First time mom

At the end of April this year, I finally became a mother and my son Starfish was born. Because my blood pressure is high and the urine protein is elevated, the doctor is afraid of pre-eclampsia, so it was decided that full term must be hospitalized to induce labor, after two induction of labor is still unsuccessful, and finally the doctor said that it would be a caesarean section. He was supposed to be born in mid-May, but he was born in April. This matter has always been remembered in my heart, although it is full term, but it is only full term, I always feel sorry for him, did not let him stay in the stomach more time, more nutrition. Therefore, I can't allow others to mention this matter, as if it is a pain point for me, and it will sting me at any time.

After staying in the hospital for seven or eight days, I went home to confinement, because I was late in the hospital, so I never fed much breast milk, and let Starfish drink milk powder first every day. When I got home, I gradually had breast milk, but the child didn't like to suck anymore, so he could only pull it out and feed it with a bottle, but it didn't take long for the milk to become less and less. The soup drank a lot, but it did not work, the mood became more and more tense, and the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law did not get along well, and the breast milk was basically gone. My husband said to drink milk powder, and I agreed, so I decisively weaned breast milk.

Almost out of the confinement, I thought about it or decided to take the baby myself, my parents are not in good health before leaving the hospital, and the relationship with the mother-in-law is not harmonious, and after consulting with the husband, he also agreed, the first mother, I do not know if I can be a good mother, can only do my best, take a step to see a step.