What is not obtained is always in turmoil, and the favored are always fearless. People have never cherished what they have at their fingertips. This is more vividly reflected in the evolution of love.
Xu Guangping is Lu Xun's wife, and she was one of the first women of the new era in the old social period. In her twenties, she was attracted by Mr. Lu Xun's elegance and humor. Later, she braved herself and married Lu Xun, who was in his forties, at the age of 27.
In the beginning, they were happy and beautiful. But under the polishing of time, Xu Guangping's position in Lu Xun's heart also changed from white moonlight to rice particles.
For the sake of Lu Xun, Xu Guangping gave up his ideals and preferences. In order to save money, she even made clothes with quilt noodles. In order to cope with potential changes, she also saved private money. But her whole body and mind are still in her and Lu Xun's small family after all.
What Xu Guangping did not expect was that Lu Xun's attitude towards her was becoming increasingly cold. Even when he was sick in bed, Lu Xun had a portrait of a strange woman next to him. The deep love of love is disgusted everywhere after marriage, and Xu Guangping's heart is also a hundred times, with countless heartaches.
Letters came and went, and feelings gradually developed
In that old era of foot binding, there were countless feudal bad habits. Xu Guangping was born into a semi-civilized gentleman's family, and at her own strong request, her family did not wrap her feet and allowed her to go to school like other boys.
At that time, Xu Guangping ran to Beiping to go to school and became one of the first batch of female college students in China. It can be said that Xu Guangping is a more typical woman who is at the forefront of the new era and has new ideas.
When Xu Guangping was in his second year at University, Lu Xun came to Beijing Women's Normal University to work part-time to teach Chinese language courses to students. It was 1923, and Lu Xun's reputation in the literary world was already very high. When the students heard that Mr. Lu Xun was coming, they waited in the classroom early.
After the class bell rang, a cold-looking, shabby-dressed gentleman walked in. His pale green pants were full of patches and looked very shabby. Seeing this scene, many female students sighed and said that they had never imagined that Mr. Lu Xun was actually an old man like a beggar.
But when he started teaching in Mandarin, the students' attention was instantly drawn. Xu Guangping was sitting below listening to the lecture, and she, like other classmates, was busy taking notes. After all, Lu Xun's class was really good.
Since then, Mr. Lu Xun's class has become the one that Xu Guangping is most looking forward to.
After listening to the lecture for a year, Xu Guangping took the initiative to write a long letter to Mr. Lu Xun, expounding in his heart his thoughts and distresses on certain issues, and wanted to ask Mr. Lu Xun to give some guidance and help. After receiving the letter, Mr. Lu Xun was touched by his earnest words and patiently replied to a long letter. But as for the solution, Lu Xun said that he could not find it at present.
Thus, the correspondence between the two men was a second, third, and innumerable. Regarding the issues that Xu Guangping is concerned about, the two have always discussed in depth again and again.
Perhaps it is the combination of soul and thought that makes Xu Guangping and Lu Xun's feelings become more intimate in the exchange of letters. They became more and more affectionate with each other, from the beginning of "Mr. Lu Xun" and "Brother Guangping" to the later "Dear" and "Little Devil".
Two-way rush, achieve good stories
In October 1925, Xu Guangping came to Lu Xun's residence in Xisanjo. At that time, Lu Xun was sitting on a rattan chair on the desk, Xu Guangping was sitting at the head of the bed, and the two talked a lot and talked speculatively.
The ambiguous feelings coupled with the girl's heartbeat made the 27-year-old Xu Guangping boldly hold Lu Xun's hand. That year, Lu Xun was 44 years old. This year-old love affair, which was almost 20 years apart, made Lu Xun's heart soften a lot. From this day on, the two were officially confirmed to be in a romantic relationship.
The following fall, Lu Xun was wanted by the Beiyang government for supporting the students' patriotic movement. In order to avoid suspicion, Lu Xun decided to go to Xiamen and go to Xiamen University to work as a liberal arts professor for a period of time. During this period, Xu Guangping remained in Beijing.
In 1927, Lu Xun ran to Guangzhou again and went to teach at Sun Yat-sen University. At this time, Xu Guangping left everything behind and chased Lu Xun to Guangzhou. At that time, Lu Xun was a professor in the school, and Xu Guangping was his assistant. Later, the two rented a house together and began to live together.
The initial cohabitation life was very sweet, Mr. Lu Xun would romantically ask her to go to the movie, and would carefully take care of her small emotions and take her out for a walk. Shortly thereafter, the two married and started a family. At that time, Xu Guangping was very happy every day.
Two years later, Xu Guangping gave birth to a son for Lu Xun, named Haiying. The arrival of this little life has increased the joy of the lives of the two people, but also a lot of triviality and fatigue. Of course, compared with Lu Xun, Xu Guangping was more tired.
When triviality triumphs over romance
I don't know whether it was because of having a son or because the two people had been together for a long time, Xu Guangping gradually found that Lu Xun's attitude towards himself had changed a lot.
When Xu Guangping wanted to go to the park with Lu Xun to relax, Lu Xun said that there was nothing to visit in the park except for the walkways and trees. After listening to this, Xu Guangping was speechless.
Lu Xun's home was always very lively, because he had many friends. Every time he entertains guests, Xu Guangping has to cook and prepare meals himself. Sometimes four or five dishes are prepared, sometimes seven or eight dishes are prepared. In addition to cooking, she also feeds her son and changes diapers. When she felt hard and wanted to hire a cook, Lu Xun said that it was too expensive and made her work harder.
As a result, Xu Guangping's life revolves around her husband and children every day, without a little personal space and career. Xu Guangping's painstaking efforts and energy were unreservedly contributed to her and Lu Xun's family.
A friend sent a quilt noodle when the baby was born and asked her to use it as a quilt. Xu Guangping was reluctant to make this piece of material into clothes. The money saved, she spent on her husband.
She also had private money, three hundred dollars. Lu Xun also knew about this money. Xu Guangping once said that if she had to leave Mr. Zhou one day, she would be able to live with this money for half a year and find another job.
Her love for Lu Xun has never been diluted by the passage of time. But Lu Xun's love for her, how much is left in the end?
In 1936, Lu Xun was seriously ill, lying in bed every day, unable to move. Next to his pillow was a painting of a woman in a long skirt running against the wind. Lu Xun had many paintings, but he always looked at them when he was seriously ill. Why? Lu Xun did not say, and Xu Guangping did not ask. Who is this woman? Xu Guangping didn't know either.
brief summary:
"I've seen you love me, so I know what it's like when you don't love me." The blandness and triviality of life made Lu Xun's love for his wife gradually return to calm and impatience. Is this Xu Guangping's fault? No, it's just an option.
There will inevitably be many temptations in life, and how to stand firm in the face of temptations is a problem that each of us needs to think about. Of course, never take the good of others for granted.