Author| Liu Xuemin (Thoughts Fragmented)
Sometimes she asks herself questions and answers, and most of the time, she only asks and does not answer.
God knows how she could have so many questions in her head, one after another, about nature, life, animals, plants, men, women, around, far away, alive, dead, everything.
No one knew how those problems arose, and she herself didn't know.
Some questions are asked, she will think, she will think hard, she will think hard, she must find the answer, and then she can soothe herself, turn the page satisfactorily, and think about the next question.
Some people can't find the answer, they will always be stuck in their hearts, like pieces of rubble, making people uncomfortable.
No one forced her to do so, she herself was willing.
She likes to ask questions, she likes to think about problems, she likes to find solutions to problems, and she likes the whole process, just like a teacher in class.
There are countless questions that she has thought about, but there are very few who can clearly give answers.
Still, she didn't care. Originally, the purpose of asking questions and thinking is not necessarily to find answers. It doesn't matter if you can find it, it's naturally best, you can't find it.
This is how she has felt in recent years.
Many questions, in fact, do not need an answer, thinking itself is the answer.
But whether or not you can find problems is a very important ability.
In life, problems are everywhere. Only a very small number of people can find problems, can realize problems, and can judge the value of problems, and it is not worth thinking about.
Most people are dull about problems. Or maybe they think it's a problem, but what do they have to do with me? Why should I think? What good does thinking about it do me?
Thinking like this, there is no interest in thinking.
Of course, not thinking about it will not bring any substantial harm. On the contrary, many questions are just thought out.
But in general, whether you can find problems and think without thinking about problems, you can still distinguish between people and people.
People who often find and think about problems will be more calm and rational, although their behavior itself may be uncool and irrational.
People who can't find problems, or who don't think about them, are lazy.
For laziness, it is not possible to analyze with simple calm impulses or rational sensibilities.
From a very young age, she began to think about all kinds of strange problems, and she has not yet thought about any achievements that have made a significant contribution to mankind, but she is obsessed with thinking itself.
When people live, they always have to think about something from time to time, and they don't think about anything, what is the difference between them and a tree and a stone?
Even sometimes, she thinks that a tree and a stone should be able to think, but in a way that we can't understand.
For example, the tree may also think, spring is coming, which leaf should be green first? After the wind has passed, which branch will calm down first?
For example, stone also thinks, am I born here, or was it brought here from somewhere by whom? Am I born alone, or do I have other siblings?
When they think about these questions, we can't see it and think they don't think anything.
This is our misunderstanding of them, and it is also our misunderstanding of nature.
Indeed, they may think in vain, they will not have answers, they will not become a wise tree, or a stone of wisdom, and they will still be no different from other trees and stones.
But what's the point?
Thinking about it, they are there motionless every day, and there is more fun, some fun to live.
Without thinking, they are just a tree and a stone, alive but without a soul.
It's the same with people.
Many problems, you have encountered, I have encountered, we have all encountered, but want to and do not want, very different.
Socrates said that an unexamined life is not worth living.
In her opinion, unthinking problems cannot be easily let go.
It doesn't matter if you think about it or not, and it doesn't matter if you can find the answer.
The important thing is that after thinking, you can have your own insight, regardless of the depth, this behavior itself is very philosophical.
It's not just philosophers who can talk about philosophy, she feels that philosophy is life, everywhere.
No matter what kind of eyes the people around her look at her, she didn't care, no matter what they said, she was not sad or happy, not annoyed or angry.
Because she only lives in her own world and does not care what others see. What they saw was their business, not hers.
She is becoming more and more able to distinguish herself from others, and her sense of boundaries in her heart is becoming clearer and less confused.
Sometimes, she feels like she can live well alone and doesn't need relatives or friends. These people claim to care about her and love her, but in fact they don't fully understand her, and they have repeatedly added to her blockages.
But she knew that they needed her, needed her care and affection, needed to rely on her, so she endured, did not abandon them, and allowed them to quiet their years into a miasma and a mess.
Then, she hid alone, calmed down, and slowly cleaned up the mess, so that everything was as she liked, and it was silent.
She was not afraid of any dark wind, but she was afraid of the endless frivolity.
Everything is like innate, can not be completely shaken off, nightmare-like.
So she became more and more silent, more and more silent, like an iceberg, showing only a corner, and the rest, diving into the water, refusing to be seen, refusing to be melted.
She wants to be in her own ocean, floating freely, day and night, and continue to think about some questions that the iceberg has never thought about.
Then, tell it to the dolphins and the moon.
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