Dear Guys,
See the letter well!
I knew I was depressed because I found that the world I was looking at now was different from the original world.
The world is gray now, everything comes with a dark filter, and there is nothing around me that can interest me. Dealing with people is also, do not believe in other people's kindness to me, always feel that it is purposeful, do not easily confide in others, so it has been a long time, I myself understand, I am painting the ground as a prison, but I can't help myself, I don't think someone can help me. Now, every day I wake up, the first feeling in my head is: I am not happy until I fall asleep again.
But I know that the world is not all like this, it's just that my inner world is sick.
I remember that the world before I didn't get sick was really colorful, and the love of my parents, the beauty of nature, and the surprises I encountered when I explored the world by myself made me very happy every day.
Many people asked if I was hurt, if someone had bullied me, if I had suffered any setbacks. Watching them think hard about why, I want to laugh. It's sudden, it's the result of a long-standing disappointment, but it should make me sad, and what really makes me depressed is that I can't see my head on this path, I don't know what it makes for me to continue like this, and it's not what I want.
Yes, I'm complaining. I don't mind doing my homework endlessly, but I hate to make me outstanding. The sense of competition established since I was a child has made me a soldier, and I am even more afraid that if I can't do it, I will disappoint my parents. Every time I lose my temper with them, I actually suffer more than them, and I just want them to know that I really can't do it every time.
I tried to talk to my parents, but you will only say believe me, I will definitely do it. I'm really stressed, I can't do it. What I'd rather hear is that whether I do it or not, I'm your favorite child.
I didn't tell the teacher, because every time the teacher read the grade, I knew that I couldn't be a good student, so I didn't have to be a burden on the teacher anymore, all I had to do was sit in the rules and turn in my homework on time.
Sometimes I'm very much looking forward to sleeping, dreaming of going back to my childhood, and that's really happy. All the good stuff I can get. Daddy's hugs, Mom's kisses, glowing Trojan horses, fun amusement parks, colorful zoos. You have woven a wonderful childhood for me, but you have connected it with a stressful youth, and I really can't adapt to this transformation.
Be a good child, a good student, obedient, excellent, hard work, what a positive energy, but this positive energy I exhausted my whole body strength, can not be dissipated. I was also happy in the occasional pedigree class, but when I found that even running had to be done with the purpose of completing the target, I instantly lost the motivation to run.
Maybe I'm too pretentious, maybe I'm too cowardly, then let me sink, I don't want to do anything, I just sit quietly, my eyes don't seem to move, I can stare at something for a long time, my heart can't see beauty, my eyes don't matter what it looks at.
I also started not thinking about anything because I didn't have the autonomy to choose what I wanted, a marionette, and it was silly to have a vision and anticipation of things.
Learn a word in English: PUSH, that is really a very strong memory, because my state, is always pushed forward, forced to do, this is what you call growth, how to be so tired. My self-esteem is both strong and sensitive. A reprimand can make me angry and cry, I don't know what's wrong with me, it should be a mental disorder
The classmates around me, more or less, have problems, Xiaohong dropped out of school because her parents cheated; Xiao Fat, because the discipline at home was too strict, she quarreled with her family every time and became a well-known "problem teenager". In fact, I quite appreciate them, because I do not have the courage to express, I will only put the dissatisfaction in my heart, once in a while to vent, after the guilt, I will no longer express, accumulation, and gradually I found that I will not laugh.
Suicide, this word I am also very evasive, I admit, I still do not want my parents to be sad, which supports me to continue, because I know that they have no bad intentions, it is this environment.
(Social news: The 21-year-old girl, despite the persuasion of others, jumped off Mount Emei and unfortunately died. ）
But I can understand those who bid farewell to the world's friends, it is too painful, there is no hope, just go, to use a popular hot word among our classmates to describe it: tired and not in love.
Or when a white cloud is happy, floating carefree, going wherever it wants. I don't know if I will be better if I change the environment, but no one has made such a suggestion, all, forget it, just carry the depression to the end, waste it, anyway, my spiritual world has been empty.
Give me another chance, I will choose not to grow up, but it seems impossible, then I choose this world I have not come.
Aishi Reviews:
After carefully reading the confession of the last high school girl, I felt very distressed. She is very sensible, cares about the feelings of her parents, and also respects the feelings of others, so that she chooses to seek perfection to cover up her negative feelings, and over time she cannot get the correct guidance and discharge, and enters the ranks of depression.
We can see the mechanism of her depression:
1 Emotional fault: carefree childhood, unable to withstand competitive pressure after school;
2 External pressure: parents, schools and other social environments instilled in her the requirements of "excellence", when not met, it can not be recognized, adolescent mood is easy to fluctuate, not recognized will produce frustration, resulting in her will also put pressure on herself, like the "three mountains" pressure.
3 Long-term fixing "focus": Long-term focus on these stresses themselves, do not carry out emotional transfer, resulting in deepening depression.
4 Negative effects: Negative events that occur around you create a negative co-frequency circle layer, making it more difficult to accept positive information.
How to break them one by one?
1 love care: this is the basis for the treatment of all mental illnesses, many times, the child's psychological problems, because the outside world, especially from the parents to give too little care, this kind of care is not material to achieve, is care, companionship, recognition, trust, lack of care is easy to make children have their own unimportant, not worthy of attention or abandoned negative emotions.
2 Enhance willpower: On the basis of parental companionship, educate children to use strong and independent willpower to enhance and enhance endurance.
3 Stop pressure: At this time, all pressure behavior should be stopped to cut off the sensitive source of depression in children.
4 Transfer interest: Avoid letting children continue to be trapped in a stressful environment, go out and contact nature more, in order to integrate into nature to divert attention and let children feel the meaningful side of life.
5 Positive Effects: Encourage children to actively fight depression, share positive examples, and let children share positive emotions.
For people with depression, medical treatment is important, but the understanding and support of those around them is also essential.
When you learn that your child or someone around you is suffering from depression, don't be indifferent, don't ignore it, give them a little more care, a little more understanding.
Aishi appeal: Let us face depression together, so that every child can grow up in the sunshine, they are our future.