That day, as she walked to the execution ground, she faintly heard whispers from the crowd.
"Look, this woman is a slut."
She looked at the sun in the sky and remembered the past.
The day she and her teacher first met at Pingkang Fang was also a sunny day.
"Execute this bad woman, execute this slut." There were voices coming from the crowd.
More than a thousand years later, this woman's story is still spreading in the world, along with her talent.
Her name is Yu Xuanji.
01
Magical girl, meet a confidant
Talent changes destiny
In the fourth year of Tang Huichang, in 844 AD, a family surnamed Yu gave birth to a lovely daughter.
The father, who was full of poetry books, named his daughter Youwei.
Some people say that she came from an advocate family, some people say that his father actually became a very big official, and then the family fell.
In fact, at the age of ten, Yu Xuanji lived with his mother in Pingkangfang, Chang'an.
PingkangFang is the "red light district" of Chang'an.
"Kaiyuan Kaibao Testament" contains: Chang'an has a Pingkang Fang, a place where prostitutes live, and there are few heroes in Kyoto, gathered here. ...... When people call it a wind and flow.
In ancient times, prostitutes were the confidants of literati and scholars.
The literati gave the poems they had written to the singers and prostitutes to sing, and soon they spread.
Yu Youwei is a child prodigy with an outstanding talent for poetry and literature, and has been immersed in the deep environment of literature for a long time.
Soon, the name of her prodigy spread to the ears of a great contemporary poet.
One day, this great poet walked through the poor streets and alleys of Pingkang Fang and came to Yu Youwei.
His name is Wen Tingjun.
The shizi of Chang'an, who did not know him.
"Heard you can make poetry"?
Looking at the young girl in front of her, Wen Tingjun was a little unbelieving, was it not a mistake.
But Yu Youwei smiled indifferently: "Let you come up with the question." ”
"Then let's take the title of "Riverside Willow"!"
After thinking about it, Yu Youwei slowly recited a poem:
The green color is even deserted, and the smoke is in the far building.
Shadow shop autumn water surface, flowers fall fishing for people's heads.
Root old Tibetan fish cave, low branch passenger boat.
Xiao Xiao's stormy night, the horror of the dream added to the sorrow.
There is no "willow" word throughout, but the sentences write willow, and they allude to their own life situation, which is sincere and sincere, and attracts people's sympathy.
Wen Tingjun was greatly amazed that at such a young age, he had such talent.
In this Pingkang Workshop, Wei Dun really failed her.
He took Yu Yuwei as an apprentice, taught her to write poetry, and took care of the lives of their mother and daughter.
Thinking of her young age, she was full of cold and warmth in the world, but Wen Tingjun gave her the initial warmth.
Women's love mostly begins with gratitude.
She fell in love with him, and a song "Sending Wen Feiqing on a Winter Night" revealed her heart:
Pondering and searching for poetry under the lamp, I did not sleep for a long night to be afraid of the cold.
The wooden leaves in the courtyard are sad and windy, and the screen windows are dark in the moon.
The evacuation is not idle and the wish is finally fulfilled, and the prosperity and decline are empty to see the original heart.
At the sycamore, the twilight bird chirps around the forest.
If you have missed someone in the middle of the night, you will definitely know the taste of love.
In the face of the student's confession, Wen Tingjun hesitated.
The girl in front of him is at a wonderful age and is talented, while he himself, with an ugly appearance and a slim future, he can't bear it, and he feels unworthy.
He retreated to the position of teacher, and the first love that belonged to Yu Youwei had ended before it had begun.
Yu Xiaowei was not hysterical, not stubborn.
She respected her teacher, the man who gave her the first light of her life.
The more no one loves themselves, the more they have to respect themselves.
02
Mistakenly marrying a negative heart, and chasing love bitterly but not
Indulging in love is indispensable
It has been said that in every human being lives another soul.
In Yu Youwei's weak heart, there lived a man with great pride.
In 858, Yu Xuanwei was 15 years old.
This year, she came to chang'an Xinchangfang's Chongzhen Temple to see the list.
During the Tang Dynasty, both xinke and the first jinshi would post their names high in the south building of the Chongzhen Temple.
Looking at the string of names and the first, Yu Youwei was quite uneven:
Yunfeng is full of spring sunshine, and the silver hook finger of the calendar is born.
Self-hatred covers the verses, and raises his head to envy the middle of the list.
Hate only hates that I am a woman, can not take the imperial examination, can only envy the people on this list.
His talent and arrogance are evident.
This year's list is Li Yi.
The talented woman appreciates the talent, and the teacher Wen Tingjun is happy to see it succeed.
Li Yi won the title at a young age, is talented, has a bright future, and is a good partner.
He introduced Yu Youwei to Li Yi, and the 15-year-old Yu Youwei became Li Yi's concubine.
Tasting love for the first time, Youwei was very happy.
But the happiness lasted only two years, Li Yi had a proper wife at home, and he could not tolerate Yu Youwei.
Li Yi's wife was born in the Pei clan of Hedong and was the "house of the millennium prime minister".
Marrying a rich woman can help the career, and Li Yi knows the stakes.
Competing with a rich woman for a husband, Yu Youwei, who is less than 20 years old, is not a rival.
Li Yi also had to send Yu Xiaowei to Xianyiguan and tell her: Come and pick her up after a while.
Yu Youwei, who has sunk into love, has become a slave to love.
She's no longer" self-hatred Luo covered the verses, raising her head to envy the top of the list. "The boyhood is completely a little daughter mentality.
In the face of Li Yi's irresponsibility, she was left with only thoughts:
If the pine bandit stone alliance is long, it will be later than the wings and flaps.
Although I hate to go alone in winter, I see the full moon at the end of the day.
