I don't know if many people have had such a fantasy, hoping that they will have a terminal illness, the doctor announces your life limit, and then sighs to let you enjoy life.
I have had this fantasy more than once, there are only a few months left to live, then I can do what I want to do without any care and responsibility, such as burglary and robbery, jokes, in fact, I want to say killing people and setting fires and so on.
Because no one can blame a person who has not lived for a few days, because it is a death anyway, and it is about to die, there is nothing to be afraid of. Veronica Decides to Die describes such a scene, and it also takes place in a mental hospital.
"Nothing has changed in her life, once youth is gone, it means that every day will be worse than a day, old age will begin to put its irreversible mark on her, illness comes, friends leave, in short, going on to live will not add anything new, on the contrary, the possibility of enduring pain is greatly increased." 」
This is one of the reasons for Veronica's suicide, the fear of a boring life.
This reminds me of a kind of fear when I was very young, when my parents locked me at home every day at work, I could only play with myself, and after a long time, I would be particularly bored, every day I would complain about why they had to go to work and could not play with me, of course, in order to make money, but at that time I had a silent fear in my heart, very afraid that one day I would have to go to work on time every day, cook three meals on time, sleep on time, and live the same life every day.
The fear of this matter is so real, although it appears less and less as I get older, and when I live this life that I was afraid of now, I still think of the feelings of my childhood from time to time, and then remind myself that I can't go on like this.
In addition to Veronica, who was sentenced to be terminally ill, the story also describes three "normal people" living in a mental hospital, each with a simple but deadly story, and each story can remind me of a kind of phobia (phobia), if Veronica reminded me of the phobia of the monotonous life, then the story of the first female patient can be said to be the fear of fanatical love.
Her story is actually very simple, when she was young, she fell madly in love with someone, but unfortunately there was no result, after being depressed for a while, she started a new life, got married and had children, everything seemed to be on the right track, and suddenly a fuse reminded her of that person and that love story, and then the sky cracked, she tried to find that person, every day at home without going out, and finally saw a doctor, into the hospital.
So I had to feel that fanatical love is a terrible thing, why love a person to the bone, love to the point that you don't know who you are, maybe the faint love is even better.
The second male patient is a young man who is schizophrenic because his pursuits do not meet his parents' expectations.
The description of my parents' expectations of their children reminds me of one of the things I was most afraid of when I was in school, that is, walking with my parents and meeting acquaintances and then being praised for learning well, I don't know why, how much I hate others for pretending not to praise me but to praise my parents, and I also hate the joy that my parents show when they are praised, and I hate myself for having to pretend to be a good student because I have been defined.
While I believe that the love of my parents doesn't change because I'm not successful in my studies, that kind of parent-specific expectation seems to have always scared me.
Once a colleague discussed having a child, I first politely persuaded a married female colleague not to adopt a child, adoption is always calmer than the biological will be more indifferent, because too much love for a person or a thing is a source of unhappiness, you love people or things are not what you like or can not get, what should you do.
The third depicts a female patient who was originally a lawyer and then inexplicably developed phobias, sometimes suddenly unable to move or out of breath. This is actually a very realistic metaphor, now is an era of phobia everywhere, what dense phobia, claustrophobia, chromophobia, it seems that you are not afraid of anything embarrassed to go out to meet people.
But in fact, it is an era when everyone has to fight alone and cannot be afraid of anything, and seeing all kinds of chicken soup texts every day makes people want to be strong inside, and everyone has to be able to encourage others to encourage themselves. Or it is precisely because of this kind of not being afraid of anything, making people more helpless, that you need to find something that is actually not terrible to fear, which is a way to relieve stress.
Finally, I would like to say that the powerful doctor, the so-called psychiatrist who does not want to be a liar, is not a good counselor, if it were not for the doctor to give Veronica a life to die, she would not do what she wanted to do, nor would she let those around her want to leave the mental hospital to pursue a new life.
The doctor believes that a substance in the brain makes people have mental problems, if it is not a rational villain fighting against the psycho villain every day, everyone may go crazy at any time, because everyone has all kinds of melancho that cannot be put down and fears that cannot be overcome, or such and such bizarre thoughts, everyone has a psycho inside, in the final analysis, the way to cure is to look at life and life attitude, when you are so clear that death is imminent, everyone will cherish life.
总之，Live as if you will die tomorrow, dream as if you will live forever.