I also seem to have "year-end anxiety disorder"

After years of wandering around society, I suddenly discovered a phenomenon.

At the end of each year, the number of anxious people around them will always increase.

Frequently updated WeChat status, switching back and forth between "cracked", "tired" and "emo".

Share chicken soup in the circle of friends, share songs to cheer yourself up at two or three in the morning...

Anxiety leaves its mark on every adult's life, even if their faces look so unfazed.

Some time ago, a good friend complained to me:

"I have recently become their 'trash can', several anxious friends come to me to spit bitter water, I don't know what they are worried about, they are all rich people with stable lives." In the past, I was very patient to help solve the problem, but recently I have understood that my behavior is a barefoot comfort and shoes, but it will make me 'sick'. ”

Listening to his self-deprecating look, I couldn't help but laugh and quipped, "Then your illness may not be light?" ”

"Who says it's not, especially lately, more anxious"

Yeah, I don't know when anxiety became synonymous with our generation.

I still remember when I just graduated, watching my classmates in the same dormitory find jobs one by one, and the resumeS I submitted were like a stone sinking into the sea, and there was no news. Every day, I switch back and forth on several recruitment apps, modify resumes for different job search intentions, pretend to be okay, secretly submit several resumes of telephone customer service, and grab jobs with junior high school students and secondary school students.

How to survive in this super first-tier city, this is my initial anxiety.

Later, in the afternoon after passing a customer service job, I finally found my own professional computer job at a job fair. Although the salary was not high, according to his own situation at that time, he could barely survive.

Just when I thought I could get rid of anxiety, it became more concrete with the salary in hand. After paying the rent and water, paying back the flowers, looking at the double-digit balance, and the next 30 days, even if you deliberately don't think about it, anxiety will come out of the pores of the body.

At that time, there will always be a feeling that the poor do not deserve to have a life.

The place where I am most anxious is in my circle of friends, starting a business as a boss, having a car and a house ready to talk about marriage, a promotion and a salary increase and a share of equity... Watching them step onto the "peak of life" one by one, watching them one after another highlight moments, anxiety stimulated my mental goosebumps over and over again.

The original sin behind all this is that I didn't mix well enough and earned enough.

On those days when I was so anxious that I lost sleep, I started talking to myself. I asked myself what the goal was, what I was going to do, and if there was a staged output to prove that I had reached it. Then push backwards from the results, make a plan, hang in the most conspicuous place and tell yourself that you must do it.

A year later, I jumped to another company, my salary doubled, and I was finally in the same circle as those I thought were excellent, and finally, I could tell my boss to add another brine egg when I ate pig's foot rice.

You will be ecstatic and ecstatic about your success, but it will only be a moment.

After that, ecstasy is again diluted by anxiety.

At the end of half a month on work, I was sent out alone to run a business in the third week.

Although the training was very serious, I also took notes on the operation and background part of the system every day. However, on the first day of running merchant training, you will suddenly forget certain steps, forget the function of a menu, stutter when speaking and cause the other party to hear clearly, or ask for help because of nervousness.

It turns out that the change of jobs and the rise in salary have drawn not a full stop for anxiety, but a dash.

These are better and higher, and they all redefine your anxiety. It is no wonder that some friends joke about "the difficulty of flowing water, the anxiety of iron fighting"

That's when I was thinking, what are we anxious about?

Is it money or dreams? Or is it a life of uncertainty?

There is a up main named Liu Mengna at station b.

She used to work as a salesman for package express delivery, did marketing sales, and did planning.

In the end, she decided to become a video blogger, and the uncertainty of freelancing will be greater than that of part-time work, and anxiety is always accompanied.

But this year she suddenly made a surprising decision: to return the house, leaving only a suitcase of things, and live in the country.

The reason is simple, she is not inspired.

She was trapped in the anxiety of not knowing what video to shoot, and she knew she was going to make a change and jump out.

After living there for more than half a year, she suddenly looked away, and she said a passage that impressed me deeply:

"Once I didn't have anything, and when I saw people driving luxury cars, I would think that I had to live that kind of life, and now I still can't afford it, but I don't envy them anymore. "

Suddenly, I feel that what many people lack is not a way to solve anxiety, but the courage to face anxiety.

Because of the presence of anxiety, let us become better people.

It may be difficult for us to be the person we dream of, and sometimes we may not understand what kind of person we want to be.

However, in the search and arrival of the road, we eventually become better people in anxiety.