With him for only one year, the shortcomings of both sides were exposed: quarrels and wars. Finally tired of such a day, he made up his mind, packed up his simple luggage, and went to his girlfriend to borrow it. He lowered his posture to leave me, and I broke free and stubbornly and desperately left.
He called and asked me to go back, and I said let it go, we're still friends. He said, what is it like to live without you? Like saying a line, I laughed, but he still couldn't change the nonsense. After that, he stopped answering his phone calls, and he actually sent a text message, you come back to see me, otherwise you will regret it.
Hurriedly threw away the work in hand, jumped into the taxi, and rushed home in a desperate hurry. Thought he wouldn't be able to think about it, thought a lot along the way, and if he begged me to stay, I would consider it.
Breathlessly pushing open the door, he sat at the table to eat, it was he who liked to eat stir-fried bitter melon, boiled fish, curd milk, on the table he had just bought from the supermarket fresh milk, oat bread, fruit, sunlight through the white window screen, sprinkled in fine pieces, the window was clean, orderly, everything was fine.
How can a person who is trapped by his feelings and even coerces me by taking extreme measures live such a moist life? It wasn't at all what he said, and it made me regret it. I sneered and decided to go.
After he called, I said break up! Start over and we'll all have a life of our own. He said firmly no, I would not live without you.
I sneered, remembering that he said the same thing last time, but wasn't he still alive and colorful? Men's words sometimes can't be taken seriously.
By the time he got a call from a friend, he was already in the hospital. Drunk, then riding a motorcycle, something went wrong and limped one leg. I saw him in the hospital, bleeding, haggard, melancholy, his heart was grabbed, faintly painful, and suddenly he lost control and burst into tears like a child. I didn't know it, I obviously couldn't let go of him in my heart, but why did I say such a resolute word?
He didn't refuse me to take care of him until he was discharged from the hospital.
On the day of discharge, the sun was shining brightly all over the earth, and everything was still the same as usual, but I knew that everything was different. He said, let's break up! I said no, tears raining down. He stroked my hair and laughed. "I have nothing but love, love without anything is very empty, not worthy of love, I can't take care of you anymore, so let's break up!" 」
Because I insisted on not breaking up, he said goodbye and went to the South. I lost him completely, he was like a flower, withered and melted into the dirt, he turned away decisively, blended into the crowd, I could never find him again.
In the long years of life, few people can clearly and rationally know what they want, and those who were once very longing and longing for it are wrong again and again in retrospect; And some of them hold in their hands, look ordinary, but do not know that it is the most precious thing in life; What is so easily discarded is precisely what is indispensable in our lives. Some people, once missed, have nowhere to find, and some love, once lost, will no longer be found.
And understanding such a simple truth, to lose some people, to lose some love, is the price too big?
Li Bihua said that some feelings are nails, cut off and will be reborn, insignificant; And some feelings are teeth, and there will always be a painful wound after losing it that cannot be repaired.
I lost him, I lost my teeth, I lost the ability to chew love.