Things I learned in 2021

◎ Yan Han

Everything pays off, just sometimes in ways you don't expect

I met a friend I hadn't seen for a long time, listened to her talk about all kinds of strange experiences, was dazzled, and asked me: How are you over there?

I don't think there's much to say. Ah, it is indeed an ordinary person.

Looking back on this year, it is really ordinary and ordinary. Due to the epidemic, the farthest place I have ever been to is Miyun, then two points and one line, the second far away is to go to Haidian for classes, and to go to Xicheng to teach others.

When my friend said that she came out of the company at 11 o'clock every day and did not have a weekend all day (of course, the income was higher), I felt that my tiredness was not worth saying, it was nothing more than no time to take annual leave, and to bring work back to do on weekends.

But I was still physically and mentally tired. Watching the TV series "Langya List", Mei Changsu was in the palace and the emperor were talking and talking, and his spirit was vibrant, and as soon as he left the palace door, his face was pale, he could not stand steadily, and he needed to be supported. I suddenly realized: I often do this, work and social always have to work hard to support, as soon as I go home, I feel that there is no electricity, and I don't want to move.

I tweeted about this feeling, and then an enthusiastic reader commented: You must be depressed. Scared me to delete it quickly.

But at the end of the year, looking back (desperately), I feel that there is still a lot of warmth and harvest. The difficult and difficult period has passed, many friends have given me care and help, and I myself have supported it very well, and I have a feeling of passing the "Squid Game".

Lowering expectations and facing it positively is what I learned in 2021.

1. Find yourself an expectation.

A friend once said that if life has no expectations, find one for yourself.

What I found for myself was to learn a new language and teach myself from scratch. No one asks, no real needs, no one is together, no exams, and it is not helpful for life and work. I was going to do something useless, just to divert my attention.

I chose Japanese, and I never had any trouble learning anything before, but this time I wanted to try it. When I take the subway in the morning, I have fifty notes in my head.

For example, if you look at the Tokyo Olympics, you will find that the order of appearance of athletes from various countries is a fifty-tone chart.

I figured out a lot of cold knowledge. All knowledge will come together in an unexpected way.

For example, in "The Great Cause of Party Building", after the conclusion of a major conference, Li Da in the film proposed to recite a passage of the Communist Manifesto: "Proletarians of the world, unite!" "This belongs to crossing. Because at that time, Chen Wangdao's translation of the Version of the Communist Manifesto was actually "The workers of all nations are united!" "From the Japanese version.

Re-watching the comedy "Underground Traffic Station", I found that the "devil" and the white translation of Japanese can be understood, the lines are relatively simple, and the look and feel is different from when I didn't understand it before.

2. Everything will be rewarding, just sometimes in ways you don't expect.

In 2021, I watched the TV series "The Age of Awakening", had a lot of inspiration and thinking, wrote "Learning to Write with the Age of Awakening", published in "Youth Digest", "Looking for Chen Yannian" was published in "Shenzhen Special Economic Zone News", and later reprinted by "Reader".

There were also private messages from readers saying that "In Search of Chen Yannian" was published in their mid-term language test reading comprehension questions and enthusiastically sent to me. This article will have such an encounter, which I did not expect.

Another harvest is that because I opened a reading and writing elective course for a middle school in Beijing, I have been accumulating and thinking about teaching others to write, and I have also read a lot of books, and I will unconsciously think every day: I can tell students about this content, and the skills used here are very interesting...

I want to open a door for students, and to teach others, but also to open a door for myself, to observe and experience with different eyes.

In 2021, I was also interested in international politics and world history for a while, read several books, and also found "One Hundred Years of Solitude" to read again, with "The Cut Blood Vessels of Latin America".

Interest in reading was blistering and soon shifted elsewhere. I cherish my curiosity and three minutes of heat, it is good to take the opportunity to gain a little new knowledge, as for how far I can go, what use it will be in the future, I will not think about it for the time being.

Writing, which is actually thinking and expressing, is a part of my life for me and does not require much additional willpower. Or rather, it keeps me balanced.

At the end of the year, everyone is summarizing and looking back, some people are Versailles, some people are understated, reminding me of Mr. Lu Xun's remark about studying medicine in Sendai, "Nothing more than falling behind", covering up the hard work behind it. Behind such a sentence is very difficult.

Pan Xiangli said that people are always easy to envy others, because it is always easy to see the benefits, scenery, and cheapness of others, while they only see difficulties, sufferings, and grievances for themselves. Where in the world are there easy people? The hardships are unknown and there is no need to complain, after all, they can still hide and hide, which is enough to have a good time.