Story: Desperately pursuing happiness, she is really wrong

1

I just walked out of the Sanya airport with my son in my arms, the mobile phone rang, I wanted to hang up when I saw a string of numbers, and I looked at it but recognized it as Hu Fengwei's number. I glanced up at my husband Chen Qinghao, who was dragging a suitcase in front of me, and hesitated to pick it up.

Before I could think about it, the phone hung up, I looked at the phone, there was a flurry in my heart, and finally I tucked the phone into my bag, hugged my son tightly, accelerated my pace, and wanted to catch Up with Qinghao.

The phone rang again, no way, I had to shout Qinghao, he stopped, dragged the box and shook it towards me.

I took a few quick steps forward, shoved the child into his arms, quickly took out my mobile phone, and when I saw that it was still Hu Fengwei's number, the uneasiness suddenly captured my heart.

I have been divorced from Hu Fengwei for 13 years, he has never taken the initiative to call me, I shake the answer button, and my heart is tugged together.

"Blue, little warm, little warm jumped off the building."

"What? What do you say, Nuan'er, you don't joke, jump off the building, Hu Fengwei, what do you really want to do? Isn't Xiao Nuan studying in Hubei, what crazy things are you talking about..." I thought he was lying, but his legs were too weak to lift.

The phone that had been tightly clutched fell to the ground, and I wanted to crouch down to pick up the phone, but I fell to the ground.

I was lying on the ground, there was still sound on my phone, I heard an old man howling, I heard it was Grandma Warm.

I looked up and cried and shouted at Qinghao, "Go, go back, I want warmth..."

Qing Hao freed up a hand to pull me, I tried my best to stand up, my eyes were black, I didn't know anything.

2

I hugged the smiling warm child, and in the haze I heard the cry of the child, and the warmth became lighter and lighter in my arms, and I couldn't even see her face clearly.

I wanted to call out to her, but I couldn't make a sound, and when I opened my eyes, I saw a doctor in a white coat, Qinghao's face was gloomy, and his son's little white face was full of tears.

"Qinghao, hurry up and book a ticket for the return trip, let's hurry back and go back to find Nuan'er." I suddenly got up from the bed, and my mind was a mess again, and my body was fluttering.

Qinghao pressed me on the shoulder and said, "Don't panic, let's wait a minute, you can rest for a while, I've already bought a ticket back." ”

As soon as I heard that he had bought the ticket, Fang lay back again, scratching his heart and scratching his liver, and there were constantly flashes of warm children of different ages, big, small, fat, thin, tall, low, and it seemed to be lined up in front of my eyes, and I knew that all of them were warm, but none of them could really see.

I have been divorced by Hu Fengwei for 10 years, and it has been 13 years since I left Nuan'er, and my clearest memory of Nuan'er is that she wore a small pigtail when she was 5 years old, followed behind me, pulled my clothes, snot and tears, and sobbed and choked and shouted to her mother not to leave.

3

When I was 18 years old, my uncle, who was in a key position, placed me in a carpentry factory, and in that year, being able to work and earn money was the dream of every rural person.

I changed from a native chicken to a phoenix, the envy of the villagers made me very useful, I wore the semi-new clothes given by my aunt, I felt that I was permeated with the breath of the city from head to toe, walking with my head held high, always feeling that I could be higher than others.

Because of my good looks, some young people in the factory chased after my ass, very attentive, I have a good feeling for one of them called Li Yongnan, the spirit of the young man is also very good to me, often riding a bicycle to send me to and from work.

Li Yongnan is a college student from the countryside, and his family has long been destitute in order to provide for him to go to college.

After my aunt found out the details, she said that she did not agree with anything, and I did not dare to disobey her meaning.

Because of my work, my aunt has become a great hero of my family.

Although my parents were nominally her eldest brother and sister-in-law, in essence, they had already turned the other way around, and I saw with my own eyes that in order to get me a high school diploma, my aunt pointed at my father's nose and scolded, as if she hated iron and steel, as if she was scolding her own children or grandchildren who were not instruments.

In order to win my aunt's favor, not only did I not say a "no" word, but even insincerely said that I did not have a heart for Li Yongnan at all, and what kind of good my aunt felt, I would find what kind of thing I would find at that time.

My aunt did not renege on her word, and within a few days, she matched me with Hu Fengwei to meet.

