Midsummer Future

The time occurred in the first semester of the first year, and I transferred to my alma mater for my own reasons. Because he had no transfer experience, he was half a day late to report to his alma mater.

It was the afternoon of school, the weather was clear, and when I arrived at my alma mater, I met him on the steps diagonally opposite a rice noodle shop outside the school gate, looking up at each other, and he was riding on a motorcycle under the pomegranate tree, and we were two meters away.

I don't know how long I looked at it, but I felt familiar in the dark, and I looked at it every step forward, until I passed by him and didn't forget to look back. I also wanted to go forward and ask him where he came from, what name he called, and finally lost to his own shyness, so he had to stop talking.

When I checked in, I saw him again in the classroom, and I was secretly wondering: Maybe we are in the same class. Soon he disappeared from my sight, and I began to doubt my own speculations.

On the way home, I told my cousin what I had seen, and she told me that I was not talking about Li Xu. I thought to myself, is it Li Xu from the sixth grade class? That rumored little Li Xu?

In sixth grade, I was in the second class, and he was in the first class. At this time, I was no longer a good student, and I was in addition to quarrels and fights with boys, and I never talked to girls, and I was alone. Grades plummeted, and the sentence was really printed: it is easy for a person to become bad, and it is difficult to become good. A person's deterioration can be instantaneous, and it takes a lot of time to get better.

One day when I came back to the classroom after lunch, the next class was in a state of agitation and chaos. There were many people outside the classroom, there were six girls standing on the faucet pool, three were from our class, the rest of them had heard their names, at first they only saw Wu Shuang, Zhou Yangman put his hand on Yang Shuang's shoulder, patted her, muttered something in his mouth, looked confused, and then looked at Yang Shuang was already a sad look. Then there was Zhu Guangjuan, Chen Juanjuan, and Duan Jingnuo in our class, and they first repeated it, and then the three of them surrounded her and made her happy. I wondered what could make a girl look like this, and at the same time envied that she had so many people who cared about her, but she didn't seem to care, she only cared about the boys in the crowd, no one could comfort her, and her eyes stayed on him. It's like an advertising slogan: it feels like the body is hollowed out.

I am not a gossipy person, but I am a little distressed to see Yang Shuang. In one way we are very similar, that is, sad looks. From this to the other, I want to go up and comfort her, to let her know that there are many people like her in this world, but her misery can be spoken, her emotions can be expressed, I can't even say it, in a way, she is actually much happier.

I feel sorry for her, in fact, I am also hurting myself, because of the similarity, so we know each other. Because I was already like this, I didn't want to see this scene. I wonder what kind of boy that is, what kind of a girl can be heartbroken, what did he do to her? Why did she cut off his intestines alone?

Only to see the noise in the crowd, their mouths are full of chatter, I vaguely heard a word and a half, pieced together I learned that the boy she had been watching was named Li Xu. On this day, Li Xu smashed the window glass with a fist in his left hand, and his hand was unexpectedly injured, and the glass stabbed into it, and the blood flowed. The glass shattered, her heart also broke, she heard the news and ran up from downstairs in a hurry, almost fell, and anxiously raised money to buy him medicine and gauze, ran to bandage him in pain, shaking his hands while shedding tears, he was unmoved, refused her help.

She was a stubborn person, and so was he, she liked him, he didn't like her, and her stubbornness eventually lost to liking him. She was sad and sad to drink wine, and when she heard that wine could relieve her sorrows, she did not know that she was even more sad to use wine to dispel her sorrows. That's why I saw her blushing, her eyes red, her eyes tearful as she stood on the pool.

I was not interested in these love affairs, and I was disgusted with men. I was sad that she was sad and broken, and at the same time Angry that she didn't show up, for a boy to die or live. I can't help but wonder, what kind of charm does he have that makes her so and so? This is the first time I know his name, I have not been impressed when I have seen it, but my memory is too good, so I will not forget it when I have seen it. I always thought that if I met this man, I would never be attracted to him, and I wanted him to come for me and let him taste the taste of sadness and brokenness.

