel that I am still young, but in the end I am no longer young.
It seems that I have to face this reality.
On the road of slowly getting old, I only want to have dreams to accompany me.
My dream is not great at all, it is even somewhat mundane and trivial. I want my parents to be carefree and healthy; I want my wife and daughter to be safe, happy, and happy; I want those who are close to me to do what they want to do, and everything will go well; I want to be able to do what I like to do.
Reading, writing, traveling, climbing is my hobby for many years, but also where the interest lies, read more books, write their favorite words, travel to more places, can always climb mountains, these are my dreams, they make my life full of hope.
I want to have dreams all the time, I want to live in hope all the time.
Ignite dreams with love, and care for dreams with love! Only love can withstand the long years.
With dreams, the heart is always young!
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