My aunt gave me "science popularization" in advance of Hu Fengwei's basic situation: Hu Fengwei himself ran a department store, which was in the most prosperous section of the county, and the business was very good. His parents are both retired workers.

My aunt and brother-in-law brainwashed me over and over again, we must grasp Hu Fengwei's heart, no matter what kind of person he is, the ability of people who can open a store will not be bad, and following him is really flying up the branches to become a phoenix.

I also secretly resolved in my heart that no matter whether Hu Fengwei was blind or deaf, or lacked arms and legs, I would agree.

When I met and saw Hu Fengwei's handsome face, I actually felt extremely unreal, Hu Fengwei was indifferent to me, and his whole body exuded an atmosphere of idleness and disdain.

I did my best to show my reticence, because the matchmaker said that Hu Fengwei liked gentle and quiet girls.

4

In the third month after the blind date, Hu Fengwei and I got married, and the wedding was held in the most expensive hotel in the county town.

At the beginning of the new marriage, Hu Fengwei was obedient to me, and my in-laws were also very kind to me.

Relatives and friends said that I fell into the nest, I deeply believed, admired my aunt's wise decision-making, and privately often went to her to ask for advice on tamers.

However, the good times did not last long.

In the fourth month of my marriage, when I came back from my mother's house pregnant and cleaned up the bed, I found a long chestnut hair, and I have always been proud of my black waterfall hair, which has never been dyed.

I stood by the bed in a daze, not knowing what I should do, and I wanted to take my hair to Hu Fengwei and face him with a gong and drum to let him explain it to me.

But I didn't, and I folded my hair up, clutched it in my hand, and trotted to find my aunt.

When my aunt heard me finish, a trace of surprise flashed in her eyes. But he quickly patted me on the shoulder and told me not to do it with a real knife, just to point at Hu Fengwei to the end, and not to carelessly lose Jingzhou.

I also said that feelings are important, there is money that can make the ghost push and grind, this hair I pinched is to control Hu Fengwei's life, if you do Zhang Chi has a degree, you can do whatever you want in the future.

My aunt's words made me suddenly enlightened. On the way back, I carefully pinched the hair, as if pinching the second half of my glorious life.

When Hu Fengwei returned, I brought my hair to his eyes and shook it, and he didn't even have the slightest bit of panic, only saying that he had to find someone to vent his fire because I was pregnant and anxious, and that was really not his intention.

I saw that he was sincere, so I didn't hold on to it, but from then on, as long as I couldn't see him, I would wonder if he was going to go with other women again.

Over and over again, this thing is like a thorn, it has been stabbed in my heart, because it has not been relieved for a long time, it has accumulated more and more thickly, and it has accumulated a big sore, and it has grown wildly in places where others can't see it.

5

When I was just over the age of 21, I gave birth to my daughter Xiao Nuan, who was born with a pink carving, and her skin that could be broken by blowing bombs was tender and soft, and I loved it in my hand.

Since the moment the mother-in-law saw her daughter, her face was as cold as three or nine frozen ice, and she did not move at the window.

After Hu Fengwei returned, he looked at his daughter and hugged his mother-in-law out of the ward, and I vaguely heard the two arguing in the corridor. I don't have to listen to the reason for the quarrel, the reason why Hu Fengwei married me is that his mother listened to the blind man in the west of the city saying that I can Wangfu Wangzi Wangsun.

After returning from the hospital, Hu Fengwei began to blatantly not return at night, and his mother-in-law often did not see anyone, and the meal was not done in time. Throughout the month, only my daughter's cry accompanied me. The sores in my heart seemed to have been punctured, and the pus and blood were flooded, and everywhere I went, it was painful.

After the maternity leave, I hired a babysitter for my daughter and dressed myself up to work.

A few days after work, I was with Li Yongnan.

I spent Hu Fengwei's money and enjoyed Li Yongnan's sincerity, and it seemed that only in this seemingly complex interweaving could I feel the pleasure of revenge.

In a deformed balance, I was panicked, anxious, crazy and paranoid.

When he was happy, he held her in the palm of his hand, and when he was unhappy, he scolded her either, and after the scolding, he looked at her with tears and pity, and he was in pain.

Over time, at a young age, she learned to look at her face, and many times, I found that she was hanging her hairy head, standing a meter away and secretly looking at me, and there was hesitation and longing in her big sparkling eyes.

6

Carefully, it was finally spread out in broad daylight.