The first semester of junior high school began, I met him on the first day of school, and I was assigned by the class teacher to sit at a table in front of him to the right. Probably out of curiosity about his new classmates, he always stared at me, (don't ask me why I know, because I am also curious, curious that he is really the rumored Li Xu?) Curious about what kind of person he is, I will also look at him, but I disguise it better, I rarely look at it, but sometimes I look at it) Look at it, and also use his hands to support his head and stare at me blatantly, and smirk, which is really uncomfortable.

Because I was in the same class as my cousin, my cousin used to be a classmate of him, so I was more certain that he was that Li Xu. It was really fate, I didn't expect that the two of us could actually be in the same class, even if the same class, the seat position was so close, I was actually attracted to him. Damn it! But I didn't lose, he liked me, he also confessed, also sent me things, protected me, it was really strange! Just think about it! Hahahahaha!

Maybe I was impressed by his previous deeds, but my impression of him was not very good, and I, who had originally rejected boys, avoided him even more. He seems to see it, he ah, all day in front of me a hanging lang dang, debauched, playboy appearance, not to tease this woman, or to tease that woman, the key is that the woman he teases seems to be quite enjoyable, every time he laughs hehe, and he flirts with him, and even the woman automatically sends the door to make him funny. I really can't understand what good he has, these women have not seen a man is it, big speechless! Probably he also felt bored, it was all this kind of goods, and soon targeted me again, eating lollipops in his mouth, staring at me with his eyebrows raised and shaking his feet, smiling and smiling. As for me, I just didn't see it and ignored it, or wrapped myself up, thinking in my heart that he couldn't see me. I don't want to be his prey, I don't want to play with him, to be the target of everyone, after all, he has so many peach blossoms.

When I thought he would soon be out of interest, he still stared at me when he turned his head, well, whatever you want, I'm not embarrassed is you're embarrassed! He seemed to know that I didn't want to have anything to do with him, so he teased the women in our class, or even other classes, just not to tease me. I thought that would be great, just what I wanted! It's just that although he doesn't tease me, he still stares at me, and this is the first time I've seen him as a woman since I met him.

I always have the illusion that he won't like me, but I think it's impossible, if he likes me, why doesn't he ever confess. If he liked me, he wouldn't be ambiguous with other women. Maybe it's just curious, because I've never seen such a thing!

Once recess exercises disturbed my thoughts, and here's the thing, after the recess exercises I quickly returned to the classroom and saw a beautiful bracelet on the table, and the bracelet was a red thread, and there were three white kittens that looked like ceramics on the red line, and the kitten had the inscription on it - Virgo. I thought he came in, and he asked me with a serious face, "Do you like it?" "I've always liked jewelry, it hasn't changed, and naturally I like it, but I thought he shouldn't have said it to me, because we had no precedent for saying anything." He said again: "Don't think about it, I'm asking you, do you like it?" It seemed a little impolite not to speak, and although I didn't want to have anything to do with him, I replied, "Is this yours?" He nodded slightly and said, "Well, of course it's mine!" Send it to you if you like it! "I was stunned, is this still the Li Xu I know?" Talking so softly, is he talking to me? Why did he send me? I was stunned for a moment and quickly slipped back into my seat while lowering my head and stuttering back to him and saying, "Thank you! ... No, that's your thing! He continued, "Then I don't want it if you don't like it!" "I couldn't calm down for a long time when I returned to my seat, but this was the first time I had spoken to a boy and the first time I had spoken to him. I think it's a pity to throw away so good-looking, I don't wear it very well, and why do you want to force me to choose, you don't want it, you can't scare me! I won't be soft-hearted, and why do you want to say those words to me, why do you want to send me, and ask me if I like it, it's really annoying! What the hell are you going to do? I am not a casual girl, this trick wants to deceive me, not so easy, you must not be more than this to me, after all, changing girlfriends is the same as changing clothes, such a sincere dare not ask for luxury!