Don't give anything to give, tears fall a poem.
- "Spring Love Sends Zi An"
Jiangnan Jiangbei is sad, and the acquaintances remember each other in the air.
Mandarin ducks lie warm in Shapu, and partridges fly idly in the orange grove.
- "Sending Zi'an Across the Han River"
Every word is a thought of Li Yi, and Yu Youwei has become a "Wangfu Stone".
She fantasized that Li Yi would return to her side and they could live a happy and happy life again.
But what about Li Yi?
He took his family to Yangzhou to become an official, but not a single letter was left for her.
The man's negativity hurt her.
Later, she met a woman, a woman who was as indulgent in love as she was, and wrote a poem "Gift to the Neighbor":
Shame covers the sleeves, and worries about the spring lazy makeup.
Easy to ask for priceless treasure, rare to have a heart.
Tears lurked on the pillow, and the intestines were cut off between the flowers.
Since he could spy on Song Yu, why should he hate Wang Chang?
After experiencing this entanglement of love, she understands that people cannot despise themselves, and seeking perfection cannot be exchanged for each other's nostalgia, but in self-depreciation, people must maintain their dignity in order to gain the respect of others.
In the "Book of Poetry" 3,000 years ago, there was a woman who had an exclamation:
Yu Yu Nu Xi, no delay with the soldiers!
The delay of the soldiers can be said to be also.
Women are procrastinating, not to be said.
Immersing yourself in love is okay, but indulging in love will definitely hurt.
If you fall in love with a person who does not go home, you should stop the loss in time, otherwise, it is a lifetime of misery.
03
Shelter from salty and salty, from talented women to sluts
Yu Xuanji recognized the true face of love, understood that no one was worthy of nostalgia, and was ready to have fun in time.
She became a monk in Xianyiguan and changed her name to Yu Xuanji.
She no longer longs for the little woman of love, but the fish mystery that takes the initiative.
Yu Xuanji hung a signboard at the entrance of the temple, "Yu Xuanji Poetry Waiting for Teaching".
Countless talents came here to drink tea with Yu Xuanji to discuss poetry and poetry, and on the other hand, Yu Xuanji saw a suitable man and would stay overnight.
Since then, the Taoist Temple has become a place where scholars and sons meet, and it is also a place of indulgence for fish and mysteries.
Yu Xuanji, once again famous in Chang'an, last time, because of talent, this time, but because of yan name.
Jinshi Li Jinren often came to see her and expressed his admiration for her, and Yu Xuanji took the initiative to confess:
Today's happy time to smell magpies, last night under the lights to worship the lantern flowers.
Burning incense to welcome Pan Yue, not envious of the morning glory weaver girl's family.
- "Welcome to Lee's Near-Ren Ren"
Luo Di Shusheng Zuo Mingyang had a beautiful face and quick thinking, and Yu Xuanji was also willing to associate with him.
The loss of care in Li Yi's body, Yu Xuanji found comfort in other men.
The most memorable thing about Yu Xuanji was a musician named Chen Yun, who rarely met such a desirable man.
In 871, Yu Xuanji went to his girlfriend's house to play, and when he was leaving, he told the maid Lu Qiao: After Chen Gongzi came, he would let him come to the next door to find me.
In the evening, Yu Xuanji returned, and Lu Qiao told her: After the guest came, he saw that you were not there, and he turned his head and left.
Yu Xuanji felt that Lu Qiao was lying, and at night, he called Lu Qiao to the bedroom and interrogated him strictly.
Green Warp resolutely refused to admit it, and Yu Xuanji kept whipping her.
Lu Qiao was beaten to the point of not being able to do so, and she said: You are a monk for the way of eternal life, but you can forget the joy of human lust, but instead you suspect me and slander me.
A sentence stimulated Yu Xuanji, she hit it even harder, and after a while, Lu Qiu lost her breath.
The panicked fish mysteriously buried her in the backyard.
But the Skynet was restored, and it was not leaked, and The body of The Green Warp was still found.
According to the tang dynasty law: "Slaves are guilty, and those whose masters kill without a lawsuit shall be a hundred rods; those who kill without guilt shall be punished for one year." ”
In this way, the fish mystery is actually not a death.
Unfortunately, she met Wen Zhang.
At that time, Jingzhao Yin Wenzhang was famous for his strict law enforcement, and some people said that Yu Xuanji had rejected WenZhang.
In the end, Yu Xuanji was sentenced to death for killing Lu Qiao, and she was only 24 years old that year.
Why did she kill Lu Qiao, maybe Yu Xuanji was in her heart at that moment.
He entered the Tao, but he still indulged in lust.
After being let down by a man, she gave up on herself.
From an arrogant and talented woman to a shameful slut.
Maybe in the dead of night, she also asked herself: Is this what she wants?
At no time should you give up on yourself.
Even if you are let down by a man, even if you are hurt by life, once you give up on yourself, one day, you will hate yourself like this.
04
Living noble is better than low-level joy
Years later, when Yu Xuanji was on the execution ground, it came to mind that it must have been wen Tingjun who came to look for her that afternoon.
On that day, the sun was fine and Wen Tingjun was very gentle.
She saw the real sunshine on that day.
At that time, hope rose in her heart: I can also become a good woman, a talented woman, marry a person with one heart, raise an eyebrow, and no longer be separated.
But things were uncertain, and after many years, she had become infamous and became a slut in the human population.
If she can do it again, she will no longer be addicted to love, no longer addicted to men, no longer give up on herself.
Living noble is better than low-level joy.
Unfortunately, she understood too late.
If there is an afterlife, she will certainly not indulge in love and lose herself for a certain man.
If there is an afterlife, no matter what, you will not give up on yourself.
If there is an afterlife, it must live noblely.