When Hu Fengwei blocked me in Li Yongnan's rental house, I actually had a sense of relief and joy, and the shame I tore apart in order to retaliate seemed to be slowly recovering.

Hu Fengwei wanted a divorce, I promised, he wanted Xiao Nuan's custody, I also agreed. It's not that I want to be relaxed and don't want to raise Xiao Nuan, but I grew up from poor days, and instinctively hope that Xiao Nuan can grow up under rich conditions.

Because the cause of divorce is disgraceful, no one is too entangled,

I was bent on burying my disgraceful past, and I didn't want to theorize about property, I just wanted to marry Li Yongnan cleanly.

After my aunt knew, she scolded me in the open and in the dark, and even pointed her finger at my forehead, saying that I was stupid and mean.

I was indifferent and wanted to work hard for my love once.

However, reality hit me hard in the face, Li Yongnan was married when I divorced, the bride was not me, it was a rustic rural girl, I cried and asked Li Yongnan why, he smiled at me for a long time, and said word by word: Pure.

I was powerless to refute it, and at this moment I understood that Li Yongnan did not love me, he just wanted to sleep with someone else's wife in vain.

I walked into a dead end, in a dilemma, I called and asked Hu Fengwei to let Xiao Nuan live with me for a while, and Hu Fengwei agreed.

After a few months of not seeing, Xiao Nuan is more lonely, I am very sad for her, every day after picking her up from the kindergarten, I will take her to the playground, children's paradise, take her to participate in various parent-child activities, and gradually, the smile on the child's face is more and more.

At that time, I also thought that I would live quietly with Warm Er all my life, but life did not want to give me that opportunity, the layoffs of the wood factory were, and I was dismissed.

7

I sent Nuan Er back with a gray face, trying to find a job to alleviate the economic pressure, those hotel waiters, supermarket cashiers and other work I do not want to do, too cheap, other work I can not do.

I could only go to my aunt in vain, and it was rare that my aunt was not bored, but on the contrary, she was very happy about my arrival. It turned out that the wife of my brother-in-law's boss was dead, and my aunt wanted me to fill the pit.

I didn't refuse, Chen Qinghao was 15 years older than I was, older than I thought, and the top of his bald head was only a shiny fleshy red scalp. But I felt that it didn't matter, I desperately needed a strong marriage to help me be born again.

He was very satisfied with me, but when he was parting, he vaguely said that he would not marry first, because he would marry another wife because his wife was newly lost, which did not affect him well.

Having experienced the ruthless abandonment of two men, I appreciated his ability to act in a sympathetic manner and pretend to love his wife: a person who cares for his face is good at cherishing his face.

Two years later, I successfully married Chen Qinghao, and Hu Fengwei's family was very disgusted with me for remarrying a celebrity in the city. At first, I fought back very strongly, bent on taking matters into court, but Li Qinghao firmly opposed it: one is not necessarily going to win, and the other is undignified.

My aunt also repeatedly explained to me, small intolerable is chaotic big plot, although I am not sure what the big plot is, but I also feel that coming to Japan is long.

8

When I walked into Hu Fengwei's house again after a gap of 13 years, I knew that the coming day was really not long.

I was dragged in by Chen Qinghao, and since I knew that Xiao Nuan had an accident, I had not dripped water.

When I saw the crystal coffin in the living room of Hu Fengwei's house, the fantasy of just jumping off the building collapsed, and my warm child went to her.

I broke free of Chen Qinghao and threw myself on the crystal coffin.

Warm, I spent the same warm child dressed in white clothes lying peacefully. I scrambled to find the switch, I wanted to hug my warmth, but I couldn't open it.

Hu Fengwei came over, and I knelt on the ground and begged him incoherently to let me hug Nuan'er. His tears slid down in long strings, and he beckoned the people to open the crystal coffin.

I hugged Nuan Er tightly and pressed her body against my chest, Hu Fengwei held Nuan Er's hand in his left hand, and slapped his face with his right hand: Nuan Er, all blame me, all blame me, Daddy should not scold you...

I couldn't listen anymore, I wanted to go with Nuan Er. I hugged Nuan Er and pointed my temple at the corner of the table and slammed it down: Nuan Er, wait for Mom, Mom and you go together.

I didn't leave with Nuan Er, and after spending half a day in the rescue room, I came back to life.

I brought Nuan Er to the human world, and then sent Nuan Er to hades, how could God not let me go for her!

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