Then again, he didn't seem to be that bad, and even if it was bad, it wasn't bad on my head. Why am I so hostile to him, just because I know that deed, because he changes his girlfriend diligently, because he doesn't learn no skills? This seems a little irrational, and a person is a good or bad person who can be clearly described. What's more, I don't care about how he treats others, he is really good to me, I should also get to know him well, I should not forget the good because of the bad, nor should I forget the bad because of the good, not to mention that he has never been bad to me. Think about it, although I reject the opposite sex, I should not stifle kindness, I am a grateful person, and I should not be indifferent because of gender differences. So Li Xu, let's get to know each other well!

It's funny to think about it, and although you haven't spoken much, we have an inexplicable tacit understanding. You don't listen well in class, either cutting your nails or playing with your fingers, I wonder if this is all a girl's thing? You're a little special, and you've managed to pique my interest, and I'm wondering what's on your hands? What's the fun? In addition, you often eat snacks in class, the most is sugar, and always throw me one, and jokingly say: "Rest assured, there is no poison!" "Gentlemen are not fed by the food that comes, and naturally I will not want it, let alone that you are a boy." But the strange thing is that I actually took it, it's really damn! You can't accept other people's things for no reason, so I bought candy and threw one at you in class. Every time we came to this kind of link, we didn't speak, we looked at each other, one dared to throw, one dared to pick up. This seems to have become a habit, in the future you will give me as long as you have sugar, I have sugar and always throw it to you, every time I want to throw sugar to you, you seem to be prepared in advance, but sometimes throw it inaccurately, you did not receive it, I always want to throw you another one, that one is even, you, ah, stunned to find and pick up, for this reason there are several times almost seen by the teacher. You always find love to smile at me and nod, and raise your eyebrows. This is a treatment that others can't enjoy, I think this is also very good, only know each other, do not speak, not close, but there is tacit understanding.

Some people, on the surface, have gone two kilometers in their emotions. It's me, it's not a flattering personality, but there are a lot of inner dramas. Do you remember? One day Pengman came to our class and was standing at the door of the classroom shouting for me to get out, and I knew it was coming before the storm. I had expected that there would be today, but I didn't know that it was this form, I was dragging the wire in my hand and preparing to go out, you let Li Si close the doors and windows, let me not go out! Pengman was still making a fuss without hesitation, and you couldn't see it and opened the window and yelled at her: "Pengman, roll!" You're welcome to make a fuss again! Peng Man also stayed and said to you, "Li Xu, you let her out!" I have something to say to her! You don't help her! You don't admit defeat either, and continue: "Something has said to me, something is coming at me!" After saying that, he let Li Si lock the window again. Not only did Pengman stay, but I also stayed, he was actually helping me, and helping me to be fierce against Pengman, why is this? Is it out of sympathy that you are not used to it, that is not, you are not like this, there is no precedent for this. And I heard that you were with Pengman, and later she divided you and recognized you as a brother, you have a good relationship, and she often comes to the class to find you. That makes no more sense, why don't you help me for no reason, and you are not afraid to break up with her? I'm not you.

I am a person who does not like to cause trouble, and at the same time I am a person who is not afraid of things. How can I let you help me, how can I drag you down, I naturally have to solve it myself. It's better that you don't come forward so as not to be embarrassed. You see I was determined, and I said to Li Si, "Open the door and let her out!" Li Si hesitated, and then you said, "Can't you hear me talking?" Open the door and let her out! "This is the fiercest look I have ever seen of you, your face is heavy, as if you want to eat people. I got up to leave, and you said to me in a gentle tone, "Go out and be careful!" I nodded and signaled to go out quickly, and Pengman saw the situation and said, "You are finally out!" I heard you were going to hit my sister, right? "I was looking for this, so what should I do?" Presumably, It is Li Qiuyan's credit for not being too big to see the hilarity. While telling me that Pengman thought I was going to beat her sister and beat me, he told Pengman that I was not happy with her sister and wanted to beat her sister.

Sure enough, this rumor spread a lot and the parties believed it. It's funny to think about it, I haven't said anything but done nothing and it has become a heinous thing. I smiled back and said, "When did I say I was going to beat your sister?" I don't even know who your sister is. She was also surprised, and found something wrong and said: "My sister Zhou Hanchun, the sister I recognize, don't you beat her?" "A little brain is not good, if I want to fight how to let you know, who does not know that you Pengman is so powerful, there are brothers and sisters covered, long beautiful and have a lot of boyfriends, this is not self-pleading?" Even if I have been fighting since I was a child, the fight is fierce, and I have also been called the eldest brother by the boys in our class, and it is difficult to fight with four hands with both fists, let alone so many hands? This Peng Man, the long is beautiful, that is, the brain is not very good, the IQ is not enough, being used as a gun without knowing it, and also befriending that Li Qiuyan, and thinking that people are sincere to her.

