When I met Xiaoxue, she was drinking alone in the barbecue restaurant, and she seemed to be talking to herself while drinking, and I wasn't sure that I would have any intersection with her. Because I was also a person that day because the company was working too late, when I passed this barbecue restaurant after work, I ordered some barbecue to pack and go back to eat, the barbecue restaurant was very lively at that time, but only one person at that table sat there drinking, so I saw her for the first time when I came in.
Because of the lack of time, I did not stay too much, and after my food was ready, I hurried out of there. Back to my rental house not far from the grill. Just a few days after this encounter, I actually met Xiaoxue downstairs in the rental house at night, when she was drunk, leaning against the wall and vomiting non-stop, I could see that she had drunk a lot of wine, and even I saw her walking a little hesitantly.
One drinks, one is depressed
I had planned to walk straight away when I passed by, because after all, I didn't know her, but I saw her once in the barbecue restaurant a few days ago. But I think that if she really stayed downstairs on this cold day, it was estimated that everyone might be frozen this night, so I had the courage to go up and asked: What floor do you live on? Or I'll help you up, you'll get sick on a cold day. She confusedly said the number of her rental house.
When I brought her into her rental house, I couldn't help but feel that it was also a small single room in a rental house, my room was almost like a "kennel", and her room was arranged like a "little princess" and was a girlish room. Because we didn't know each other and didn't want to stay in her room for too long, we immediately returned to our rental house after sending her back to the room. After calming down a bit, I was ready to rest early and prepare for tomorrow's work.
It turned out that Xiaoxue and I lived in a rental house on the same building, and when I got ready for work in the morning, I always thought about whether I could meet her in the elevator, but I didn't. It was only occasionally met downstairs when she was late in a few overtime hours, and she was almost drunk and dizzy each time.
Late at night in the city and late at night for her
It wasn't until one weekend morning, when I met her in the elevator, that she asked me if I had time to help her take care of her kitten, and she was going home, that I responded that she still knew me or remembered that I had taken her back downstairs several times.
I said: I haven't had a cat, but if you give me what the cat eats and tell me how to feed it, I should be able to take care of it as much as possible, because sometimes I work late and I am afraid that occasionally there will be some omissions. She smiled and said to me: It's okay, I'm sure you can take care of it.
She said she would go back for about a week or two, but in fact she came back to work again after five days of going back, and I didn't know where she worked at the time, but I just thought she came out late and came home early every day, drunk every day, and wearing the same professional suit. Although some people have guessed whether they work in nightclubs, they are not sure.
It wasn't until the day after she came back from home that she came to ask me if I wanted the cat back, and at noon that day she asked me to go to her rental house for dinner, and began to tell me about her past experiences as she ate. It was like finding someone to talk about the grievances and bitterness over the years, trying to make others understand her.
The company of alcohol and tobacco
She asked me directly: What do you think of girls working in bars? Do you think this profession is so despicable? We all work hard with our own hands to make money, have we done anything wrong? How humiliating is that?
Just came out to work outside, I also went into the factory to work, but arranged me to assemble the computer on the assembly line to play screws, I was too busy to come, the line chief of the workshop ran to scold me, saying that others can do a good job, I can't do well, but before I came to this post, the old staff also told me the speed of this assembly line, this post is not easy to do, often pile products here, I endured for half a year, I really can't do it.
However, to survive outside, you always have to have an income, and you have also sent takeaways, and before you can earn money, you will be deducted by the platform for this fine and that complaint. Later, I was idle outside for more than a month. Later, I heard that a sister from the same village was working here in the bar and contacted her and asked if she could be introduced to the bar to work, and the sister said that the work here was not so easy to do, and told me to be mentally prepared before coming here.
I didn't know much at the time, but I always felt that I had to work faster to make more money, and my parents had to pay the rent at home and wait for my salary to be sent back to live. Soon, under the introduction of my sister in the same village, it did not take long for me to officially join the company, the bar was brightly lit every day, the music swayed, and the emotions accumulated by the long-term work in the city and the negative state accumulated in life were all here with the shaking of the light stage and the stimulation of alcohol and alcohol.
First entry into the bar
And those of us who work in the bar, most of the time is to help bring tea and pour water, but this position here often has a performance award, most of the time is based on the number of help customers to open the wine to calculate the commission, and during this period, often some customers will ask the staff to agree to accompany them to drink a cup or more before agreeing to open the wine, or buy more wine to drink.
In order to get more wages next month, we often agree to drink with customers, of course, some people's ideas are not so simple. I remember that shortly after I came to work in the bar, there was a customer who pretended to be drunk after a few drinks, and then he hugged my waist and did not let go, where I had seen this situation at that time, I was scared and screamed, and kept telling the customer to let go, of course, the person did not let go.