I replied: "Oh, she, I admit it is a bit contradictory, because that day I went to the commissary to buy fried skewers, she was not very polite, bullying people, bullying others, I was a little unaccustomed, I said let her pay attention, strong people are not vulnerable groups, since it is, it is more important to examine themselves, not so and so, really should not, next time, I will let her taste the past." He didn't say he was going to hit her. My sister was walking by when I said this, and I greeted her politely again. Pengman began to panic and said, "Oh, so, I thought you were going to hit her, that was your sister just now?" I said, "Yes, cousin! She said, "You're not going to ask your sister to hit me, are you?" I narrowed my eyes and said, "If you don't offend me, how can I find trouble?" If you're okay, I'll go first. Oh, next time, figure it out and make a fuss again! Don't be fooled! ”

Not long after this incident, our class turned in new classmates, because I was too brainy, so I took it upon myself to move the table to the last row of girls, sitting in the back door, also next to Li Xu, behind the table on his left. Probably only men understand men, new classmates like me, he may find it funny, and he also follows the nonsense. Sometimes sitting in class for a long time is a little sore, I want to stand, who ever thought he also stood with me, I sat down he also sat down, but also let others not allow this, really domineering! So the girls in our class started to coax, always thinking that we both had a story, and I ignored him when I was angry. He's fine, I ignore him, he ignores me.

One day when he entered the classroom, he and the male classmates accidentally bumped my hand, I kicked him angrily, that kick directly to the chin, I realized that the kick was a little too strong, so I quickly slipped back into my seat. He was also very angry and kept sitting in his seat and gasping for breath, but he didn't scold me or hit me, just knocked the table. Listening to me lying on the table crying silently, not frightened by him, but so wronged, obviously he hit me, ah, ah, so disgusting, I was uncomfortable at the thought of it, I kept hitting my hand, eager to beat everything off. I kicked him for self-preservation, and I didn't mean it, but it seemed to kick harder, and he seemed to be really angry, so terrible, oh, the first time I saw him like this. Am I doing something wrong? Should I apologize to him? After crying for a while, I was angry and guilty while Aggrieved: "I didn't mean it, who let you hit me, I'm sorry, I want to scold Youwen Zun, but you can't scold Your Father and Mother!" Hit someone in the face! It's a big deal that I let you kick it back, but you also have to apologize to me! hum! ”

He was even more angry when he saw me still crying, but he was still very angry when he heard me apologize, but he didn't blame me, and later he said to me gently: "It's okay, I don't hit girls, you don't blame yourself too much, I didn't know that you would react so much by hitting you." I didn't mean it either, sorry. ”

This man told me not to beat girls, and as a result, he actually beat my cousin behind my back, how can I bear this? One day after cleaning up from school, I met him on the way home, and he and Li Kefu and his sister were standing on the bridge next to the river, and when they walked next to them, his sister asked me: "Hello, may I ask if a person in your class with the surname Tang has left?" I replied, "I don't know, I should go." She said, "Oh, it's all right, thank you, you go." "I thought to myself, isn't there only one surnamed Tang in our class?" Ask her if she is gone, is it difficult to do something? I asked, "What's wrong?" At this time, Li Kefu and Li Xu's sister were ready to say something, but they were pulled over by Li Xu, they whispered something, and then the three of them came over, and Li Xu said to me: "It's all right, you go back quickly, don't go anymore in the dark, pay attention to safety on the road!" Li Kefu also echoed: "Yes, Rui Xue, you go back quickly, it's really okay, let's ask." I said, "Okay, then." ”

Although they said it was okay, I always felt that something was wrong, so I took a few turns until I left their sight, but I was still worried and uneasy, and I walked very slowly all the way. Later, when I saw my sister coming, I realized that my guess was indeed correct, and I really came to fight! Only to see that her cousin was beaten very badly, she was hunched over her back, staggering, looking very unenergetic.