Until I finished the bottle of red wine in my hand, I remember that I left the house crying, but under the light and the music, my crying was more like adding a small note to the cheerful rhythm, no one cared about my feelings, I did not dare to complain to the family, then I just wanted to go away, not here. My sister from the same village saw that I was crying and knew that I was being bullied, so she came over to comfort me: Some bitterness and tiredness are always inevitable in our line of work, and I told you before that you should be mentally prepared, and the more those people see you as a newcomer, the more you bully you, the weaker you are, the more they are excessive.
Since then, I have thought of developing myself in the direction of old employees. I watched as the sisters who had been here for a long time had almost all tattoos on their bodies, and I followed their example and found a tattoo shop that tattooed a tattoo on both my arm and thigh. On the first day of work after the tattoo, the eldest sister smiled and asked me: It seems that you are planning to do it for a long time?
The sky under the tattoo
I don't know much about my eldest sister's words, but since then, every day when I go to work, I will always consciously or unconsciously display my tattoos for customers or colleagues to see, not to mention, after this, I really rarely encounter a situation like the one I encountered when I first joined the company, and the eldest sister said: After you, you are a social person, and you are no longer the weak little girl. I smiled and replied to the eldest sister: People always have to learn to grow up, but when they grow up, they may have more troubles.
Unsurprisingly, troubles did ensue, and after working in the bar for nearly a year, during the New Year, my eldest sister and I were happily returning to our hometown to prepare for the arrival of the New Year, but I didn't know who had said some news, adding fuel to the situation of me and the village sister working in the bar and spreading in the village. That New Year's Day, no matter where I went, it seemed that someone behind me was talking about something in bits and pieces, and I suddenly felt an incomparable pressure.
The big sister of the same village left home early to return to her post, and I did not leave, my parents very seriously called me to them and told me: Outside things, we are not clear, the outside world, we have not seen, but we still hope that you can work outside or live well, to take care of your own health, we know that we can't help you when we go out, we can only rely on yourself.
That New Year," I felt that only my parents were the only people around me who trusted and cared for me. So after leaving home, I decided to find a home as soon as possible, not to let them worry about me anymore, and to give them some of the money they had earned over the years.
In the 4th year of working in the bar, I met my boyfriend, now said that I should call the ex-boyfriend, his family is also rural, but in the hometown of some careers, after getting along for about half a year, we plan to determine the relationship, just before the New Year to get married to do a banquet, the boyfriend's parents said to bring back to meet people, then the boyfriend already knew about my work in the bar, but has not told his parents.
That is, the other day, I was ready to go back to his house with my boyfriend to meet my parents, and only then did I let you take care of my kitten for a while. On the first day and the next day that my boyfriend and I went back, his parents were warm and polite.
On the third day, perhaps on a hot day, I took off my long sleeves and put them on short sleeves, and when my mother saw the tattoos on my hands and legs, the situation took a sharp turn for the worse. The first was to ask my boyfriend over and over again what I did, and after not getting accurate information, I asked his father to knock on the side and ask me, and then I really couldn't stand it and said: I am a waiter working in a bar.
After receiving this information, I obviously felt that their families seemed to have changed their faces, which reminded me of the time when I was in my hometown for the New Year' that year, I was pointed out by my sister in the same village. At this time, the boyfriend picked himself up clean, as if he didn't care about himself, but he knew that I worked in the bar and had been interacting with me when he knew, and now he obeyed the orders of his parents and family like a well-behaved baby. And I, the one who made a mistake, should be looked at coldly by them.
The bustle and small talk in the village
I couldn't stand it anymore, and that night I packed my bags and left the place that made me sad and the person who made me sad, and on the way back, I messaged him: Let's break up. Then delete his contact information clean.
After saying this, Xiaoxue seemed to have not yet come out of this sadness, and I could still see some sadness in her eyes, she held the cat in her hand, and kept brushing the hair, and her eyes were a little sluggish. Looking at the tattoo on her arm, I had something to say, but I didn't know where to start, and I asked her: Do you regret the tattoo? She didn't answer me, but kept touching the cat in her hand.
She suddenly asked me: Do you have a girlfriend? I said: This cat is still quite well-behaved? We all seemed to answer questions, but we both seemed to understand each other, and the next day she continued to go back to work at the bar, and I would often see her downstairs drunk and help her back to her rental house.
One person drinks, one person thinks
In this big city, we are all like lonely watchmen, looking for each other before we meet each other, but we are also a little overwhelmed after meeting. But I think these sad and sad pasts will eventually pass, and what we each strive to find will one day hang like a rainbow after the rainstorm.