I thought to myself why did he beat my sister? Could it be that my sister's words hit him that day between classes, angered him, it seemed like the latest thing, his face was really not good that day, I knew he was really angry, I let my sister shut up, but still provoked him? Later, I reprimanded my sister for not being measured in how she spoke. All reminded her, she said. But I have also annoyed him many times, why doesn't he do anything to me?

Curious, I wrote to him, and he didn't say why, but asked me who was my sister? I said, "Don Sugar, cousin." Cousins from childhood to adulthood. "It turns out he didn't know it was my sister, no wonder. I asked him why he was beating my sister? But he said, "I just hit me, and I don't like to hit me!" "It really embarrassed me, how could I beat him, but I had to make decisions for my sister." That day, he thought I was going to beat him, saying that I wanted to call more people, so he also called people, but he didn't fight, it was outrageous! Listen to my sister, he didn't hit her, it was the two women who hit her. In fact, if he beat my sister can also understand, after all, he is so grumpy, my sister does owe, that mouth owes not once or twice, it is time for someone to teach her, otherwise it is always not a long lesson.

Later, our relationship became better and better, he knew that I didn't like him to always tease girls, so ah, when I faced him generally not funny, it didn't take long, he wrote a love letter to confess to me, he was really vulgar, and it was really concise, just a sentence: "Zhou Ruixue, be my girlfriend!" "I thought he was joking, so I didn't respond. Later, I learned that he didn't joke much about me, and he was always different from others.

He always impressed me, even when I wasn't in school. That was the last time I saw him at school, and when I was about to get to the classroom, he jumped over coldly and smiled and stretched out his hand to me, "Don't forget the melon seeds that lost to me!" "I was about to say when I owe you melon seeds?" He just slipped away with a cigarette.

Could it be that last night's mother died, I went to eat a banquet, sitting on the stool outside the door, I saw him drunk inside the door, at first he didn't see me, but then he saw me but always stared at me, obviously he was not paying attention to drinking, and soon he stopped drinking and disappeared into my sight.

Later, when we were about to find someone to play cards, he came over again, and there was no great smell of alcohol on his body at this time. He said he was going to play too, he was good at playing cards, and in order to make me lose his melon seeds, he also asked someone to prepare a deck of unused cards for him, to steal the day. Then I kept losing, I wanted to peel the melon seeds for him, Li Qiuyan angrily took the melon seeds and threw him in the face, and the two of them got into a fight, and I quietly watched them perform.

Then he sat on the bench and talked to me, and I asked him, "Why don't you go to school?" "Originally, June 1 was still ready to watch you perform, but I didn't look at it, and no one saw it." He lifted his right foot and said to me, "Do you think I can go like this?" "I was thinking about how his foot hurt, it looked so bad." Only one sentence was said: "Oh. He leaned in a little angrily and said, "Oh, you're just going to say oh?" Can't you just care about me? hum! Can't you say something comforting to me? "He approached, I began to retreat, I thought to myself he peach blossom so much, where do you need my comfort?" Besides, is it that important for me?

I never saw him again in the second semester of my second year of junior high school, and the teacher said that he had dropped out of school. Goodbye to him, it was on a cold day, when I went to school to take the new highway to the vicinity of the second mother's house, there was a car that kept honking its horn at me, I thought I didn't stand in the way, this road is so wide, the press is dead, I was thinking about looking back, I wanted to have a good theory, who thought it was him, he rode on a motorcycle, honked the horn to greet me, attracted my attention, when he passed by, he slowed down, leaned over and gently said to me: "Hurry up, be careful of being late!" "For a moment, I was speechless. It was him, it was him, I looked at the back of his departure, he drove away for a while and then looked back at me, nodded and left, never to be seen again.

I can't help but think that when I first met him, he was also riding on a motorcycle, under the pomegranate tree, and we looked at each other and saw each other as we always did. Although the weather was cold, it was the height of summer. One run to me, one run to the future.

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